Chapter 4 A night in Hell

The months passed by and their relationship once again began to blossom. They knew that at some point they would have to confront whatever was between them but a long time neither of them wanted to think about it. They both loved the way it was now, uncomplicated and simple. They were scared that speaking about it would destroy what they had but at the same time they knew that as long as they didn't talk about it, they wouldn't be able to make the next step. No matter what that would mean. But soon the time came when they realized that they had to face it. It was when Kurt and Storm announced their engagement. Now it was time for Logan to meet John.

Rogue was waiting at the gate for John. She wore her best dress and hoped he would keep his promise to dress in a tux and not in his jeans like usually. She sighed, tonight would change a lot of that she was sure. During the months she had realized that she didn't love John and that he didn't love her either. Still the fear of Logan leaving her choked her sometimes but she knew that staying with John wouldn't help her to keep Logan either. She found it hard to admit it but she felt that there was something, something between her and Logan. Maybe her dreams would finally come true and whatever that would happen, John would be in the way.

Then he came ambling down the road and smiled brightly at her. And of course he had forgotten his promise, he wore his battered jeans and the t-shirt he'd already worn the day before.

She sighed slightly and closed her eyes in despair. And like so often she wondered why she had fed up with him so long. He stepped closer and kissed her deeply. She remained still, her arms not wrapping around his neck like usually. She waited for something to happen, for the butterflies inside her stomach. But nothing happened, the feeling was gone. She sighed, knowing that she had made the right decision. But how tell him?

"Hey Baby", he said and looked at the mansion. It was the first time since months that she invited him over again. She knew that Scott and the rest didn't like him too much.. well they couldn't stand him to be exactly.

"Holy shit..I already forgot how huge this damn thing is. A little bit snobbish, don't you think Hon?"

"No.. I don't think so John. I thought we talked about your clothes, you promised me to wear your tux", she said and he shrugged his shoulders.

"Sorry Babe. But you look beautiful enough for both of us. Come on, lets go inside", he replied and then he grabbed her hand, pulling her with him.

She watched him and sighed. Logan would hate him so much. But that didn't matter anymore, she would break up with him and then she would see how Logan would react. She feared it but at the same time she could hardly wait to see his face when she'd tell him. They stepped into the big hall where all students where already dancing.

John looked around and the first thing he noticed were a lot of boys, all somewhat handsome and consequently dangerous for him. Instinctively he grabbed her hand even tighter.

She looked at him. "Not that tight, you're hurting me", she whispered but he didn't release his grip.

Then she spotted Logan and groaned when she saw him moving towards them. She bent over to John. "Please John.. be nice.. there's Logan, he's my best friend. I want him to like you", she said although that wasn't the reason, she just didn't want Logan to kill John. She knew that he was still angry at him for hurting her and when John would give him a reason he wouldn't hesitated to use his claws of that she was sure.

"Why is it important what he thinks of me"? He asked and stared at her distrustful. But before she could answer Logan arrived them.

"Hey you two, are you enjoying the party"?

She smiled and nodded. And Logan stared at John hateful. He hadn't forgotten that this boy had hit her. The bruise was gone but the rage about it hadn't passed at all. God, how much he wished he could get her away from this guy. He looked at Rogue and smiled although he knew that she already noticed how much he hated her boyfriend. But maybe tonight was the night, the night that he would finally be able to talk her into breaking up. This boy wasn't worth her, he didn't deserve her, no one did that. He sighed deeply when he caught himself starring at her again, like he used to do so often these days. He couldn't help himself ,she just took his breath away and it feared him.. in fact it scared the shit out of him.

"Logan.. this is John. John this is Logan", she said and pulled him out of his thoughts by doing that. Both men nodded and she sighed, knowing that these two couldn't stand each other. But then she remembered that it didn't matter anymore. John would be out of her life at the end of this night.

John examined him and raised his eyebrow. "Where's your girlfriend?"

Logan cleared his throat to answer that he didn't have one but suddenly Claire, Jean's new medical assistant arrived by his side. She smiled brightly at him and grabbed his arm.

"Hey Logan.. would you like to dance with me"?

He looked at her and before he could stop himself he nodded. Claire indeed was a attractive woman, very intelligent and funny as well. Maybe she was able to distract him from Marie and these confusing thoughts in his mind that wouldn't leave him alone.

"Of course", he muttered and looked down. He didn't know why but he didn't dare to look into Rogue's eyes afraid what he would see there. Pain, rage, jealousness or.. worse nothing, nothing at all.

John watched Rogue who looked at Logan with wide eyes and decided it was time to get her away from him.

"Come on Baby.. let's dance", he said and pulled her with him. Then he looked at Logan disparaging. "Nice to meet ya... Logan", he said and his voice was full of sarcasm.

Rogue didn't say a word. She didn't know why but it hurt her to know that Logan was dancing with Claire. But was he just dancing her or was she his date for this night? Claire. Claire was a nice and beautiful mutant who was liked by everyone and that bothered her even more. She was just Rogue, not really beautiful, nice but untouchable. She was still the helpless kid with poisons skin in his eyes and that pained her.

Maybe she had been foolish to think that Logan loved her in some other way than a friend. Maybe she had been foolish to believe he would care for her in this way. She swallowed and looked down. John pulled her around, wherever he wanted to go she had to follow him. But suddenly it didn't matter to her anymore.

She watched Logan and Claire the whole evening and it ripped her heart into pieces. She looked at John and knew she was bound to him. Gone the strength and the will to break up with him. Without John she would have nobody to love her.

John was stupid but he wasn't blind. He knew exactly that Rogue cared a little too much for this Logan and it made him damn angry. During the evening he worked himself into a lather and even started to believe that she cheated on him with Logan. She was his, she belonged to him and no one was allowed to have her or to look at her.

When he caught her starring at Logan again with these pained eyes that couldn't hide her jealousy , he finally lost it and grabbed her wrist and pulled her out of the hall.

She looked at him confused. "John! John what are you doing?"

But he didn't answer, he was so furious. When they arrived in the garden she freed herself. "John! What the hell is wrong with you"? She asked but then he looked up.

His eyes brunt with hate and rage. She stumbled back, flinching away from him. He scared her, the way he looked at her reminded her to the afternoon when he'd beaten up this poor boy who had helped her up. Her heart began to beat madly in her chest. This wasn't the John she used to know, this wasn't the dumb, impolite but nice John she knew. This was a monster in front of her.

"You little whore", he swore. "You dirty bitch.. you cheated on me", he screamed and she stared at him pure shock.

"What? What are you talking about"?

"Logan! I'm talking about Logan. I saw the way you looked at him, and he looked at you. Tell me.. you slept with him, didn't you"?

She stared at him and gasped. What the hell was going on with him? She'd never seen this mad. "John! Stop it! I didn't cheat on you... how could I? I can't touch anyone, not Logan and no one else", she yelled.

But he was so deep in his rage that he didn't listen to her at all. And before he could stop himself he lunged forward and punched her in the stomach. She felt the breath being knocked out of herself and she fell to her knees. Tears came to her eyes and for a moment she thought she would faint. But the pain wasn't as bad as the fear that gripped her. He was a lunatic, John was completely out of his mind.

He grabbed her hair and pulled her head back in a painful way. "Tell me you love me.. and maybe I'll forgive you", he hissed.

"John", she whimpered, not able to say anything else. He kicked her in the side and she felt her ribs breaking. God, he would kill her. Her own boyfriend would kill her. She thought about ripping of her gloves to touch him but she was too weak.

"Say it! Say it or I'll kill you. You're mine, you belong to me and no one else. Tell me that you won't leave me"!

She couldn't feel anything besides the pain and her mouth worked on his own. "I.. I love ..you", she whimpered and he let her go.

Then he knelt beside her and pulled her into his arms. "Oh my Rogue. I love you too. We'll be together for the rest of our life, right? And you won't flirt with anyone again, will you? I don't want to hurt you again, Baby. I love you", he whispered in her ear.

The pain caused her to whimper again and then he stood up, leaving her lying on the ground curled up in a ball.

"Go to sleep Baby. I'll call you tomorrow. And don't tell anyone what you did, they'll hate you. Don't forget that", he said and with that he left her alone lying on the grass gasping for breath.

After a few moments she forced herself to stand up, she had to get inside of the mansion . She whipped her tears away and steadied herself with leaning against a tree. What the hell happened just right now? She still couldn't believe it, she still couldn't understand. Why did John say so awful things, why did he do that to her? For a short moment she thought about stumbling into the hall, collapsing into Logan's arms but then she remembered perfect Claire. She didn't want to destroy this beautiful night for them.

Although she knew that she would be all alone, although she knew that she was nothing more than a untouchable mutant, although she knew that Logan didn't love her, she knew that she had to break up with John.

He was mad, absolutely crazy and he made her sick. She felt so stupid for avoiding the thought of breaking up with him, for avoiding the thought of being alone. She was rather alone than with such a lunatic like him. She dragged herself up the stairs into her room and fell onto her bed. The pain made her dizzy.

She rolled on her back and stared at the ceiling. Her life was an disaster, it was hell. And all she wanted to do was die. She loved Logan, she loved him so much it hurt and he didn't love her back. And he would run away again of that she was sure. He would leave her again and then she would be all alone again. She shut her swollen eyes and while she grieved for herself and her life a song played in the radio that fitted her just perfect.

Avril Lavigne "Nobody's home"

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

And at some point she fell into a troubled sleep.

A/N: I hope you liked this chapter and please review. Thanks to Amy my beta reader. Next chapter will be the last i guess. Will Logan find out and what will happen to Rogue?