"The night Harry and I...went missing...He proposed to me and..." I started talking but Ron cut me off
"Oh Gin...He proposed...Im so sorry I didn't know...no one did...I," Ron said but I cut him off.
"That night, something grabbed me and Harry...It was a wolf...It looked like a were wolf and that was the most likely explanation for it was a full moon. It dragged us away deep into the wood behind our house, but I got knocked out,"
I took another deep breath, feeling slightly light headed.
"When I woke up...I remember Harry leaning over me, resting my head in his lap...There were dead bodies around us and I was more afraid than ever. Harry whispered to me that thing were ok, that nothing bad was going to happen to me...But...he said that he was too weak to make it,"
I choked back a tear wanting to sob my heart out but I had to tell this tale even if Ron did hate me after wards.

"Harry...Whispered that...A werewolf had grabbed us...but it'd fled when the death eaters showed up. They attacked Harry...But. he fought them off...he said he wouldn't have fought them off if I hadn't been there," I whispered, letting a few subtle tears fall down my cheeks
"Harry was the one who saved me life...But I was fading fast, the were wolf trip hadn't helped me and I could feel the affects of a crucious curse on me. Harry leant down and kissed me and it was as if he was helping me live. I felt instantly ok...but Harry...He was weaker than ever...He said that if I could live then I'd be able to live with another. And he said that if I died another would die. I didn't understand him then but...I didn't want Harry to die...I didn't him to Ron, I'm so sorry...I didn't mean for him to die just to save me...When I talked to him before he died he said take care of yourself...I died for you...,"
I let more tears slide down my cheeks.
"O god Ron...its all my fault he's dead...It's all my fault!"
With that I ran from Ron's room, down the stairs and into my own, sobbing myself to sleep in the bed which only maybe a week ago myself and Harry had shared.

I woke the next morning, my face still wet from my tears. No one was awake yet. I crept outside and sat on the grass in our front yard. I lay on my back and I could smell the morning dew, still fresh on the grass. The water spread from the grass onto my hands as I ran my fingers through it. It wasn't very light yet... still pretty dark out. I closed my eyes and dreamed. I dreamed that Harry was still lying there with me. I wished so badly he was there with me.

I opened my eyes and realized that it was... only a dream. Only a wish and it couldn't come true. I went inside and took a long, hot shower. When I got out of the shower, everyone was awake. They were all waiting for me. We were going to Diagon Alley to get me school supplies. It would be my last year at Hogwarts.

I walked sadly through the streets of Diagon Alley. Each place, each person, each animal, gave me some memory of Harry.
We walked past Oliviander's, Madam Milkins, even a black dog like Sirus.
Sirus, where was he?
I hadn't seen Sirus for a long time...
He had been at Harry's funeral but since then he'd disappeared.
His name was cleared but he still stayed in hiding a lot.
In Harry's sixth year we finally caught 'Scabbers' and that freed Sirus.
He didn't like to be seen though as people still found him strange.
His home in Hogesmaid, I couldn't remember the name, was probably where he was.
Without really thinking I walked into The Leaky Cauldren and used the floo grate there to go to the Three Broomsticks.
From there I walked to Sirus's home.
I knocked up the heavy oak door and the only thing I heard inside was a 'go away! I'm not interested in buying anything'
"Sirus...It's me...," I whispered quietly
I heard the padlock being undone and the key being turned in the lock.
Sirus opened the door and immediately embraced me.
The poor man looked as if he hadn't slept in days and probably that was true.
Losing Harry was the hardest thing he'd gone through so far.
Neither of us spoke as Sirus lead me inside and closed the door.
"Are you ok Sirus?" I asked, breaking the ice as we sat down on the sofa
"Yeah," he whispered distantly
Sirus would have almost been my father-in-law, despite him not being Harry's father.
I could see Sirus was ready to break down any moment now that Harry was gone.
I couldn't bear to see him like this so instantly I hugged him tightly.
That was all it took for Sirus to break down into tears.
"Sirus...," I whispered "It's ok,"
Sirus held onto me tightly for a few moments and he was close enough to be my 2nd father. He was kind, gentle, sweet and loving.
He'd been supportive when Harry had asked for permission to marry me as I was told only a day after his funeral.
"Gin...God I'm so sorry...No one should have to go through what you do," whispered Sirus
"Its ok," I said quietly "I was wondering if you'd mind me staying a few days...,"
Sirus shook his head saying he didn't mind and I hugged him tightly.

"Hey, umm..."

"What is it?" I asked.

"I have something for you." Sirius told me. I looked at him puzzled. I just sat there on one of the chairs as he went into a trunk and pulled out a rectangular package. "Does this mean anything to you?"

I opened the package and was at a loss for words. "His... journal." I said quietly as I ran my hand over the cover. "Y-You should have this, not me. He left it to you."

"I had a dream last night. I was walking along with Harry and he-" He paused for a moment and looked as if he was trying to find the right words to say. It was that or he just couldn't bring himself to tell me what happened in his dream. "He told me to give this to you." He said quickly.

"But-"

"I know its stupid. I mean, it was just a dream... but he would've wanted you to have it, anyway."

I shook my head. "No, he left it for you."

"Take it." He said seriously.

"Thanks."

"You going to Diagon Alley tomorrow?" He asked.

"No I went the other day to get my supplies."

"Oh, alright. Well, I'm going to get to bed. It's getting late." I looked at the clock and saw that it was a little after midnight.

"Oh, wow. I didn't realize it was so late!" Sirius took out his wand and said some spell. All of a sudden he was standing in front of a cozy cot.

"You can sleep here for tonight."

"Thanks, Sirius." He looked at me with a pity in his face. "Don't look at me like that... We both lost him. Not just me. Don't feel bad for me."

"Can't help it."

"G'night." He nodded and went into his room. I lit a candle and opened Harry's journal. I started reading it but fell asleep. I had a strange dream...