Monou Saya
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"If there really is hell, then I'm sure I will be going there. But no matter what others say, I am still very happy."
She was a woman filled with sins. Her husband loved her, and she had a perfect family with two adorable children. What more could a woman want? But she had always been lying. She married Monou Kyougo because of love, because of her loved for someone else. She lived her whole life for that someone, and even died for her, but all the time she had the option of living a simple life, a life on one would be unsatisfied with. Why didn't she choose it?
Just because Magami Tooru was special? She chose death over living just because that one person was special to her?
It sounds like an ideal example for romanticism, but how many people are willing to do that? Is it bravery or stupidity? There is but a fine line between these two, and nether option is totally correct, or absolutely wrong. There is no definition.
But she was glad that she could die in place of Tooru. Even if she would go to hell, she was happy. Everyone has the right to do what they think would make them happy, as long as it does not harm others. She could see into the future, but only the future related to Tooru. She had seen this coming. She could have run away, and easily escape it. But she chose to die. She had the right to choose to die. She was happy to die.
Didn't she feel guilty?
She would be leaving her family behind. Her son was only eleven years old, and her daughter at ten. Just the day before she died, her daughter held her hand tightly and told her not to go anywhere. Just the moment before she died, her husband told her that he had known her love was with someone else even before they got married. But he still married her, because he loved her. It was impossible to not feel guilty.
But she had to die for Tooru, or else there was no point in her living anymore. She knew that she was born for Tooru, and would die for Tooru.
She was a woman filled with sins. She was a woman filled with happiness.
Everyone thought that they could choose their own future. She thought so too.
But their destiny was foreordained.
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