The Desk
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28 June
The final battle happened today! We were totally unprepared as we had no warning apart from Hogwarts warning system, we only had about two minutes to prepare. I felt such a failure, it was my job to make sure that we were prepared for eventualities such as these, however because of me being discovered as a spy we had no warning.
However we probably should have guessed, The Dark Lord always seems to wait until the last day of the exams to make an attack. In the past Harry has joked that this is really quite sensitive if him to not interrupt the exam system. However if he had attacked before it would have got him out of the exams, and now he is so paranoid about what is going to happen after the exams his revision and exam performance suffers because of it.
We however gained the victory. Harry did what he has been training to do practically since entering Hogwarts, and especially in the last two years. He managed to alter the magical defences around Hogwarts to when attacked to simply intensify around Gryffindor tower then sent all student fifth year and under into the tower even the Slytherins. Also any student above those years who didn't wish to fight also went to the tower. Of course all the Gryffindor sixth and seventh years fought, also the majority of the Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff students fought as well. All of the Slytherin students fought as well the surprise of cause was that two of them Draco and Blaise actually fought on our side. Harry had to kill Lucius just to stop him from killing Draco.
We have lost a lot of people today, Minerva was killed Lucius she probably would have been okay but she was taking on Crabbe Sr and Goyle Sr at the same time and couldn't fight all three at the same time. She had managed to take out Crabbe and seriously injure Goyle before she died. Ginny Weasley was seriously injured by her brother Percy, Ron managed to kill him before he managed to kill her though. Ron however was killed later in the battle by Bellatrix Lestrange, she was later killed by Neville Longbottom. Other losses include Seamus Finnegan, Parvati Patel, Susan Bones and Luna Lovegood. Of cause the major death on the dark side was Voldemort. Which effectively meant that the war was over.
I guess this means I'm finally free, I of cause will still have to be careful, while Voldemort is dead his supporters are still out there. Most of the most powerful have been captured though, and I think that I'm more than a match for most of them.
I can move on. I know longer have to teach ungrateful brats how to make potions anymore. I could get a job as a senior researcher, or open an apothecary. All dreams that I have had since I have been working here. I now find that these no longer have any appeal now that they are a possibility. I wonder if the only reason I hated this job was because I had no choice but to do it. Would I have chosen this life willingly if I had had a choice. I admit when I have a student who truly excels at potions I love teaching it even if that student is not a Slytherin. I even find it a small victory when students who have no talent in the subject, such as Longbottom leave with an acceptable mark in their Potion O.W.L, even though I only allow people with an outstanding mark into my N.E.W.T class. I can't believe after all these years of feeling like I was trapped in a place that I thought I didn't want to be, I realise that I actually love this job.
8 July
Harry's last day at school today. It will probably be the last time that I will ever see him. It took a few days after the battle to realise that I would no longer have an excuse to see Harry, as after the final battle as the Order is no longer needed.
I do not know what I am going to do. While I found that I actually love teaching now that I no longer am forced into it. It isn't enough without Harry in my life, I don't see the point of carrying on. I don't need him in my life as a partner though that would be wonderful, but the thought of never seeing him at all is to much for me to be able to take.
At the leaving feast Harry came up to me and told me how grateful he was to have had me as a teacher. This would give me hope of seeing him again, if I had not had other students in the past do the same thing and then never seen them again. This in the past has never truly bothered me, not that I did not want to see these students again, it was that I just assumed that it was part of the job. It's my fault that I have got too attached to Harry and now I am hoping that Harry will be the exception to the rule, it is possible he often is the exception to the rule, but this time I think that it is unlikely.
I have nothing to live for anymore. I no longer want to be here. What is there left for me. If I add extra Asphodel to the Draught of Living Death it becomes lethal. It is also painless, if caught quick enough or if the antidote has been taken before hand it will just give me a good nights sleep, but no one is going to be able to brew the antidote in time to stop the desired effect.
All I need to do is sort out what will happen to my belongings after I die. And to brew the poison. The desk's spells will make sure that my belongings will be delivered to the people they were meant to go to after I drink the poison. I wish Harry to have this desk and it's contents. As for all my other belongings I wish to leave them all to Albus.
I suppose that has sorted everything out. I guess I had better get on with it. I have nothing else to do.
Don't worry this is not the end. Thank you to everyone who has reviewed it means a lot to me.
The characters don't belong to me
28 June
The final battle happened today! We were totally unprepared as we had no warning apart from Hogwarts warning system, we only had about two minutes to prepare. I felt such a failure, it was my job to make sure that we were prepared for eventualities such as these, however because of me being discovered as a spy we had no warning.
However we probably should have guessed, The Dark Lord always seems to wait until the last day of the exams to make an attack. In the past Harry has joked that this is really quite sensitive if him to not interrupt the exam system. However if he had attacked before it would have got him out of the exams, and now he is so paranoid about what is going to happen after the exams his revision and exam performance suffers because of it.
We however gained the victory. Harry did what he has been training to do practically since entering Hogwarts, and especially in the last two years. He managed to alter the magical defences around Hogwarts to when attacked to simply intensify around Gryffindor tower then sent all student fifth year and under into the tower even the Slytherins. Also any student above those years who didn't wish to fight also went to the tower. Of course all the Gryffindor sixth and seventh years fought, also the majority of the Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff students fought as well. All of the Slytherin students fought as well the surprise of cause was that two of them Draco and Blaise actually fought on our side. Harry had to kill Lucius just to stop him from killing Draco.
We have lost a lot of people today, Minerva was killed Lucius she probably would have been okay but she was taking on Crabbe Sr and Goyle Sr at the same time and couldn't fight all three at the same time. She had managed to take out Crabbe and seriously injure Goyle before she died. Ginny Weasley was seriously injured by her brother Percy, Ron managed to kill him before he managed to kill her though. Ron however was killed later in the battle by Bellatrix Lestrange, she was later killed by Neville Longbottom. Other losses include Seamus Finnegan, Parvati Patel, Susan Bones and Luna Lovegood. Of cause the major death on the dark side was Voldemort. Which effectively meant that the war was over.
I guess this means I'm finally free, I of cause will still have to be careful, while Voldemort is dead his supporters are still out there. Most of the most powerful have been captured though, and I think that I'm more than a match for most of them.
I can move on. I know longer have to teach ungrateful brats how to make potions anymore. I could get a job as a senior researcher, or open an apothecary. All dreams that I have had since I have been working here. I now find that these no longer have any appeal now that they are a possibility. I wonder if the only reason I hated this job was because I had no choice but to do it. Would I have chosen this life willingly if I had had a choice. I admit when I have a student who truly excels at potions I love teaching it even if that student is not a Slytherin. I even find it a small victory when students who have no talent in the subject, such as Longbottom leave with an acceptable mark in their Potion O.W.L, even though I only allow people with an outstanding mark into my N.E.W.T class. I can't believe after all these years of feeling like I was trapped in a place that I thought I didn't want to be, I realise that I actually love this job.
8 July
Harry's last day at school today. It will probably be the last time that I will ever see him. It took a few days after the battle to realise that I would no longer have an excuse to see Harry, as after the final battle as the Order is no longer needed.
I do not know what I am going to do. While I found that I actually love teaching now that I no longer am forced into it. It isn't enough without Harry in my life, I don't see the point of carrying on. I don't need him in my life as a partner though that would be wonderful, but the thought of never seeing him at all is to much for me to be able to take.
At the leaving feast Harry came up to me and told me how grateful he was to have had me as a teacher. This would give me hope of seeing him again, if I had not had other students in the past do the same thing and then never seen them again. This in the past has never truly bothered me, not that I did not want to see these students again, it was that I just assumed that it was part of the job. It's my fault that I have got too attached to Harry and now I am hoping that Harry will be the exception to the rule, it is possible he often is the exception to the rule, but this time I think that it is unlikely.
I have nothing to live for anymore. I no longer want to be here. What is there left for me. If I add extra Asphodel to the Draught of Living Death it becomes lethal. It is also painless, if caught quick enough or if the antidote has been taken before hand it will just give me a good nights sleep, but no one is going to be able to brew the antidote in time to stop the desired effect.
All I need to do is sort out what will happen to my belongings after I die. And to brew the poison. The desk's spells will make sure that my belongings will be delivered to the people they were meant to go to after I drink the poison. I wish Harry to have this desk and it's contents. As for all my other belongings I wish to leave them all to Albus.
I suppose that has sorted everything out. I guess I had better get on with it. I have nothing else to do.
Don't worry this is not the end. Thank you to everyone who has reviewed it means a lot to me.