Amy handed Bruce his sandwich and began to eat hers. They chugged the orange juice straight from the carton. She turned on the radio. "Differences" by Ginuwine was playing.
"Mmm..." Bruce moaned with his mouth slightly full.
"...good song," he said as he finished his bite.
Girl, you open me, I'm wide open;
And I'm doing things I never do.
But I feel so good, I feel so good.
Why'd it take so long me finding you?
This is my story and I'm telling you,
It's not fiction, it's surely a fact;
Without you right here having my back,
I really don't know just where I'd be at.
My whole life has changed (My whole life has changed)
Since you came in, I knew back then (Ooh...oh...)
You were that special one (You were that)
I'm so in love, so deep in love
Amy listened as she ate; it sounded like a good song. Her whole life had changed since Bruce entered it. She wondered if he thought it was a good song because he felt the same way. Their lives were about to change yet again. Amy suddenly remembered Bruce's plans to transfer out of her courtroom.
"Hey, I know I sort of asked for you to put in for a transfer, but I thought it over and it's too much of a hassle. I know you're going to leave as soon as you can and I'm confident you'll find a job in no time."
Bruce finished his sandwich and took a chug out of the orange juice before he responded.
"Well, I'll try my best but don't know how soon I'll find work. I don't want to jump on the first offer unless its really good. And I think we're asking for trouble if we continue working together. I think it'll be difficult to maintain a professional decorum," Bruce replied earnestly.
"We just have to stay focused on the cases and be aware of when we're in front of others..." she answered nonchalantly.
"...BUT when we're in my chambers –we lock the door."
He looked over at her. She was giving him a mischievous grin. Bruce could tell Amy was already planning very contemptible things in her chambers. He quickly put his eyes back on the road. She reached over and put her hand on his lap. He took her hand in his and glanced at her again.
"Seriously Amy, it isn't a good idea. It just takes a small slip up and your career is in jeopardy. After this weekend, I can easily see making a mistake if I'm around you all day. We don't need another impropriety inquiry."
She pulled his hand onto her lap and cradled it with both her hands. Her intentions were originally to relieve him of unnecessary stress while he found other work. She found herself not wanting to let him go again. Amy realized her motives were selfish yet again.
"You're right... I felt I like I pushed you to make your decision to transfer and it wasn't right. It's not fair for you have to get used to a new courtroom and judge while your busy looking for other work. So I'm asking you not to transfer. But I'm not going to lie to you; I like the idea of going back to work together. Not necessarily to fool around when we're alone, but just to be close to you. I just feel a solace being close to you."
Amy caressed his hand with hers. He squeezed her hands affectionately. Bruce shared her sentiments.
"You're forgetting that I've been doing this for awhile. I'm going to be ok; it's for the best that I transfer. I can still meet you for lunch and after work. Regardless, I won't transfer right away. I'll make sure you get a good replacement; someone ugly but with great work ethics, who'll keep you so busy that the day will fly by. Then we'll have long evenings together," he started seriously but ended playfully.
"Everyday?" Amy asked doubtfully.
"Why not?" he replied.
His quick response surprised her more than his actual answer. It was as if he had already thought everything out. She couldn't believe he was serious.
"What about Rebecca?... and church?" she said unconvinced of his plan.
"We may have other commitments, but there isn't any reason why we couldn't see each other before or after them. The girls get along great, that shouldn't be a problem. If you don't want to come to church with us..." Bruce glanced at Amy who shot him a 'you must be kidding' look,
"...And I take it you don't, Rebecca and I can attend the earlier mass. Any way you look at it, we'll have time to be together. I mean, sure, we will do things apart. We have our daughters and other people in our lives –but we still could see each other daily, or nightly if we wanted. Right?"
She beamed at him. Amy was elated by his words. She pulled his hand up to her lips and kissed it gently then brought it to her heart. He had diminished her doubt.
"I'm going to hold you to that," she said very seriously.
Bruce smiled warmly at her. She could see in his eyes that he meant what he said. A feeling of consolation filled Amy. She snuggled his arm as a child does a teddy bear. The song on the radio started and caught her attention; it began with a beautiful piano introduction.
I love you
I love you
I love you
Baby I love you.
You are my life.
My happiest moments weren't complete
if you weren't by my side.
You're my relation
in connection to the sun;
with you next to me
there's no darkness I can't overcome...
The song sounded slightly familiar to her, but it never grabbed her before the way it did at this moment. Amy found the singing as beautiful as the melody. The words were overpowering. It felt as if someone was looking into her soul and singing about what they were seeing.
...Baby, I'm so proud
so proud to be your girl.
You make the confusion
go all away
from this cold and messed up world.
I am in love with you.
You set me free.
I can't do this thing
called life without you here with me.
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you.
I'll never leave.
Just keep lovin' me
the way I love you loving me...
Bruce noticed how serious Amy was. She embraced his arm tightly. He wondered what she was thinking about.
"Hey... you ok, Babe?"
"Hmm? Yeah, yeah... I'm just listening to this song. It's so beautiful. Its expressing all my feelings for you," she replied as she squeezed his arm and reached up to kiss his cheek.
...And I know you love me.
Love me for who I am...
He knew the song well. It moved him that Amy felt it conveyed her emotions. Bruce lowered his head and kissed the top of hers.
...I know it ain't easy
easy loving me.
I appreciate the love and dedication
from you to me.
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child,
I see myself being your wife,
and I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes makes me wanna cry
realize all my blessings.
I'm grateful
to have you by my side...
"My God," she thought, "I've never felt so sure about anything in my life."
It was a scary, yet comforting thought. The song had delved deep into the recesses of her mind... Amy pictured a small wedding ceremony at her house; Bruce looking debonair in his tuxedo while she wore an elegant, yet simple, flowing white gown. Then she envisioned living in the same house with Bruce and Rebecca. Amy had always wanted a sister during her teenage years; it made her happy dreaming of Lauren sharing her room and her teenage years with Rebecca. She then imagined a young boy driving the girls crazy and rough housing with his older cousins... a beautiful son to compliment the daughters they each have.
...Every time I see your face
my heart smiles.
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes.
Created in this world
to love and to hold,
to feel,
to breathe,
to love you.
Dangerously in love.
I am in love with you.
You set me free.
I can't do this thing (Can't do this thing)
called life without you here with me.
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (I love you , I love you, I love you)
I'll never leave ( I'll never leave)
Just keep lovin' me (Just keep on loving me)
the way I love you loving me...
"If it doesn't work out between us, I'm not destined to be happy," Amy said solemnly, still hugging his arm.
"Hey, you can't start thinking that way. We'll have our problems like normal couples, but there isn't a reason why things won't work out between us. As long as I've known you, you aren't looking for short-term happiness. Neither am I."
"Bruce, I don't think I've ever felt so sure about anything. I had my doubts with Michael and everyone else since. Everything seems so right with you. I'm terrified to go back to Hartford. There are so many obstacles for us. We have work to deal with, you finding another job, Mia, David and everyone who's ever accused us of having something between us in the past. I'm scared to death of losing you," she said with a fretful voice.
He brought his hand up from out of her grasp and lifted her chin up to face him. Her eyes were filled with worry. He kissed her tenderly but quickly since he was still driving. He held her hands again and squeezed affectionately.
Dangerously
Dangerously in love with you
Dangerously
I love you
Love you
Love you
Love you...
"We've gotten through a lot worse Amy. I don't see anything you mentioned as being capable of tearing us apart. We know each other too well and we love each other too much. Stop stressing; it'll all turn out right in the end. If it doesn't, it's not the end," he said with a smile.
...I love you
I love you
I love you
Dangerously in love
Amy watched him. His eyes were focused on the road but his conviction wasn't lost in the lack of eye contact. However, she did find it disconcerting that he was so optimistic. It always seemed as if she was the idealistic one and he was the one telling her to be realistic. The role reversal wasn't comforting. Fortunately, Bruce's actions were. He leaned toward her as he drove, letting her completely cuddle his arm. He even nestled his chin on her head. It wasn't long before she completely relaxed and fell asleep. Amy dreamed of a beautiful life together with him.
His thoughts weren't much different than her dreams. Bruce was filled with a nervous excitement. Little known to Amy, he planned on taking her with him to pick up Rebecca. His sister and daughter wanted to meet the special woman in his life and Amy wanted to be certain of his commitment. Revealing her to his family would be proof for all. His nerves were on edge from anticipation. Everything was moving so fast, yet everything seemed so right to him. He didn't have any reservations; he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Amy.
