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CHAPTER SIX: THOSE FALLEN
I think I'm ill. I no longer am able to walk, and every movement hurts. Jaken scuries around me, panicing, but I can not hear him...
Sesshomaru growled at the servant as he stormed down the hall. 'damndamndamndamnDAMN!' he ursd sliently. He had drifted in and out of these halls, never once staying more than a night...mostly not even that...For at night it was all he could do not to hunt him down...Him who was so near, and so untouchable. He had finally admitted it to himself...He wanted Inuyasha. 'Damn that hanyou...DAMN HIM!'
"Oh."
About to give a scathing reply, the words froze somewhere in Sesshomaru's throat as he beheld who he ran into. "No one should look that helpless...and...inviting,' he thought, his face a mask as he looked down and Inuyasha.
"Sess...Sesshomaru," the hanyou whispered, shocked at his brother's sudden re-appaerance.
"What do want, hanyou." Inuyasha cringed.
"Sess..."
Sesshmaru turned away. "Go to hell." He contuned down the hall, slamming the door when he finally reached his chambers. He stood for a few minutes, staring at the wood, before sinking to his kness and doubling over, all mask dropped.
'Inuyasha....'
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Why was it that his time was also so impecable? Sesshomaru paced his chamber, snarling at each wall in turn. His father forbid him form leaving until the winter feastivites were over. That ment another ten days cooped up in this godsdamn manor.
Whitch ment ten days in the same house as Inuyasha, and ten nights of thinking of how close he was...how it would take so little to slip into his room in the dark and....
HELL NO!
He would NOT give into such thoughts, he WOULDN'T!
Not now, not ever.
He slammed his fist into the nearest wall.
"Sess?"
The youkai straightened, not daring to turn around. Damndamndamn.... "What is it...Inuyasha?"
Wouldn't it be evil if i ended this chapter here? and didn't update for a week? well... i won't be THAT evil.... so on with the brothers confortation..this should be fun....
Inuyasha shifted from one foot to the other. "Sess..."
Anger flared in the youkai. "STOP IT!" he screamed, not able to stand his name whispered like that... like a gentle caress... He leaned his head against he cracked wall. "If you have something to say, say it, otherwise...GET OUT!"
Inuyasha stood frozen. "Sess..."
"STOP SAYING MY NAME LIKE THAT!" Snarling, he at last turned around, and froze. Inuyasha had grown. And he was... beatiful. Sesshomaru shut his eyes, not wanting to deal with the now fully-mature hanyou.
"Inu....yasha..." he wimpered, his heart bouncing around wildly.
"Sess...I missed you..." He refused to open his eyes, even when he felt a hand slip up his neck to cup his face, and another hand glide over his shoulder.
"Why? Did you miss me...because you wanted a brother...or because..." Sesshomaru found it suddenly bordering on impossible to breath.
Inuyasha burried his head in the crock of Sesshomaru's neck. " I missed you because...I love you."
All the air whoosed out of the room at an alraming speed. The room also began to tilt, and Sesshomaru found himself grasping at Inuyasha in a desparte attempt to reagain control of the room.
"Get out," he hissed through clenched teeth. Inuyasha raised his head to look at him. He stared fixitly at a point somewhere past Inuyasha's shoulder.
"Sess...?"
"OUT!"
Inuyasha fled.
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Dinner was a very forced afair. Sesshomaru totaly ignored Inuyasha, while Inuyasha played with his food, not eating a bite, glancing at his brother ever once and a while. Their father sat straight-backed at the head of the table, glaring at his sons as Inuyasha's mother looked between the males fearfuly.
Growling, Sesshomaru pushed away from the table, knocking over his chair. He gave a challenging glare to his father before walking away.
Inuyasha bowed his head, his bangs hidding his eyes that were filling with sliente tears.
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Inuyasha once more ventured into his brother's room. Sesshmaru stood by the wall window, the moon's silver light spilling over him. Inuyasha gulped, trying to remember how the breath. Why did his brother have to hate him. He should NEVER have said he loved him....now he had, Sesshomaru despised him. But, how could one smile and be friends with someone when ever time one saw them , they wanted them more?(i found that somewhere, no idea who says it...)
Inuyasha closed his eyes. "Sess..."
"Now what do you want?"
'you' But Inuyasha said nothing.
Sesshomaru turned. "If you have nothing to say, get out."
Inuyasha closed his eyes and the coldness of Sesshomaru's voice. "Please..."
Sesshomaru snorted. "so now you're reduced to begging...just like a half-breed."
Inuyasha felt tears swarm into his eyes. "Sesshomaru..."
"What? Can you even say anything else? That's all you've been saying lately."
Inuyasha felt his worls slip away. "Sess... why? WHY? WHY CAN'T YOU LOVE ME?"
"Be cause I am your brother. Loving one's brother is wrong."
"HOW CAN IT BE WRONG WHEN IT FEELS SO GOOD? Even when it hurts...I-it feels so wonderful... HOW CAN THAT BE WRONG!?"
Sesshomaru didn't move, and Inuyasha stood there, chest heaving,, tears running down his cheeks. Ages later, Sesshomaru stepped toward him, wiped the tears off his face. "Go back to your room, sleep."
Inuyasha tyrned, and didn't look back, until he was past the bend in the hall, and then he ran, trying to get away from the feelings that hurt him.
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Sesshomaru was once more by the window, head bowed. Oh...how that encounter hurt him...it hurt so much...
INUYASHA! I LOVE YOU!
Please...
His head resting against the window glass, he cried. His tears blinded him the blurr running away from the castle.
... ITS SO SAD! and took me FOREVER to write... but i'm rather proud of it...poor inu....sniff...
988 words!