Chapter 13- Big Mistake
All I'm gonig to say is I messed up big time with Craig. :(
"Manny can I ask you something." J.T. asked me when we were sitting on the bus"J.T.can it wait.. I have to figure out a way to get him back in less then 10 hours and 4 minuets..or in other words before the dance. " I said "And your going to help me." I added the bus stopped and I got up. "So I'll save you a seat in English." I said while getting off the bus. "But Manny..." J.T. said "Tell me later." I said and I got off.
I don't know how I was going to get Craig back but I knew I was. I am not going to kill Paige because I'm going to have two deaths on my hands. So I was not going to do anything wrong but it might be effective. Craig was at his locker with out his dog and I walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around and I immeditly kisseed him on the lips. "Now arn't those lips that you would want to take to the dance tonight?" I asked him seductivly smiling "I don't know are they?" he asked me smiling "Does that mean that we're going to the dance together." I asked about to pee in my pants. "I don't know are we?" he asked again. "O.K. than pick me up at 7:00 o.k." I said but I didn't hear a response. I didn't think of hearing a respnse because I was to excited
I was at my locker putting my stuff away. When I felt someone's hand grab my arm. "Manny I have to talk to you now." he said smilng "Ehmygod J.T. guess what." I said really happily I didn't even wait for his response. "Craig and I are going to the dance together." I said jumping up and down "You are?" he asked like it was a shocker. "Yeah " I said confused I mean wasn't he happy for me. "Oh" he said looking upset. Why was J.T. so sad all the sudden I mean..."Whats wrong J.T." I asked now feeling bad but I can't feel bad because Craig and I are going to the dance together. "It's nothing." he said smiling. "I was just kidding around..I'm not sad." he said jumping up and down. "O.K..then" I started "So what should I wear...do you think...pink looks good on me...oh how about green or red crap J.T. I have to go shopping." I said starting to get nervouse so I spoke faster and faster. "Do you know what Manny!!" J.T. asked turning red "What" I asked. He staid silent."So anyway...I have to go to D.E.B. and Sears...." I got inturpted by J.T. again oh my gosh. "Oh my God Manny...you can't go a second without talking about Craig....do you know what let me tell you the cold hard truth...Craig dosn't like you....Craig never liked you.....he was only using you as a rebound. " he said. The word rebound stung in my ears. "He dosn't like you Manny" he said while walking closer to me "And I didn't think that he would say yes to going to the dance with you since he is already going out with Paige." he hissd "Craig does love me." I said starting to tear. "Craig loves me a lot." I added "Or else he wouldn't have given me this tiffany braclet...or Tinker-Bell.....or taken me to dinner....or..." I said but J.T. stopped me again. "Do you get it Manny he was only giving you that stuff so you wouldn't leave him...and the Tiffany braclet isn't real..it's a fake." he said "You were like his prostitute." he said "Is that what you wanted to talk to me about...did you want to ruin my life." I asked "No." he said "Then what is it...what did you want to talk about?" I asked really mad "I wanted to know if you wanted to go to the dance with me." he said looking at his shoes. I bet J.T. made all that up so I would get mad at Craig and go to the dance with him. "Jack ass." I said while pushing him and walking away.
I got my dress it was seductive yet not to sluty It was light pink and it went to my knees the v cut went all the way down to my chest I knew I was going to get Craig back with that dress. I looked great. It was 7:30 and Craig wasn't there to pick me up yet. I was waiting and I sat outside for another hour and he still didn't come maybe there was traffic or something. So I went inside and watched t.v. I was watching Lauguna Beach. I kind of reminded myself of L.C. you know and Craig was my Stephen and Paige was Kristen. And I fell asleap. I woke up and it was 9 and Craig still wasn't here so I decided to call Craig. "Hello" Joey said "Hurry up Joe...I'm waiting." I herd Caitlin yell "Hi...Joey...this is Manny is Craig there." I asked "No...Craig left for the dance 3 hours ago" he said "Oh...o.k. bye" I said and I hung up the phone. How could he..oh maybe he said he would meet me at the dance at 7:00 so I felt dumb leaving him there and I called a Taxi and went to the dance. I walked in to see if he was there and I looked at the sighnup sheet to see if he had put me down as his date. I skimmed and I wasn't on it was Paige and Craig. I looked in the gym and saw Paige and Craig slow dancing and making out. At that moment my heart brooke in half.
I called a cab and went home. I looked through all my cubbords and found my dads vodka I grabbed a glass and poured it in. I drank it in less then a minuet. "God this feels good." I yelld thank god my dad was with Charleene tonight. I took about 4 more glasses an thought I was about to passout. I was going to get Craig back no matter what. It was about 11:00 and there was one more hour of the dance so I opend my knife drawer grabbed a knife and put it in my purse. I called another cab and stumbled my way into the dance. I found Craig talking with Paige at a table.
"Hi Craig" I said drunkingly "Manny..hi" he said "Yo..you didn't come and get me at seven" I said while stumbling closer to him "You hurt me" I said "Eww...Manny are you drunk" Paige asked "No..I'm not drunk." I said smiling "Yes you are we have to get you out of here." Craig said "Before you get introuble by Raditch" he added he started to grab me but I pushed him off of me. "Don't touch me...don't act like you care about me Craig." I said "I would do anything for you...I would jump off a bridge for you I would even kill Ashley" I said rember I was drunk so everything I said I really didn't want to say "You didn't kill Ashley it's not your fault." he said "Yes it is....I killd her....After you said you didn't belive that Ashley didn't love you...I went home and grabbed my papa's gun and I went to Ashley's house and I shot her twice with my gun....I told her that I was sorry for what I was going to do before so it's not like I'm not sorry...but do you know why I would kill someone just to get you Craig...becuase you would understand me..you know what if feels like to have your dad beat you...and hurt you all the time...the only thing that you wouldn't know what it feels like is that..... my dad rapes me every night...he rapes his own daughter Craig...and you were the only one I would ever feel comfertable talking about that with..and I couldn't talk to you about that stuffif Ashley was always there so I killed her and now she's dead and she will never come back." And then I paused "And I"m not affraid to do it again" I pulled out my knife and ran for Paige but then everything then went black.