Author's notes: Another depressing chapter to another depressing story. I do realize they are short, but they'll get longer soon. If they don't..well..You'll have less reading to do! That's always good, right?
For those who's taste in fanfiction doesn't allow them to get interested in this story, my fanfiction "Claws" is alot more...happy..umm..silly..cute...that sort of thing. "Sure he's cute. If your into dogs that is." Kagome quote that may be a little disturbing, just for you. Here ya go!
Disclaimer: I do not Own Kagome, InuYasha, Kikyou or any other character in this story. I promise...someday however, the time will come! evil laughter Ahem...Of course it will have to be legal..darn.
Chapter two, The gift of life
Kagome's curiosity about InuYasha and his where abouts, had burrowed beneath her skin and became the nasty itch that tormented her all day , through school.
Her day had been horrible, her previous outbreak the day before had cost her dearly and the principal needed to have a "Word with her".
Kagome sought out the girl to whom the bubble gum belonged and had a "Word with her." In other words, in the end of the talk, the girl ended up with a black eye and a serious phobia of bubble gum. Due to this happening, Kagome visited her good pal, The principal, yet again.
The clique the girl belonged to, found out about Kagome's talk with their gal pal and cornered her in P.E, throwing nasty comments in her face, spitting in her hair, and making hissing noises at her all day long, each time they passed her in the hall way.
This didn't bother Kagome, she was used to it. She shed not one tear after this, which bothered the clique. Apparently, this meant they had to try harder.
At the end of the day, as the school bell sounded, Kagome's heart leapt with a combination of Joy and relief that she had survived yet another day of torture. She snatched up her things and stepped outside of the school into the glorious after noon sun, to find two seconds later, a bucket filled with 2 week old sushi mixed with what smelled like sake and feet , on her head.
She lifted the bucket which contained the deathly smelling combination off of her head. The grounds erupted with that familiar shallow laughter, only this time, no one was making the least bit of an attempt to suppress it.
With an earth shattering thump, the bucket crashed against the concrete on the walkway. The rage Kagome had experienced earlier still burned within, and this stunt had awoken it again. She felt the need to scream, to tear away at the girls throats with her exceptionally long finger nails. She wanted them to pay, although her thirst for vengeance wasn't as great as the clique's, and she found herself always excepting the horrible things people did to her and in the end, doing nothing.
Tears of rage burned in her eyes, making it difficult to focus.
"Not so tough now, are you?" A brave, yet familiar voice rang out from the crowd of people standing around her, rising above the laughter.
Kagome's dark, anger filled eyes darted towards the new speaker.
"Do you feel that threatened by me? Are you afraid I'll do to you what I did to your little friend?" Kagome said coldly.
She glared into the eyes of one of her former best friends. Two years ago they would have taken a bullet for her..but now- this.
"So defensive" She sneered, a taunting tone in her voice. "Like a little cornered rat."
Kagome couldn't help but let a small chuckle escape through a sigh. " Is that what I am? a rat? Last time I was..oh what was it?" She pretended to think hard, letting her eyes dart up towards the sky. "Oh yes, a retarded sneak? Was that it?"
" You smell like a rat, that's for sure." Another voice pierced through the now deadly silent yard.
"With no help from you I'm sure. " Kagome rolled her eyes, she couldn't believe the stupidity in their argument, it was almost unreal. "So I'm stinky, stupid AND ugly?"
"Glad you get it." The first speaker sneered again.
"I'd be worried if I were you. That a retarded sneak is passing advanced algebra with a 99%, when you yourself are receiving but a mere 71%". She replied, the cold tone in her voice could have trapped her foes in a giant block of ice if they were any nearer.
"H-How do you know that?!" She blushed, her voice a little more frantic.
"Oh, so I'm NOT an idiot then? Perhaps it is you who is the idiot, I for one pay attention to the things around me, rather than have my head so far up my butt I couldn't even tell you what day it was. Perhaps you could tell me another person in this conversation who is like that?I'm really curious to know." Kagome's voice was steady and still remained cold and almost monotonous except for that tiny hint of a tone of triumph shining through.
" You have no right in my business!" She growled defensively, her voice trembling with fury.
"And you have so much right to mine then?" Kagome raised an eye brow, almost challenging her to continue and make a larger fool of herself.
Still drenched, but triumphant, Kagome brushed past her fallen challenger, whispering the words "What day is it?" in her ear as she passed. When she turned back to look at the girl's face, seeing the blank look, she winked and turned forwards yet again.
She couldn't help but feel a tiny bit better after this, but she didn't show any change in her mood at all as she trudged away calm as ever.
When she returned home, she took a boiling hot bath and washed as much of the horrid stench out of her hair as possible. Afterwards however, she did her daily chores as usual.
This time, when she went into the shrine to put a mysterious looking, sealed box inside, she found herself staring transfixedly at the dark, web filled well. The calm emptiness of her room made her feel that she could be open. No longer having to hold to her emotions in to hide her pain within. Her eyes filled with the familiar hot tears of frustration and anger that the teen had kept hidden within herself for the past two years. Before Kagome could stop herself, she began to wail uncontrollably.
Tears made salty streams down her pale cheeks, dampening the collar of her school uniform. Her knees gave way and she fell hard to the ground, letting her head fall gently into her arms as the rest of her hit the ground with a thud.
And there she lay, for hours on end, in a fetal position next to the well, crying her heart out, her feelings finally finding their way out into the open.
When she finally managed to lift her heavy head from her arms, she gazed longingly at the old unused well. She wished more than ever that InuYasha were there. He would have been more than glad to console her. But the fact of the matter was, that he wasn't. and this, however, Kagome was convinced was the fault of Kikyou. If she were not in the way, perhaps it would have been her and InuYasha on the other side of the well, together. Of course, thinking like that wasn't exactly something that made her feel very civil.
Pulling herself off the ground, kagome leaned against the opening of the well, staring down into the darkness inside.
If she were to return, she wasn't even sure if InuYasha would recognize her, or even if he did, would want her back. after all, he had Kikyou, and that was all he ever wanted in the first place..
On the other hand, he had said he wanted to stay with her. If that were so, why did he go to Kikyou without any hesitance? Kagome began to fiddle with a strand of her black hair.
To think of it all! After all that time they had spent searching for the Shikon no tama shards, she had wasted it on such a thing! She knew she would regret it.
She felt for InuYasha. She could feel his heartbreak, his longing desire for Kikyou. In a last resort to restore the hanyou's happiness, she used the sacred jewel's power to bring the maiden priestess's life back to her, so that that emptiness in his heart could finally be filled. Her attempt to help him regain his happiness was successful.
When Kagome returned, however, InuYasha did not come to visit her once. Sometimes, shortly after, she would wait up late at night, her window wide open. She would sit cross legged on her bed and stare blankly at the window, as if she expected him to leap in at any moment and scoop her into his arms, telling her how much he missed her. But this, did not come. Her nights of waiting up gradually became shorter, until they ceased completely, and all Kagome's hope had disappeared as well as part of her heart. InuYasha may have had filled his spot, but her spot remained empty and pained her constantly.' At least he's happy...'
Finally, Kagome made her own conclusions. She really was just a jewel detector to him, and nothing more. She had thought that they had shared a strong bond, but she also was naive and dumb. She must have been..to assume such a thing.
She grasped the edge of the well and tried her best to hoist herself to her feet, although she still felt a little dizzy.
The well hadn't worked for her before when she did not posses the jewel shards..so there was a chance that InuYasha was unable to visit, which was the tiny hope she still held in the back of her heart. On the other hand, she preferred that InuYasha would have just been avoiding her, rather than having her whole window to her happiness sealed forever.
Still, the chance still lingered, although Kagome was reluctant to try and take advantage of it. She was afraid that if she tried, it wouldn't work..if this happened, she wouldn't know what to do. So instead, Kagome had chosen to avoid the subject all together...until now.
Now was different, Kagome was more open. It was a strange feeling, but she was less afraid, although she still shivered a little when she gazed into the endless darkness of the well.
Swinging one leg at a time over the edge of the well, Kagome carefully lowered herself onto the rickety ladder. She almost slipped a few times, but regaining her balance, managed to reach the bottom of the well in no time. Encased in the thick darkness, Kagome looked around her. Holding her breath, she let go of the ladder and touched the dirt bottom of the well.
she closed her eyes tightly, opening them again a few moments later.
Nothing happened.
'I really am an idiot...' Her heart sank.
Well..I made kagome alot smarter than she actually is..sorry Kagome fans..but the girl's a tiny bit...off..It has been two years after all..so I guess with all her free time, she cracked a few books, eh? Don't cry either..I won't allow it..