Willow was walking back to her dorm she saw Tara heading her direction. Crap what am I going to do. "Hey Will! You weren't in class I was worried so I thought I would come by to see what was up."

"Oh yeah sorry, no I'm fine I just needed to talk to my parents about next semester classes." Willow lied looking at Tara and hugging her.

"Okay just making sure I didn't need to make you soup or something take care of you, well I have class in ten minutes on the other side of campus so I need to get going we should have dinner or something tonight without the scoobie gang." Tara said hugging her girlfriend as she started to walk away.

"Sounds like a plan I need to go freshen up anyways. I will talk to you later." Willow said walking to her dorm starting to cry once again seeing her and thinking how her dad disapproved of someone so beautiful. Willow got to her door opened it and then walked in and put the water on warm and let it run. As the water warms up she looks at it running then she looks at the sink ledge and see's her razor sitting there. No I couldn't possibly. She looked at the running water then back at the razor this time picking it up and examining it. She plugs the sink so water lay there steaming, she look at the door and locks it. She slowly puts her arms in the sink so that her veins pop out she puts her arm in as far as it will go. Her hands and body shaking she picks up the razor and pops out of the blades. She reached her right hand to her wrist everything around her fading as the world didn't matter anymore the adrenaline was pumping. and Willow slowly injects the blade into her skin, the blood starts flowing out of her. She slides the blade causing more blood to come and falls into the water turning it red.

"Will!" a knock came from the door and Buffy's voice could be heard. Willow dropped the blade and looked at the door. What have I done.

"Hold on Buffy let me get dressed." She hurriedly drained the water and rinsed the sink out and fount a sweatshirt and put it on realizing she was still bleeding. Shit what am I going to do! She slowly unlocked the door. "Hey Buff sorry." Said Willow trying to hid her wrist.

"Class was such a drag, so did you talk to your parents?" asked Buffy as she went over to her bed and plopped down.

"Yea they were okay with it, good right? Okay well I need a shower me and Tara are going to go out for dinner tonight. First date type thing so I'll chat with you later." Willow said claiming everything she needed for a shower and headed towards them. I hate public bathrooms.

"Will, where you off to?" She heard Xanders voice come from behind her. Shit go away Xander.

"Hey Xander I was on my way to take a shower Buffy is in the dorm I'll talk to you later." Willow said without turning around and just heading towards the bathrooms. She got into the one and only bathtub and slowly took off her sweatshirt. I wish it would stop bleeding. So Willow turned on the water and sat there and held her wrist under the running water. Why did I do this did I really want to end my life? How could I do this, what am I going to do I can't wear long sleeves in 90 degree weather. The blood still ran from her wrist. It is quite deep is there any spell I could do to make this go away. Then looked at the cut she had given to herself and devoured the pain. It feels so good. Even though I shouldn't have done it, it made me feel better. Willow finished taking her shower and then got dressed and realized that the sweater she was wearing was all bloody, what was she going to do. She then tried to bandage the cut with what she had and walked back to the dorm room hoping Buffy wouldn't be there. She walked into the room and felt tension.

"Willow! What did you do?" Buffy asked holding a bloody razor blade in her right hand. Willow then turned around and started running. "Willow! Come back." Buffy ran after Willow but somehow she didn't see Willow or what way she had went.

"Buffy you go that way I'll go this way." Xander said looking at Buffy worriedly.

TBC...

Okay Well I have no idea where I want this story to go I will update asap I promise