Chapter 12- Just Friends
What I was saying was true. This time I wasn't trying to make him feel bad I really had to talk to him about something.
"What is wrong Manny? Did you see me with Paige and think I was cheating on you even though we arn't gonig out." He said starting to sound annoyed. "No" I whisperd starting to tear up. What I was feeling realy hurt. It wasn't about Craig leaving me. It wasn't about Paige showing him off. It wasn't even about my dad. It was about me. "Then what is it." He asked annoyed but with a little remorce. have been 7 months old" I whisperd with tears coming down my face. "Whad do you mean...what are you talking about?" he asked I am sure he knew what I was talking about "Alyssa...Alyssa, she could have been 7 months old.... I could have had her in July." I whisperd with more tears comeing down my eyes. "Our baby...she could have been crawling and saying mama and Craig." I whisperd again while holding onto my stomach. "Manny...I know it was a year ago today but...we have to move on like nothing happend." he said trying to touch my shoulder but stopped himself. "Move on...move on..Craig how the hell could I move on.... Our baby is dead and I'll never see her again how the hell am I supposed to move on from that." I said out of anger "Oh yeah...I forgot...you wern't there...you wern't there to see your baby..your own flesh and blood die. " I said staring to get annoyed I mean how could you forget about something like that "You wern't there to see them stab a pair of sicorsrs in it's head...I forgot you didn't feel the pain of what it was to see your baby dying." I said trying to stop my self from yelling. "Manny...It's not my fault that you had an abortion." he said trying to get himself out of it. "Are you sure...I mean Down Town Sasqwatch was going to be huge ....right?..well how could they be huge if there lead singer had a baby at the age of 16 ....I'm sure a lot of teenage girls wouldn't want to crowd all over him. Oh and Craig...Mr. Studd of the school you can't cheat on two girl at the same time when you have a baby in your hands can you...exactly." I said now angry " Manny you could have raised the baby yourselft." Craig said " Which one sounds better school slut or pregnant school slut ." I said starting to cry. "Manny your taking this seriously." he said trying to act like he cared "No..Craig...I finally got to see the real you...I'm okay now..... all I want you to rember is that it takes two to tango." and I left.
I bet that got Craig thinking. I mean how dare he have the nerve to say to my face "It's not my fault you had an abortion." Not my fault my ass. God he is really starting to get annoying but yet I still want him back. It's kind of like a slice of pizza you no that if you eat it your going to gain a lot of calories but you still want it anyway. We wegre sitting in homeroom durning study hour and Liberty came on with the announcments. I totaly zoned out on everything until I herd those harsh cold words. "And don't forget to pay for your ticket for the Valentines day dance." she said and it seemed like she said it a lot it kept on poping in my head the rest of the day. How could I foget about the Valentine's day dance I mean it's one of the biggest dances of the year. And I wasn't going to have a date.
I got home and I smelt febreeze and candles so I walked out of the house to see if I was a the right house and I guess I was so I went in. I walked into the dining room and saw two chairs and candles and a wine bottle. "Papa" I said really loudly and Tinkerbell started to bark. I shushed her. "Hi Mannuela." He said while coming down the stairs. "Whats the occasion" I asked while pointing to the dining table. "Oh..I'm just having a lady friend over." he said smiling "Her name is Charleene" he said smiling "Oh.." I said smiling "She goes to work with me." He said I was happy my dad was happy you know. I rember Craig made a dinner for me like that. "How about you go to Emma's and do homework" he said "Or you could go to the movies...you know so me and Charleene don't bother you." he said while fixing one of the candles. "O.K. but I don't have money." I said sticking out my hand. "Here" he said handing me a 20 "But bring back my change if you have any" he said smiling at me "But papa.." I said starting to wine "I'm just kidding go have fun" he said smiling. I grabbed Tink and my backpack and left.
"So for the dance do you have a....... are you going with anyone?" I asked Emma while we were buying our popcorn for the movie. "Yeah..I'm going with Chris you know it' s a one time thing since niether of us had a date." she said while grabbing the Mega Bucket popcorn. "Oh." I said while we were walking over to the room. "I don't have a....you have got to be kidding me." I said "What" Emma said "Manny...Emma come sit with us." Paige said sitting at the very top of the seats. "Oh my gosh Emma please no." I said pleeding but Emma was already half way up the steps. Emma was sitting next to Paige and it was the only seat left in the corner away from Craig so I had to sit next to Craig. I tried to avoid looking at him but it was to hard. We went to go see the grudge very scary but I wanted to be with a friend like Emma not a ex-boyfriend like Craig. "If you get scared don't be afraid to grab my hand Manny...we can start out fresh as friends." he said right before the movie started I smiled and noded but I was not going to hold his hand I mean ex-boyfriend here. And anyway I didn't want to be a friend I wanted to be a girlfriend but friend was better then an enemy.
Sorry about all the mess ups and miss spelling becuase I am terrible speller and they took away spell check :(