A/N: You may notice that this chapter is entitled "Only One". This is a song by Yellowcard. I'm sorry that I keep making songs into chapters, but I just can't help it! So many songs remind me of Emma/Sean relationships! I was seriously considering called Chapter One "My Happy Ending" and ending it with the song "My Happy Ending" by Avril Lavigne, but I decided not to because Chapter One isn't about Emma being pissed at Sean, it's about Emma pretending everything's okay when it's not. And I couldn't work it into Chapter Two, because yes, Emma is pissed at Sean, and he yells at her a bit, but then they realize they're in love with each other (although they think the other one hates then.) Isn't that ironic? I love irony) and in the song everything ends sort of negatively so that didn't work. By the way, thanks for your wonderful compliments. I'm so glad people like it! I think I've babbled long enough, so I'll leave now so that everyone can R&R Chapter Five: Only One. Prepare yourselves for some serious drama.
Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or the song only one.
How pathetic was it that Sean kept running every single second of his make-out session with Emma through his head? The way she felt in his arms and how she smelled like vanilla. Probably was her perfume or something. But still, the whole thing just overwhelmed him. Emma was going to break up with Chris, and then they'd be together. Finally.
A sharp pain knocked into the side of Sean's head. He turned to see a pissed-off Jay at his side. "You, are you even listening to me?"
"Uh, yeah, what were you saying?"
Jay sighed impatiently. "Alex and I broke up. She likes you. You two should go out." It was not a question.
"I don't think so."
"What's the matter with her? She's hot, she likes you, and she's one of us. What else is there?"
Sean shrugged. "Well, I uh, kinda was thinking of getting back with Emma." Jay laughed. "Yeah, right. Trust me on this one Sean; you don't want to go back to that freak." Yes I do! "Unless of course," Jay said casually," "you'd rather screw her than hang with us."
Resisting the urge to hit him, Sean said," It's not like that."
"Sure. So what is it? The tree hugger or Alex?"
Sean wanted to run, run far away from Jay. But Jay was his best friend. Without him, the rest of them would go away and Sean would be alone. A complete outcast, and he didn't need that. Maybe he's right. After all, Emma's just a girl. There are my friends. No, that wasn't right, he loved Emma, she wasn't just a girl. But if she really loves me, then she'll wait, right? Until Jay graduates or whatever. Then we can be together. She wouldn't want me to be alone. She'll understand, right?
"I guess I'll go out with Alex, then." Jay nodded in approval. "Go tell her then. She's coming out of the girls' room now." Jay gave Sean a push and he walked over to Alex.
"So," she said cracking her gum, "you and me?" "I guess," he muttered, staring at his shoes. She suddenly slammed her mouth against his. This is disgusting.
She wasn't Emma, wasn't Emma at all. She shoved her tongue down his throat, she tasted like beer and smelled like cigarettes, and he nearly choked on her gum. It was a wonder he didn't puke all over her.
"Well, see you around," she said, smiling in a way that she seemed to think was seductive, and walked away. Sean sighed, slipped his bandana off, and ran his fingers through his hair. He turned around and started to walk away, when he saw Emma Nelson, the only girl he'd ever loved, standing like a statue in the hallway, her eyes filled with tears.
xXx
Emma met Sean's glance. He opened his mouth to speak, but she didn't want to hear it. Already she could feel the waves of pain hitting her. He didn't love her, he had never loved her. It was all a game to him. But it had been so real for her. So she did the only thing she knew how to do: she turned around and ran. She could hear Sean calling out her name, then he started to run after her. But Emma had already gotten a good head start. She ran so hard that she felt like her legs would give out. And finally they did. She fell against a locker, trying to catch her breath. Sean caught up to her. "Emma, wait, please, it wasn't what it looked like-" he started to say.
"Explain what? I saw everything! All Jay has to do is snap his fingers and you go running to do whatever the hell he wants. God, I would have done anything for you! And this is how you repay me? By swapping spit with Alex, my worst enemy, just because Jay said so? You make me sick."
"Please, let me explain-"
Emma felt someone's arm link through hers. She turned to her side to see that Paige, of all people, was staring at Sean with a fierce hatred. "Sean, I think you've said enough," Paige snarled. Sean pulled Emma away from Paige. "Would you just listen to me?" he asked.
"Don't touch me, don't you ever touch me," Emma said furiously.
"You didn't seem to mind me touching you yesterday in the ravine!"
Emma slapped Sean as hard as she could, so hard that her hand burned. Sean's head snapped back, and Paige re-linked arms with Emma. "Come on, honey, let's get you out of here."
Safely inside the girls' room, Emma started to cry. Paige rubbed her back comfortingly. "It's okay, hun, everything's fine. Ellie, Ashley, and hazel should be here soon." Emma looked up with her tear-stained eyes. "Why-why are you being so nice to me?" she asked. Paige shrugged. "Well, I'm friends with Ellie and she's friends with you, so I thought, we might as well all be friends, right? You and Manny still aren't talking, so why not?" Paige smiled. "So are we friends?" she asked. Emma nodded. "Yes. We are." Paige leaned over and hugged her tightly.
The door flew open. "I can't believe you slapped Sean!" Ellie exclaimed. "That was so cool! You are so cool!" squealed Hazel. "He totally deserved it, the jerk. But why were you so mad in the first place?" asked Ashley. Emma explained about what happened in the ravine, and how Sean and Alex were together. Ellie clenched her fist threateningly. "You want me to teach that Alex bitch a lesson?" "Hey, I bet I could get Spinner to beat up Sean," Paige offered. "Yeah, I could get Jimmy to do the same!" Hazel put in. "Um, since Craig and I are sort of friends, and you're already friends anyways with him, he could also beat up Sean." Emma shook her head. "No one needs to beat up Sean, and Ellie, don't you dare touch Alex." All four girls stared at Emma. "If anyone is gonna beat up Alex, it's gonna be me," Emma said darkly. "And on that pleasant note..." Ellie joked.
"Hey, I'm having a sleepover tonight and you four are my guests," announced Paige. "I can totally come," said Hazel. "I might squeeze in an appearance," said Ellie with a grin. "I'll be there," confirmed Ashley. "So will I," said Emma.
Ashley leaned in and gave Emma a one-armed hug. "Don't worry, Em. Just forget about him, you deserve so much better." "I know," said Emma, smiling at all her new friends.
xXx
It had been a month since Emma had seen Alex and Sean kissing. So much had changed. People she had hardly known last month were now her close friends. She spend most of her time with Paige, Hazel, Ellie, Ashley, Dylan, Marco, JT, Toby, Spinner, Craig, and Jimmy- eating at the Dot, drinking coffee on the boardwalks, or just sitting on one of Degrassi's staircases talking. At first it was a little weird being on of the youngest ones, but they didn't treat her any different. Emma felt more secure than she had in weeks. She had broken it off with Chris. She told him about kissing Sean when they were together, and she doubted Chris would speak to her again. But somehow it didn't matter.
Emma was also going through counseling. Her friends knew about her cutting and depression, and they were all incredibly supportive. She talked to them almost every day, and they helped her as much as they could. She still cried a lot, and she felt depressed at times. But she wasn't hurting herself, and that was the main thing. Emma had also told her parents about how she worked too hard and her fears about Snake. So her mother hired a part-time babysitter for Jack, and Emma started to take shorter job shifts so she didn't have to work as hard. And best of all, Snake was finally getting better. Her life was finally coming together.
But there was something missing. During the day she was usually either too busy or having so much fun she forgot about it. But late at night, before she went to sleep, she could feel that something was wrong. A part of her life was missing, and it was tearing her apart. And she knew what it was. She wanted Sean in her life.
Emma closed her locker. She had to meet her friends at The Dot in 20 minutes, but it was raining so hard, she called Jimmy to tell him to tell everyone else she'd be late, that she was waiting for the rain to stop. She stood behind the door and waited. But then she noticed a figure standing in the rain. She would recognize that hoodie anywhere.
xXx
The rain kept falling, but Sean didn't care. He really didn't care about anything these days. It had been a month since Emma had caught him and Alex kissing, He'd done everything possible to apologize. He ended it with Alex instantly and he tried to talk to Emma, but it seemed like her new friends were guarding her wherever she went. A month ago Emma had loved him. Now she felt as if she needed to be protected from him. I always wanted to protect you, but not from myself. Sean could feel hot tears burning in his eyes. What's the point in crying? It's not as if anyone cares. And it was true. Sean was alone. Maybe he always had been.
xXx
Emma wanted to turn around and run, but her body had a mind of its own. Before she knew it, she was standing next to Sean. He turned and looked at her, surprised. He was crying.
Emma swallowed. "You're crying," she pointed out. Oh, that's great Emma. Real smooth. Sean looked away. "No, I'm not. It's just the rain."
Emma ignored his excuse. She knew him better than that. "Why are you crying?" she asked gently. Sean crossed his arms around his chest. "Why do you care? You hate me, remember?" he said bluntly.
"I don't hate you."
"Then why have you been ignoring me for the last week? Why did you slap me?" Emma frowned. "What, you think you didn't deserve it?" Sean shrugged. "Well, yeah, I did. I'm just saying, it's kinda obvious that you hate me."
"Sean, I don't hate you." Emma paused. "I can't."
"What do you mean, you can't?"
"I mean, I've tried to hate you but I can't."
"Why not?"
Emma looked away. "I dunno."
"Come on. You think I don't know when you're lying?" Emma's vision was blurred with tears. "I just can't, okay?"
"Would you just tell me why?"
"Because I still love you, okay? Could you just drop it and leave me alone?"
Emma slumped against the wall and hid her face in her hands, crying softly. Sean walked over to her, pulled her hands down, and winded his fingers through hers. Emma looked down. "Em, look at me." She looked up into those eyes of his, and remembered how she used to get lost in them. How happy she used to be around him. How she'd spent most of class doodling his name. How had she gone on without him? She had forgotten how much she cared for him. But how could something as good as love hurt so bad? "I need you," Emma admitted. Sean put his arms around her and she hugged him so hard her arms ached. "I love you," he murmured. She leaned up and kissed him as passionately as she knew how to. The rain was still falling hard, but Emma just didn't give a damn. The only thing she needed was Sean.
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go
Scream my lungs out to try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go
There's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ram my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
Something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go
Scream my lungs out to try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go
There's just no one who gets me like you
You are my only, my only one
Here I go
So dishonestly, leave a note
For you, my only one
And I know
You can see right through me
So let me go
And you will find someone
Here I go
Scream my lungs out to try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go
There's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
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