Hey everyone! Over 6oo reviews, thanks repeatedly! It's so great! Before you know it I will have reached the 1000 mark (that's my aim!), so keep up the support! Now, on to important things, all you who dislike the idea of a Tad/Kai fic, don't panic (or stop reading, yeah I'm talking to a certain someone there, I mean, don't you actually have to be related to have incest? Being close is not like incest!). Kai's a long way off ready for a relationship, and things that happen between him and Tad are close, but it will be like a best friends, same past thing. To those who really, intensely, hate the idea of Kai being close to Tad, your in the wrong fanfic, coz they are close, and they are not gonna stop being close! If things happen between Kai and Tad, then it's gonna happen and its gonna be like finding things out about themselves and each other. Those of you who like the idea can bask in the close friendship of promises. Now, satisfied people? You lot can be picky sometimes, especially when this is my story!(yeah, I know I ask for it when I ask your opinions, but some of you really do surprise me! (You'd think you'd want Kai to stop suffering and be happy!). Anyway, on with the story! There's going to be something good here at the end, for the sake of Kai's sanity!

Kai didn't feel embarrassed to cry in front of Tadashi, she had seen far worse, and even been the cause of it. But now her comforting hand stroking his back, playing with his hair as he calmed down showed her other side, her real one. Not the one Biovolt made her walk around wearing. He could feel himself lulled by the scenario, and he had to stop himself before he fell into sleep. He pushed away from Tadashi and blinked sleep away from his eyes. He could hear laughing outside, and controlled curiosity got the better of him.

"C'mon Tad" was all he said as led the way to the direction of the noise.

They walked in silence, just listening to the sounds that sounded so full of cheer, happiness, something Kai's spirit wanted to drink in and hold. It was something he hadn't felt for a long time, not fully. He was almost envious of the laughter that drifted through the air.

They landed up in the garden. Sunlight bathed the garden in a rosy glow. His team were bunched in a group, slaps on the back, handshakes, and smiles were shared around. But it was mainly aimed at two of them. Kai gave a shadowed smile as he saw Hilary and Tyson holding hands.

"It's about time!" he whispered to Tadashi, who grinned in return.

"I know, they have been very obvious in their actions, I was surprised when I realised they were not together, I am happy for them now they are." She replied.

Kai remembered how good Tadashi was at reading body language, to her the subtlest moves must have rang as clear as a bell. They approached the group.

Kai stood in front of Tyson, who just stared back with the grin still plastered against his tanned cheeks. Then Kai smiled back, and the two raised arms to lock hands together in a warm and friendly gesture. Kai then gave Hilary a nod and a smile. She could only blush back, realising how the others may have noticed all this before the two involved did. It wasn't a very comforting thought. It wasn't long into the celebrating that Tyson declared himself staving and they decided food was a good idea.

They moved to the kitchen, only to find Samantha and Tyson's dad making a huge plate of sandwiches. Kai felt his stomach roll and protest at the smell of the food, and he quickly backed out of the kitchen. At Tadashi's glance, he mentioned something about going to the bathroom. It did no good to lie to her, she saw through that easily, but she also had enough sense to know when Kai wanted to be alone. He gratefully walked away from the now bustling kitchen.

When the group noticed the spare seat, Tadashi used Kai's own lie. It was easy to lie when you knew what to hide. It would satisfy them for a while at least. They continued to chat amongst themselves, only Tadashi was quite.
Kai walked away from the house, he wasn't in the mood for celebrating, and certainly not for food. Even when he wasn't hungry, which was most of the time, his stomach had never protested so badly to the smell and sight of food. It was slightly unnerving, but then Kai wasn't sure what he felt anymore. The cool air and warm sun played gently across his skin, and he relaxed under its caress. It was good to be alive, sometimes.

He walked on, knowing where he was going this time. Because he was walking, even if his walk was naturally fast paced, it took him nearly double the time to get the beach. He took off his trainers and walked bare foot down the sand to stop in the same place as before, his faded footprints a sign of his previous visit. This time he sat down, and he just waited.

His thoughts soon drifted into blankness, his eyelids grew heavy. He just couldn't feel how tired he was till it was too late. He fell softly to the sand, and sleep overtook him. It wasn't long before he dreamed.
And what did he dream of? All the faces of those from the abbey swirled before his vision. They were everywhere he looked against the bleak background. His feet seemed to struggle against something. Looking down, his feet seemed to be wading through something thick and red, blood. It started to rain down from the twisted sky, falling into the blood on the ground with small splashes. Kai lifted his face as it soaked his hair and wings. He could feel it dripping from his nose, feathers, and fingertips. The wind picked up, and with it came the screams Kai had heard so many times. Children and adults mixed together in the haunting symphony. Kai could even pick out ones that he remembered clearly, his parents, Tori, the nameless boy, the man he killed. They all screamed out at him.

Kai placed his hands against his ears and screamed back, his eyes shut tight. The world spun around him, his blood drenched wings folded around him, trying to shut out the noises and faces. He felt himself fall until he landed heavily in something wet.
Kai startled awake. He had thrashed around in the sand and was now half submerged in the surf. The tide had been coming in as he had slept. He sat up, a strange feeling in the pit of his stomach. He tried to shrug it off, but it persisted. He looked around, noticing it was getting cooler and darker, he had been asleep for the afternoon, and now evening was upon him. He tried to think of his dream, tried to make sense of it. He didn't really feel guilt for all of them did he? No, he told himself determinately, it wasn't his fault, he had to remember that. Maybe getting rid of Voltaire was a good idea, but he wasn't sure he could stand there and tell people what had happened to him and others in there. Would Tadashi give evidence? He didn't know, but then she was stronger willed then he was, maybe she could handle it.

The feeling grew stronger; it seemed to pulse deep inside him. He got onto his hands and knees, the sensation was desperate. He began to claw in the sand around him, shifting through the salty water; they were here, so close! By being asleep, he had missed the sensation build, missed hearing them call him. What was dry on him now became soaked; his hair flopped against his face in heavy, salty strands. Then his hand connected with something hard in the soft sand. He scooped it up, clenching his fist to displace the handful of grains he had picked up at the same time. Red gleamed in his now open fist, Dranzer had come.

But the feeling didn't go away, using his empty hand, he continued to look. He had to find Black Dranzer; he couldn't be whole without the other bitbeast.

Even though Black Dranzer was bad, and only felt destruction, Kai would still be incomplete. Black Dranzer was another part of him, the darker side. Things needed balance to survive, and this was Kai's.

His fingers curled around another smooth object. Pulling it up, he held the black bit chip in his other hand.

Maybe he should have laughed, or jumped for joy, but the relief was so much, all he could do was sigh. He sat there, in the sea, just staring at them in his hands. They glowed in return.

"You back, you came back! Thank you!" Kai whispered to them. The two phoenixes keened in reply. Kai felt better then he had done for a long time.
It was well into the night when Kai made it back to the granger's house. Everyone was still up, waiting for him. No one would admit looking for him when they realised he had gone, but the glint in Tadashi's eyes told him it had been quite amusing for her to watch when they had.

Samantha stood, "Kai, are you ok, your soaking wet!"

Kai gave her the most genuine smile he could ever remember, one that touched his eyes, "for once, I'm fine."

"Dude, did you just smile? I mean really smile?" asked Tyson, his arm never leaving its place around Hilary's shoulder.

Kai nodded, and held out his still sandy hands. The bitbeasts gleamed in his palms. The roar that came from his friends startled him. They surrounded him, telling him how great it was. Kai shrank away from the touches, he hadn't expected this, and was still edgy about being touched. His sore rear reminded him of that every time he sat down. They noticed and quieted down.

"Sorry man" said Max.

Kai shook his head, "its ok, I'm just not ready, not yet, but I have come to a decision."

Everyone waited, wondering what Kai had to make a decision over.

Kai took a deep breath, "I will give evidence, I want to be free of Voltaire."

Cheers went up again, and Tadashi nodded at Kai.

"That's great Kai, I'll let Mr. Dickinson know; now you need a shower, and the rest need bed!" mothered Samantha.

They groaned at the thought, but went when she said.

"Look, the faster you go to bed, the faster you can go out tomorrow!" then added at Kai's look, "we are all going to the mall tomorrow, Tadashi needs clothes, you need some more, and we all need something smart for the trial. Its going to be a day out." Finished the red haired nurse.

Kai nodded again and headed for his shower. He had never been in a mall, and Tadashi had never even seen one, maybe tomorrow will be interesting. He was reluctant when it came to putting down the bitbeasts, but he really did need the shower.
The angels died

The heavens thundered and lightning struck

The sky seemed to tear apart

A war was waging to end it all

Death struck accurate like a dart

The ground seemed too boil as it rolled and heaved

Yet no-one appeared to notice

The air was filled with the screams of those lost

All those dead would never be missed

Those slaved to serve humanity fight

Their battle cries are song

The fight had only just started

But had waged for forever long

Their tears mingle with the blood

Of those fallen when they were slain

No bodies left to weep over

They can only stand where their brethren had lain

The world will never know

Of the sacrifices made

They will never see the blood

As it falls in crimson rain

Lost feathers scattered to the winds

Once a symbol of hope and faith

Now drift through eternity

Scarlet stained they lie in waste

Why did I see this battle?

The sorrow is more to bear

The lost will never be silent

Their memories I will always wear

I will never leave this guilt behind

The war was fought for me

From when I fell from grace that day

The laws were changed, ceased to be

A fallen angel has no where they belong

No place they can call home

They drift till time stands still

Then they dream of all that's gone

Those immortal lost their lives

Now destined to walk the earth

They were reborn only a part of who they are

Half angels are a gift and a curse

As I am to walk alone between planes

They must live forever among mortals

Those they were meant to protect

All because I was their blight, their fall

I ask for no forgiveness

From those who would give too much

I will find a way to put them back

They will not suffer more from my touch

Because I fell, because I wronged

All because I spoke a lie

I will be sorry evermore

As I let the angels die