(A/N First off I didn't plan for my story to go like that. I didn't expect Ginny to have a breakdown, but then I had my own little breakdown, so I kind of took it out on my story. Anyway I hope you guys like this chapter. I think it might be the last but I'm not sure. We will have to see what I write. If it is there will be an epilogue so if this is the last, stay tuned there is still a little bit more)
I don't own Harry Potter
Chapter 9: Lost Identity
Ginny woke up to find Draco was sitting beside her bed in a chair. She had a pounding headache and she was feeling very anxious. She moved to sit up and Draco looked up from the book he had been reading.
"Hey, you're up." Draco said putting down his book. "You've been asleep for quite a while."
"Merlin my head hurts." Ginny replied, remembering her break down in the alcove. "How long have I been sleeping?"
"Um about 24 hours straight." Draco replied handing her some pills. "Madame Pomphrey told me to give these to you, something about a massive migraine." Ginny took them and the glass of water he was holding out to her.
"Am I crazy?" she asked him as she gulped down the pills. She felt like hell and she was sure she looked it.
"No." Draco replied. "Just confused."
"I think I'm crazy." Ginny said as she took another sip of water. Her throat was dry but the pills were taking effect. "What's all the noise?"
"They are celebrating." Draco replied.
"Why?"
"I think Professor Dumbledore wants to tell you." Draco told her. "You should get some more rest."
"I don't want to rest." Ginny replied crossly. "I slept for a whole day."
"You should rest." Draco repeated. "You need the sleep."
"Where's Professor Dumbledore?" Ginny asked. "I want to know what is going on."
"I'll go tell Madame Pomphrey you're up." Draco said as he left the wing. A couple of seconds later he returned with Madame Pomphrey right behind him.
"How are you feeling dear?" she asked Ginny.
"I have a headache." Ginny replied crossly. "Can I speak to Professor Dumbledore?"
"No you should rest." Madame Pomphrey replied.
"I came up here myself, I'm fine." Ginny said impatiently. "Can I please speak to Professor Dumbledore?"
Madame Pomphrey looked Ginny over once more. "I'll go summon him." she replied as she left the wing.
"Don't tell me you have been here the whole time." Ginny said noticing the small pile of books around Draco's chair.
"Not too long." Draco replied a little sheepishly. "Your brother came to visit you. Harry and Neville."
"That's good." Ginny said closing her eyes. "You were right I should rest."
"You can't now. You have Professor Dumbledore coming to talk to you." Draco reminded her.
"I know." Ginny sighed. "So what are you reading?"
"Prefects who Gained Power." Draco said holding up the book. "I bought the book I might as read it."
"It's a really bad book." Ginny said taking it from him. She flipped through the pages looking for a certain quote. "That is Percy's favorite quote." she said pointing to a sentence on the page.
Draco read it over and laughed. "That's why he has a desk job in the ministry."
"I agree." Ginny replied putting down the book. She looked over at the door as it opened. Professor Dumbledore came sweeping in.
He gave Draco a little nod and Draco left the room. "Let me know when I can come back in."
"Hello Ms. Weasley, how are you feeling?" Professor Dumbledore asked her sitting down in the chair Draco had just left.
"Crazy." Ginny replied. "What's going on?"
"There is a celebration going on." Professor Dumbledore replied. "It seems that Saturday afternoon Voldermort was captured by some members of the Order."
"Was he killed?" Ginny asked.
"I'm afraid so." Professor Dumbledore replied. "It was an accident really. One of our newest members accidently turned him into a snake and then stepped on his head."
"Lord Voldermort, turned into a snake and stepped on, what a way to die." Ginny laughed bitterly.
"I suppose you have some questions for me?" Professor Dumbledore asked her.
"Just one." Ginny replied. "Am I crazy."
"No, quite the opposite actually." Professor Dumbledre answered her. "When you had you little break down, Voldermort had just been killed."
"What does that have to do with anything?" Ginny asked him.
"Well Voldermort was Tom, and vice versa. Even though Tom's spirit was killed when Harry stuck the basilisk fang in the book, Voldermort was still around. A bit of Tom was still around."
"I don't get it." Ginny replied. She was rather tired and she had a headache and Dumbledore wasn't being clear enough for her.
"Since you were 11 you have been controlled by Voldermort in some way or another. More so when you were 11 than now. After the diary was taken care of you still had that voice in the back of you head, muttering evil thoughts. You just didn't notice. You were so confined in yourself that you never noticed. This year was different for you though, you made a friend." Professor Dumbledore gave her a meaningful look. "You started to think more and more for yourself, and that little voice was having a harder time controlling you."
"So for the past 5 years I haven't even gotten to experience them for myself?" Ginny asked him confused.
"No, your actions were your actions, you chose what you did, but you did it with an immense amount of persuasion. You had for the most part control. You just didn't have a total right frame of mind. Until Saturday evening that is." Professor Dumbledore told her.
"So it was me that wanted to-" Ginny stopped herself, she didn't want him to know about that.
"Yes it was you." Professor Dumbledore told her. "But it wasn't. He was taking your feelings and manipulating them and magnifying them. Not all of them, just the ones most beneficial to him. For a while it was very easy for him, you seemed to agree, or at least accept it."
"Am I a bad person?" Ginny asked him, she didn't know what answer she wanted.
"We all have the ability to be bad." Professor Dumbldore replied. "You chose not to last night."
"What about Draco?" she asked him. "Why is he different?"
"That is something you will have to ask him." Professor Dumbledore told her. "For the past 5 years you have been living your life but with out full control. Just remember that." Professor Dumbledore got up from the chair. "If you don't have any more questions I will go get Draco."
"No, I don't have anymore questions." Ginny replied. "This conversation, can we keep it just between us."
"As you wish, though I believe Draco probably has a good idea of what happened so you might want to clue him in." Professor Dumbledore winked as he strode out of the hospital wing. Ginny sighed and closed her eyes.
"If you want to sleep I can come back later." Draco said sitting on the edge of her bed.
"No I'm fine." Ginny replied. "Could you get me some more water though?"
Draco took her glass and refilled it and handed it back to her. Ginny moved over to allow Draco a little more room on her bed.
"So what did Dumbledore have to say?" Draco asked her.
"He told me about Voldermort, what a pathetic way to die." Ginny said. "Sure he might be remembered because of trying to take over the world but my guess is they are going to make tomorrow official celebrate snake day. Or something."
Draco laughed quietly.
"He also told me that for the past 5 years I haven't quite had the chance to be myself." Ginny sighed. "Apparently I was so much fun to control Voldermort didn't want to stop." Ginny took a sip of her water. "For the past 5 years my emotions have been manipulated and magnified and basically used to make me hate everyone."
Ginny took another sip of water. Draco couldn't miss the look of intense sadness that flashed across her face.
"I still don't know who I am, or how I feel." Ginny said. "We could declare me crazy, I wouldn't know the difference."
"You're not crazy." Draco said quietly.
"So I know why I changed last night." Ginny said remembering her question she had asked Dumbledore. "What about you, why are you different?" She looked at him expectantly.
"I fell for you." Draco replied quietly. "Good, bad, crazy, or sane."
Ginny closed her eyes. "You fell for me with some evil thoughts in my head." she said sadly.
Draco gently took Ginny's hand in his. "I fell for you." he sighed. "I more than fell, I am totally in love with you and I didn't even know it till last night."
Ginny's eyes flew open. "Last night when I went insane?" she laughed bitterly but didn't take her hand from Draco's. "You have got to be kidding me."
"Last night, you trusted me, more than you have ever trusted anyone."
"You don't know that." Ginny replied.
"I told you, your eyes are the windows to your soul, it was in your eyes."
"Draco, I don't know who I am."
"You're Ginevra Weasley. Only Daugher out of 7 kids. Greatly loved by her family." Draco replied winding her fingers through his. "For know that's all you need to know."
Ginny rolled over on her side to face Draco. "I'm not sure it is."
"I am, and I am always right." Draco replied his usual smirk playing across his lips.
"How so?" Ginny asked him skeptically.
"Potter has a thing for you."
"No he doesn't."
"Said so himself." Draco told her. "Said he was jealous that I was kissing you when he wanted to."
"He did not say that." Ginny replied giving a little laugh.
"Okay so maybe he didn't, but he was thinking it." Draco replied laughing.
"Of course everyone must be jealous of the Slytherin Sex God." Ginny replied sarcastically.
"If I weren't me, I would be." Draco replied.
"You have such an inflated head." Ginny replied as she let go of Draco's hand and pulled her covers over her.
"Are you cold?" Draco asked her.
"Yeah, could you get me another blanket?" Ginny asked him.
Draco got up and walked over to the cupboard that was sitting on the opposite wall. He pulled out a quilt and spread it out on Ginny.
"Thanks." Ginny replied as she snuggled underneath the blankets. "You don't have to stay up here, go celebrate, have fun."
"I'm good up here." Draco replied.
"Okay." Ginny replied. "Hand me that Prefects who Gained Power book. I'll point out all the stupidest parts."
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Ginny left the hospital wing the next day, she felt a lot better. She was rested and her head ache was gone. She was still very confused as to who she really was and how she felt about things but she couldn't do anything about that for the time being. Instead she went to find Draco. She had finally convinced him to join the celebration, she felt bad keeping him up there with her when there was a party going on. She had owled her parents last night and she had just gotten their response back and she wanted to show Draco.
She spotted him in the Great Hall, talking to Ron and Harry shockingly enough. When Ron saw her he gave her a big hug.
"How are you feeling Ginny?" he asked her.
"Fine until you started to smother me." Ginny replied. "I love you too bro."
Ron let her go and was checking her over to make sure she was okay.
"Umm, I need to talk to Draco." Ginny told Ron as she pulled Draco out of the Great Hall. "Look." she said as she handed the letter from her parents to him.
Dearest Ginny,
We hope you feel better, Ron wrote us about you acting a little strange and going to the hospital wing. Take care of yourself. you're my only daughter. Now about your question. I must say it was quite a shock to your father and me. We didn't even know you were friends with Draco. However, we spoke with your brother over the Floo after we got yourletter and he seemed to think that you knew what you were doing. So if you want Draco to stay with us this summer your father and I will allow it. Especially since Ron offered to let him stay in his room. I must go now, the ghoul is acting up. I love you, take care.
Mum XOXO
Draco looked up from the letter in shock. "You asked your parents if I could stay with you over the summer?"
"Yeah." Ginny replied smiling. "Considering you are in love with me and all. I don't want to deprive you of my greatness."
"Look who has the big head now?" Draco asked smirking.
"I learned form the best." Ginny replied. "So do you want to?"
"Ron's room?"
"In case he has the need to kill you, you're in reach." Ginny smirked.
"I'd love to." Draco smiled at her.
"You just smiled, with out looking like you are in pain." Ginny teased him.
"Well it is a lot easier when I'm not pretending to smile at Granger."
"I still don't like her." Ginny replied taking Draco's hand in hers. "Why do you suppose that is?"
"Cause she is a know-it-all goody goody, who broke your brother's heart." Draco answered her.
"That's a good enough reason." Ginny replied as they entered the Great Hall, joining the celebration.
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Ginny and Draco didn't start dating right away. She needed time to figure some things out and she couldn't do that with someone expecting her to be a certain way. Draco understood and gave her space. Ginny became best friends with Neville and went with him one day to visit his parents. Draco actually became friends with Ron and Harry. He was trying to make things easier for Ginny, she didn't need to be worrying about people fighting around her. Draco was starting to get a little depressed that GInny wouldn't date him yet. He waited however, knowing that sooner or later she would be ready. He just hoped it was sooner rather than later.
"Hey Draco." Ginny said one night in the middle of March. She was crawling into her alcove. "What are you doing?"
"Just studying. Big tests coming up." Draco replied showing her the book he was studying out of.
"You ares studying for Transfiguration with out me?" Ginny asked pretending to be hurt.
"Yep." Draco replied.
"So I spoke with Madame Pomphrey today." Ginny told him. "I told her I didn't need the depression pills anymore."
"That's good." Draco told her.
"I told her I was happy with myself. I had a pretty good clue as to who I was and what I wanted. That I didn't feel so lost anymore." GInny continued.
"I'm happy for you." Draco replied.
"No you aren't." Ginny said. "You're happy for yourself. Because if I know who I am then that means I'm ready to date."
"Okay so you caught me " Draco smirked.
"Not that I blame you. If I had the possibility of dating me I would be pretty happy also." Ginny smirked back at him.
"You have got to stop having this big ego." Draco told her. "That's my bit."
"Hey Draco?" Ginny asked him. "You want to go to Hogsmeade with me this weekend?"
"I suppose. I haven't gotten any other offers, unless you count the standing invitation from Pansy." Draco said.
"Good. I'll see you tomorrow then." Ginny said as she crawled out of the alcove. She stopped at the opening and turned around. "Are you happy?"
"Yeah. I am." Draco replied smiling at her.
"Goodnight Draco." Ginny said as she started back inside the castle.
"Night Ginny." he answered.
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After that night Ginny and Draco started dating. Even though they had gone all the way, already, they started out slow. Ginny's personality had changed a lot since that night in January. Draco didn't push her, he had seen the consequences of pissing Ginny off and to tell the truth he actually wanted to have kids one day.
NEWTs rolled around and with Ginny's help he managed to pass both his Charms and his Transfiguration quizzes. Ginny passed all her OWL's with flying colors, doing even better than Hermione had the year before. Draco had stayed with the Weasley's over the summer. They slowly took to him and by the end of the summer he was like one of their own. When Ginny went back to her last year of school Draco got an apartment in Hogsmeade and he just lived for a while off his savings. He wanted to be near Ginny.
Ginny got through her last year of school with no major events happening to her. She didn't have a lot of friends but that was okay. She got letters from Neville all the time, he worked at the same hospital his parents were in. She went and visited the twins joke shop in Hogsmeade all the time. And of course she had Draco. Draco who knew everything about her, and he was just a stones throw away.
The End
(There will be an epilogue. So this isn't really the end, just most of it. Anyway I hope you guys liked my little twist at the end. Leave me comments and I will try and get the epilogue up either tomorrow or the day after. Love ya!)