Disclaimer: Passions is NBC's property though I wish I could have Fox!

English isn't my first language so mistakes can be done: i'm sorry if that is the case!

Here's what you should know before reading:

-Gwen never lost Sarah in LA: she miscarried the baby because of the stress Rebecca was putting on their shoulders.

-Julian and Theresa have never been married: but they are in good terms and Theresa is living in the Crane Mansion

-EM is Julian's child

-Theresa and Fox are together at the start and she loves him not Ethan!

-Rebecca never married Julian: Alistair was against it.

Three years ago

She was looking at the man she thought she loved more than anything else. But now, as he was standing beside her, with a gun pointing toward Gwen, she was afraid more than anything else.

'I love you Theresa. It's Gwen's fault that we can't be together. Please, believe me when I say that we can the family you always wanted us to be.'

'I'm sorry Ethan, but I don't love you anymore. You told me to move on and when you married Gwen, I tried to respect your marriage. When I finally move on like you told me to, you're coming back saying that your own wife is a witch. You're sick Ethan... and I mean it.

'No, you don't mean it Theresa. You have loved me all your life, you can't move on like that. You don't have anyone to move on anyway. Fox isn't a real man: he will dump you like yesterday's trash. Don't you see that I was right all along? He will use you for sex and toss you aside. Gwen pushed you in his arms: that's because Gwen got pregnant that you and I aren't married now and that you felt the need to turn to Fox.'

'Stay Fox out of this. It's not because of Gwen, it's because of my lies and schemes. Please come back to your senses. I know that losing your child was harsh on you two: you should go back to sleep, take a good rest and love each other like you used to before it happened.'

'I'm happy that Gwen miscarried the child. Don't you see that it was meant to be? There's nothing keeping us apart now. I'll kill her and then, we could be together.'

'You can't mean that Ethan?' said Gwen, with fear in her voice

'See for yourself!' added Ethan.

She thought that the day Gwen disappear would be the best day ever. In fact, as Ethan was pointing the gun toward Gwen, all she could think of was saving her life. She could even remember her son, her little baby boy, coming to the rescue of his aunt. The sound of the gun as the bullet filled the air, as the bullet hit Little Ethan in the chest with so much force that the boy flew three meters away.

As lil' Ethan was laying in a pool of blood, she couldn't even the sirens and the frantic cries of Gwen... All she heard was her own heart breaking into pieces.

September 2007, San Francisco

She was tossing and turning, trying to escape from her recurent nightmare. She had been having the same dream for the past three years. She had been crushed ever since even though she was slowly starting to move on. All of her life, she thought that Ethan and her were meant to be. How wrong she was, how deadfully wrong she was... She could replay the exact scene in her head, as if her own body didn't want her to forget.

As she heard the gun fired, she let out a scream so strong that it woke up everyone in the Mansion. She saw a woman standing with a glass of water in her hand, looking at her with so much compassion that it helped her for a second.

-You're having the same nightmare honey?

As she was gulping down the water, she nodded at her best friend, tears straining down her beautiful face.

-I just don't know why it happened, Gwen. Why did he have to kill my son? He was only three for God Sake! He could have taken his own life if he wanted so much to kill, no?

-We will never know sweetie. I'm just glad that he's locked up in jail.

-He deserves so much more than that.... so much more. But I'm not as revengful as I was back then. It's been three years and I learned to move on, even though I won't be able to forget. I've got you in my life to help me recover. I'm glad that you came with me in San Francisco. Who would have thought that we would be best friend?

-Certainly not me! I'm glad too Theresa! It's because of you that I have such a great fiancé! If you wouldn't have sprained your ankle that day at the Fashion show, I wouldn't have met your handsome doctor and I wouldn't be engaged now!

-You're so lucky! I wish I could have a boyfriend like yours. He treats you like a princess, he loves you so much. Why can't I trust someone like that? Is it because of my son's death that I can't find the right guy?

As she was letting the tears go down on her face, Gwen took her in her arms.

-Theresa, listen to me. You are beautiful and smart and talented and funny. I don't want you to think any different. Every guy is crazy about you.

-That's why Fox has been in love with my own friend? I'm so good that he felt the need to screw Whitney behind my back while my son was fighting for his life in his hospital bed. I think that I'm not meant to be loved.

As she was saying that, Gregory opened the door and looked at her, anger in his eyes. But even if he was angry at her for saying that, he was more concerned for Theresa than anything. She had been a great friend ever since she'd sprained her ankle. Then, he met Gwen and his life had changed for the best. Everything great that had happened in his life was partly because of her. He was grateful: one day he would be able to return the same favor.

-I never ever want to hear those words from you, do you hear me? You are meant to be loved like everybody else and it's not because you've loved an idiot that hadn't been able to see how wonderful you are that every guy are like him. I told you that I had great friends that thought you were incredible. If only you could see the love that Philip has for you.

-I know Greg and thank you for letting me know your friend but I can't open my heart completely and I don't know why. He's a great guy, a great lawyer, but my heart is telling me different. So much has happened in my life in the past three years. Anyways, thank you for your support guys. You have done so much that I can't thank you enough. But thank you!

-No thanks to you, Theresa' said Gwen and Greg in unison.

-We'll let you go back to sleep. Don't you start your new semester tomorrow?

-Yes! That is so true! I have to go back to sleep. I don't know why I listened to you on that one Greg. You have too much effect on me!

-It's not my fault that you weren't happy in Journalism and I told you to change for Medical School. You will be a great pediatrist, it's in your genes!

-If I can help children to stay alive like I should have for Ethan Martin, then I will be happy.

-Sweetie, don't say something like that.

-No, it's okay, I'm doing this for him. He would have been proud of me.

-Yes and we are proud of you. Now, go back to sleep and try to focus on your new semester. Love you.

-Love you too guys!

As she turned off the lights, she closed her eyes and wondered what life had in store for her. Little did she know, changing school would bring her someone that would turn her life upside down.. along with her heart.