Sean got a blanket and they sat down on the couch.
Ellie- Sean it is only one o'clock I don't think we are going to be falling asleep.
Sean- I know it's just cold. Do you want to watch a movie?
Ellie- Sure what would you want to watch?
Sean- umm...well we have grind? I just borrowed this from Jay.
Ellie- Sure why not.
She laid her head on his shoulder and watched the movie. They couldn't really pay attention because half way through they started making out.
Ellie started taking her shirt off.
Sean- again?
Ellie- uh huh.
When they were done Jay called.
Jay- Hey you guys want to come over and hang out for a little while.
Sean- umm one second, El you want to go to Jay's for a little while.
Ellie- I am going out with Ashley actually but you can go.
Sean- you sure,
Ellie- Sean I will be fine believe me I will be with Ashley
Sean- Hey Jay I am going to come over but Ellie is going out with Ashley, Yeah see you in a little while.
Ellie- I should get walking its getting cold outside.
Sean- I love you (kissed her)
Ellie- I love you to.
(At Ashley's)
Toby- hey Ellie, Ashley is upstairs
Ellie- Thanks Toby (At Ashley's door) Hey Ashley
Ashley- Hey Ellie!
Ellie- Wow we haven't hung out in so long.
Ashley- I know so talk to me about you and Sean.
Ellie- Only if you talk to me about Craig.
Ashley- Me and Craig are just friend trust me.
Ellie-yeah sure like I am going to believe that, Craig and you will never be just friends and you know that.
Ashley- Well what about you and Sean?
Ellie- Well me and Sean are defiantly more then friends.
Ashley- (throws pillow at her) I know but how are you guys.
Ellie- We are really good now.
Ashley- What do you mean?
Ellie- What do you mean what do I mean. (Ellie looked at the floor)
Ashley- ELLIE! You did it with him didn't you?
Ellie- Maybe.
Ashley- Oh my god how was it.
Ellie- Ashley!
Ashley- Come on I would tell you.
Ellie- It was kind of awkward but it was good.
Ashley- When?
Ellie- Friday night.
Ashley- After the dance, well did you plan it?
Ellie- Yeah, now enough about me what about you and Craig?
Ashley- We are just friends.
Ellie- Yeah sure you are.
They hung out till 9:30 when Ellie got a call from Sean and she decided it was time to go.
Ellie- I am going to go Ashley I will see you in school.
Ashley- I can have my mom drive you home.
Ellie- No I want to walk.
Ashley- Call me or something okay?
Ellie- Yeah I will.
Ellie started walking home and she walked by Emma's house and Emma was sitting on her front porch and she walked over in front of her.
Emma- Well if it isn't Ellie Nash.
Ellie- Emma I just want to go home so go away.
Emma- Um...No
Ellie- Okay what the hell is your problem.
Emma- You're my problem, you think that you deserve Sean you tried to kill yourself you were going to leave him and sometimes I wish you would have died because Sean would be broken and guess who would be there to pick up the pieces not you that's for sure. What were you thinking when you were sitting there under the water that no one would care you know what I really don't think any one would care. You should have died.
Ellie was enraged and jump on top of her and punched her in the face.
Ellie- You ever fucking talk to me again and I swear to god I will make your life hell.
She walked away from Emma who was lying on the floor and her eyes were full of tears. She walked in to the apartment and Sean was sitting on the floor playing with Bueller.
Sean- Hey are you crying?
Ellie- No its just kind of cold outside and my eyes started watering (she lied) I think I am going to go to bed Sean I am really tired.
Sean- Okay I am going to shower and then I will be in.
Ellie- I love you.
Sean- I love you to.
Ellie got into bed those words that Emma said played over in her head over and over again. "You were going to leave him" "no one would care, you should have died." Ellie could feel tears in her eyes. Emma is wrong my friends would care they did care I know they did.
She then fell asleep.
"My pain will be gone soon the second I cant feel anything I will never have to feel this again, I am all alone no one is here to save me no one is even thinking about me, when they find out they will say there kind words to my grandma they will tell her they are sorry but they wont be no one cares about me if anyone cared about me they would be here and not off having fun. I can't breath anymore it is all almost over I can see the light I hear my dad calling my name. I love you Sean but I have to go be with my family."
Ellie woke up and started screaming!!
Sean came running in soaking wet. Ellie was pulling at her hair. "Ellie stop it!" She got up and threw a picture of her mom she put on the side of the bed. Then she fell to the floor and started to cry,
Ellie- Sean I am not okay.
Sean- Ellie what is going on?
Ellie- I was walking home and Emma came up to me and started saying all this crap and asked me what I was thinking when I was under water and I just had a dream about everything that was running through my mind and the things I saw, it was so bad Sean I cant go on like this.
Sean- Ellie come here don't ever let what Emma says get to you she is just jealous and looking for a way to get her revenge and she is really good at it because seeing you hurt is hurting me. (He wiped the tears from her eyes) Come on okay lets just go to sleep and on Monday I will deal with Emma and I will make sure she leave you alone.
Ellie- I can't I want my dad so bad he was the only one who could have saved my mom I miss him so much Sean.
Sean- Don't worry Ellie okay I will always be here for you no one will ever hurt you again and if they do they will have to deal with me I love you so much and I know that you didn't mean to do it.
Ellie- At the time I did thinking back on it I would never want to kill myself but I filled that tub I (she pulled down her sleeves where deep cuts were) made this cuts deep because I thought that it would speed everything up and I took a look at a picture of me and you and then I went into that bath and I tried to drown myself. I feel so horrible. This is how I felt before I killed myself.
Sean- Ellie you don't have to worry about it anymore okay I am still here for you and Mrs. Suave is here and your consolers at the hospital who called me and told me you didn't show up, the only way you are going to get better is if you start talking to people instead of holding in all of your pain it is no good for you.
Ellie started to cry more and Sean lifted her back into the bed and went to get dressed and laid next to her. He could tell she was still crying so her turned her around ," Ellie if you need to cry do it all you want crying is another way to get your feelings out we are going to get you to stop cutting and to stop feeling the way you do don't worry okay.
Ellie- I just want to go to sleep.
She fell asleep.
Sean looked at her "I have to make her better I can't have her hurting it hurts me so bad knowing that she is hurting." "Maybe I can go to the therapy meeting with her or talk to her consoler alone and she could tell me how to help Ellie because she needs help."
He fell asleep dreaming about that night.
He saw himself holding Ellie it was a weird dream it was like he was standing outside of himself.
He was holding Ellie's cold, wet, bloody body.
Ellie I cant loose you please come back wake up please I love you so much I am so sorry you are going to be fine, why did I leave her alone? What was I thinking I knew that she wanted me to be with her while she was hurting but I had to go to Jay's party, what was I thinking. Suddenly his focus was turned to the blood written on the wall. He could still see himself holding Ellie but the part of him watching this go on walked over to the wall to touch the dry blood and he says "I forgive you."
Jus then Sean woke up in tears. Ellie jumped up because she could feel Sean get up.
Ellie- Sean what is it?
Sean- Ellie I forgive you.
Ellie- what do you mean?
Sean- That night you wrote sorry on the wall and I need for you to know that I forgive you.
Ellie- I am glad you do. (She fell back asleep)
Sean- I love you so much Ellie Nash.
Ellie heard him she didn't say anything she knew he knew she loved him she just smiled she could now fall asleep okay.
A/N- Hey guys thanks for all of your reviews I sadly only have about one or two more chapters left in this story and I don't want it to end, so I am going to write more Shellie one's one I finish the one I just started.