Marco and Hazel, Hazel and Marco. How did we get together and how did we break up?
I knew soon our daughter Natalia Marie Del Rossi would soon wonder, and she would also wonder why was her father with a man.
I wanted to tell her the truth so she wouldn't grow to resent me like Ashley did her mother. I knew that eventually Natalia would have three daddies, four including her godfather. She'd have a biological dad, two step dads, and a godfather.
"I'm tired of being gay," Marco cried to me. "Dylan and I are having problems again."
"There are other guys then Dylan," I reminded him. "Don't stop being who you are."
I wanted to comfort him, but he needed a friend. I ended up staying up all night for a favor, that he'd sleep with me. I know it was dumb and stupid, but I couldn't help it. I wanted to get pregnant so that he'd have a reason to stay with me. As soon as I found out I told him, but he was with Dylan again, then.
"I'll be a father, I want to take care of it," he said. "I just don't love you Hazel, not like that way. I'm with Dylan now."
Not the answer I wanted to hear.
"But don't you want to be together for our baby."
"I don't want to live a lie."
Duh Hazel, I told myself. He wants to be with his boyfriend.
"I'll take care of it though," he repeated. "I'll be a good father, I promise."
I believed him.
He kept his promise.
I loved him.
He loved someone else.
Paige and I promised to move to New York, but we stayed in Ontario since Paige was back with Craig. So I was alone, and I had bought my own home so that Paige and Craig would have their privacy. They insisted I stayed, but I insisted on leaving.
I wound up falling in love with someone else and I was happy to have someone take my mind off of Marco. We ended up lasting, even after the love had disappeared. Love is like a vernal pond, eventually it dries up.
I thought of the quote "Love is like a vernal pond, eventually it dries up," in science class. Hahaha. This was the last chapter I worked on and I was in a rush because I wanted to post them!