Chapter 11- My Life is Not Worth Living

So there goes my life. First I kill someone Second I am going to go to jail Third my boyfriend dumped me Fourth my dog is starting to stink up the house Fifth my dad is getting worse if you know what I mean. and Sixth it is the one year anniversary of the death of my baby. God I won't press charges if someone killed me right now I would have considered it a miracle. Because my life is a living hell anyway.

I stood in the hall way. The now cold dark hallway with no life....no joy....no point of being there. J.T. walks up to me...Tinker-Bell starts to move around in her carrying case but slowly stops. I figured he was o.k. with what happened between us and I guess he just wanted to be friends anyway and he wasn't ready for the whole girlfriend boyfriend thing you know. And I was fine with us just being friends to because right now I really needed a friend since I had non again well I had Paige but and her crew but whatever. While I was standing there I started to cry because Craig was talking to Paige. Oh Yeah did I tell you there going out. I know right....I told you Paige was tired of Spinner so once Craig told her what happened between me and him they became an official couple funny huh.

"Manny whats wrong" J.T. asked while looking at me with his dark brown eyes. "Yo..you wouldn't understand." I said tears streaming down my eyes. "Shoot me" he said That only made me feel worse because Ashley said that right before I shot her. "Have you ever loved someone so much that you would do anything to get them back." I said looking him in the eyes the tears going away "So much that you would kill someone just to get them back. " I added "Manny..." he started "Exactly..you don't understand" I said while walking away "Are you sure about that" he whispered. Oh My Gosh did J.T. really love me? Oh well I doubt it and I don't have feelings for him anyway.

"See you later cutie pie" Craig said while walking over to his locker "Bye hunny bee" Paige said while blowing him a kiss "Hi Craigy" I said while waving my hands while Craig was passing me. He stopped and walked up to me with a smile....and I smiled back and his smile slowly faded...."It's Craig" he said patting me on the back and he turned around and walked away. Tinker-bell started to bark but I shushed her. "Tink..we're trying to win him back not scare him away" I said while whispering in her ear. "I know right..he's so cute..so adorable.." Paige said while walking next to me...Tinker-bell started to growl. I knew what she was doing trying to make me jealous I knew she never liked me anyway. "I mean isn't Craig the cutest Manny" she said while smiling at me trying to show Craig off in front of me just like Regina George did in mean girls...except it was working for me but I couldn't give in I couldn't let her win. "Yeah he's cute....but I've seen better." I said smiling. She gave me a big smile "What?...." she said looking confused she saw that it wasn't working on me. "I said that I've seen better." I said while shutting my locker I could feel Tinker-bell jump. "Oh" she said while walking away she turned around. "See you at lunch Manny" she then winked and walked away. "Bitch" I whispered

"So Manny what happened I saw Paige talking to you." J.T. said while we were getting our lunch. "Chicken..." I said to the lunch lady "She was showing Craig off in front of me o.k. now stop talking about it." I said while paying for my food. God J.T. was doing it again following me everywhere. It's not like he likes me anymore so leave me alone!!!!!! "Um...J.T. I think I hear Toby calling you." I said trying to get him away from me. "Oh" he said and he walked away "Thank God" I said and I walked over to Paige's table. "Hi Manny" Paige said while I sat down next to Hazel "Hi" I said while grabbing my fork. "Hey Everyone" Craig said while sitting next to Paige. "Hi...Craigy" Paige said while giving him a kiss on the cheek. "So Paige...when's our next Spirit Squad practice?" I asked her trying to get her off of Craig "It's on Monday like every other practice" she said looking confused "Oh.well...I forgot ....you know me." I said smiling "No we don't " Craig said while looking at me coldly. God with him sitting there I started to feel uncomfortable. "Well then most of you know me" I said trying to make a joke out of it. God I felt stupid..really stupid. Once again I was acting like a idiot. Tinker-bell jumped out of her carrying case and walked over to Craig "Eww get that thing away from me" Paige said while getting up from the table "It's not a..." I started "It's not a thing it's a chuaua and it's name is Tinker-bell " Craig said while looking at me and handing me the dog. "I know this because I got it for Manny for Christmas." he said looking away "Um..Craig can I talk to you about something......now" I said starting to get up.