Her sweet side recoverd from the dark world

Chapter 4- Scared and In pain
this chapter is rated R-for rape and suicidal notes.
ps ARNOLD DOES NOTTT RAPE HER Im sorry if you dont
like this type of stuff.

Pheobe said "good morning love birds." Arnold and
Helga opened their tired eyes. "Its morning all
ready."-Helga said. Pheobe said "sure is and we are
going fishing today if you guys are up to it." Arnold
looked at helga for a silent answer she shook her head
yes. Pheobe clapped her hands once. "Well good we made
breakfast for guys but hurry up before it gets cold.
Me and Gerald are gonna go ahead and go down there."
Helga said "ok be down there when we are done. Bye."
Pheobe then left the tent.
Helga and Arnold got up, and they changed. They went
out there ate their breakfast grabbed their fishing
poles and left.
They got down there in time to see Gerald fall in the
lake. Everyone was dieing out laughing. Gerald just
fliped them off and went back to fishing. The first
caught of the day was by Pheobe she caught a small ass
brim, but she was happy because she caught the first
fish. It was around 11:20 when the second fish was
caught by Arnold it was a large mouth. After that
nothing was caught. So they decided to go for a hike
when Helga said "guys im gonna go back to the tent im
a little bit tired." Everyone said "ok, but be
careful."
She started walkin back after the others were deep in
the woods she wanted to sit and think for a minute.
She was half way there, in the woods, when this
strange guy stopped her. He grabbed her by the wrist
and triped her and got on top of her ripping at her
clothes. She tried to kick him, but he was 20 Xs as
strong as her. He ripped her pantys off.Slid his pants
down and started shoving it in her. She smelt the
smell of Vodka, budwiser, and Tequila. She tried to
scream but she was choking and sobbing on her own
tears. When he was done. He just left her and ran off.

When she finally had enough strenght to pull her self
back to her feet, she sobbed all the way to the tent.
She lied on the air mattress. She grabbed an old rag,
she took out her razor and began to cut. She was so
hurt, she hurt so much she couldn't even feel that
razor on her skin. After she was done she put the rag
on her arm.
She then begin to write in her black book, she wrote
a dark evil poem.
Sep-6th------- Today started out to be a damn good
day. Waking up to my true love Arnold. We went fishing
and found Gerald in the pound. Only 2 fish were
caught. As they were about to go hiking, i decided to
come back here. On my way back her i was raped. When i
got back her i started to cut. And here is my dark
poem.
Have you seen my cuts,
Marked by the knife?
It's better than living in pain.
Better than dealing with my strife.
I see my silver razor
And it makes me want to do harm.
Seeing blood from my wrists,
Seeing blood from my arm.
The feeling of relief.
My cuts so cold and numb.
Some people may think
That this act is real dumb.
Who cares what other's think.
This girl can die when you least expect it.
She has nothing left to give.
A cutter is what I am.
Help will never change me.
As I draw more toward death
What I am now, is what I want to be.
I don't care what other's say
Because cutting releases my pain.
I hope one day I cut too deep
And slice through a vein.
Some people just don't understand
How much pain I'm really in.
But I guess I hide it from the world.
Can't say what lies within.
Cutting is my escape
From this 'so-called' reality.
These scars are here forever.
Dark marks for all to see. --- Helga G Pataki---
(guys i kno this poem is really dark and disturbing i
kno. but dont hate on me for it yes i wrote it no i
dont cut. it was really about my friend who was sent
to a mental hospital at age 13. And im the only one
who understood why she cut. so no flames for that.
this poem fits perfectly for helga right now at this
point.-COURTNEY)
She layed there and thought I can't beleive this.
This is my weekend get away, its been great til this
very last hour. She decided not to tell the others
because they would go into there stupid bullshit
speech about cutting, and all that non-sense. So she
layed there and went to sleep.
Arnold woke her up with a kiss. She smiled. "Arnold
what time is it?" "Its 5:00." "oh." helga got up and
got out of the tent. Gerald was making hamburgers on
the grill. They had their chairs in a circle around
the fire and they were talkin about random things,as
they were eating. Helga has barely touched her food,
when she said she was full. Helga was out in a daze.
They asked her a question and she didnt answer when
Arnold said "Helga we asked you something." Helga said
"sorry what did you ask?" Pheobe said "For a girls
name for a baby which is better Americkiss, or
Shiana?" Helga answered solemly "Americkiss." Arnold
said "Helga can I talk to you for a moment?" Helga
thought oh gosh. Helga got up and followed Arnold to
the tent. They sat on the bed and Arnold said "Helga
whats wrong?" Helga said "Nothing." He said "Are you
sure." Helga replied and said "yes Arnold im sure."
She asked "Do you mind I go and take a shower up at
the bath houses?" He said "No go ahead, maybe you'll
feel better if you did." Helga said "Ok." Arnold went
out of the tent so she could gather her things.
She grabbed her Emily pj set that said "I scratch"
and on the back of her top it said "With Poison" and
the pants were silky black with cat scratches and
blood. She got her underware and bra and all her
stuff, her special soap helps her scars to heal up.
She got out of the tent went over the Arnold and gave
him a kiss, and left. She was scared something was
going to happen again.
Back at the camp Gerald said "What is wrong with
Helga? She hasn't said anything." Arnold said "I think
she just woke up in a bad mood." Pheobe said "Yea I
think she did to." Pheobe sensed something was wrong,
though Helga and her stopped talking for a couple of
years that doesn't mean that she doesn't sense things.
Pheobe new something happend on Helgas way back but
she didn't know what.
She stood up and said "I think I might need to take a
shower to I smell." Gerald said "Thats not the first."
Pheobe said "Boy your pushing your luck. And by the
way you need to take a shower before you get in bed
with me.Your the one who fell in the damn lake."
Arnold said "Oo buddy she told you." Pheobe said
"Arnold your a dork." He said "Yea i know." Gerald
said "Man maybe we should go take a shower." Arnold
said "ok let me get my things." Pheobe said "Well im
going up there now."
Pheobe walked up there. She got in the bathroom. She
said "Hey Helga, I needed to take a shower I smell
like sweat." Helga said "O ok." Pheobe said "Helga
whats wrong?" Helga was kinda fustrated "What the hell
is the deal with everyone thinking somthing is wrong?"
Pheobe said "Helga I sense things, just because we
haven't comunicated in about 2 years doesnt mean that
I forgot the senseing things. Something happend on the
way to the tent after we left." Helga knew she was
gonna have to tell her, she has never been wrong when
she sense things. Helga said " Fine, pheobe dont tell
the guys this promise me you wont." Pheobe said "I
promise." Helga said " I was coming back to the tent
and I was half way there when a man grabbed my wrist
and tripped me and down I went, he was 20 Xs as strong
as me, so there-fore I was shit out of luck. He raped
me, ripped my clothes off, and he pulled his pants
down, stuck it in me and raped me. He didn't release
in me, I guess because he thought her heard somthing."
Pheobe said "Oh my god bless your sweet heart. Helga
you need to tell someone this." She said " I did, I
told you and your not telling anyone. Right?" Pheobe
said "Yes, right."
Pheobe was in the shower and thought 'Omg thats so
terriable, my own BEst friend gettin raped.' She got
done in the shower got dressed. Her and Helga went out
to find the guys standing at the door. "Damn you girls
take to damn long." Pheobe said "we are girls dumbass,
we rather smell clean then smell like a pig rolling in
the dirt." She smirked.
They went back to the camp site and it was 9:00,
Helga and Pheobe decided to make banana boats. They
took four bannanas slided them side ways down the
middle, put herserys chocolate squares in them and
marshmellows and then wrapped them up in tin foil on,
and put them in the hot charcoals. Seven minutes later
they were done, all melted and yummy. They ate them,
talking about random things. After they were done
Gerald said "Well I want to go to bed." Pheobe said "
Me too. Goodnight guys see you at 8:00 AM." Then they
got into their tent.
Arnold and Helga got into theirs to. "Helga, I love
you." She smiled and said " I love you too." Arnold
was extreamly tired. Helga kissed him. Said "goodnight
and sweetdreams." Arnold kissed her back "Same to you
angel." They feel asleep in each others arms.
Its now 8:00 AM the next day. Pheobe said
"Goodmorning."

This is the Tart-yea im sorry for such anger and
disturbingness in here. But if you want to be a good
writer you got to do what you got to do. :) so tell me
how it was
Always COurtney !