Title: On the Way Down
Disclaimer: Not mine
Spoilers: None
Summary: Songfic to Ryan Cabrera's "On the Way Down"
Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin' over myself
Going nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
I took a dive
Another beer, another drink but Martin didn't care. He downed it like he did to the previous one and the one before that. Nothing seemed worthwhile anymore. He reached for his beer bottle but it was empty. So he ordered another one. He was about to drink it but he felt a hand on his arm, stopping him. He turned to whoever it was, prepared to curse at them but stopped when he saw who it was.
And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down I almost fell right through
But I held on to you
"Martin, what are you doing?" Sam asked as Martin went back to his beer.
"Nothing, Sam." She could tell he was drunk by the slurring of his words.
"How many drinks did you have?" He didn't answer. "Martin!"
He just shrugged. "I don't know. Four, five maybe?"
"Five?! Martin! Why are you doing this?" Sam gestured to the empty beer bottles.
Martin just shrugged again. Sam got angry. "Come on. I'm taking you home."
Sam pulled Martin out of is seat. He was about to argue but the look on Sam's face stopped him. With Sam's help, they managed to get out into her car. She started the car and drove to Martin's apartment.
In front of his building, she turned off the engine but didn't get out. Instead, she turned to face him.
"Why, Martin, are you doing this to yourself?" Sam repeated. The hurt in her eyes were evident.
His answer came so quietly Sam missed it.
"What?"
Martin turned to look at her. Tears were streaming down his cheeks. "She's gone."
"She...?" Then Sam remembered. Bonnie, his aunt. She died. "Oh god, Martin. I'm so sorry."
She pulled him into a hug, tears now falling from her eyes.
I've been wondering why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe?
It's alright
Sunlight on my face
I wake up and yeah, I'm alive
Martin woke up with a stinging hang-over. He smelled coffee but didn't remember making any. Sam. She must've made some.
He walked into the living room and found Sam asleep on his couch. She looked peaceful and he didn't want to wake her. So Martin just watched her.
In some ways, he was glad Sam came along when she did. He didn't need himself drinking until he wasn't aware of anything. But he wanted to get away, away from this empty world where his aunt wasn't here anymore.
'Cause on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
BUt I held on to you
He heard movements and looked over at Sam on the couch. She was awake now and was looking at him. For a moment, they just stared at each other. Then she smiled. It was then he knew everything would be okay.
I was so afraid
Of going under
But now
The weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing
Martin looked over at Sm. She was still working on her paperwork. He got up and headed to her desk. It had been a few months since she found him in the bar and Sam had been helping him through Bonnie's death. She'd also gone with him to her funeral.
"Hey." Martin leaned on the counter.
"Hi." Sam glanced up at him.
"I was wondering," he paused, "if you wanted to grab some dinner?"
Sam sent him a smile that made his heart fly. "Okay."
"Okay." Martin smiled back at her.
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
Down, down, down
You're all I needed
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed
Martin kissed her gently as Sam wrapped her arms around his neck. Sam opened her mouth slightly, giving him access. It was all he could do to stiffle a groan. He placed his hands just below her shirt. Sam began walking backwards with him towards the bedroom, not once breaking their kiss. For now, Sam was all he wanted.
And I won't forget the way you love me
The sunlight was beginning to stream through the window. Martin ran his hand over Sam's side. She turned over to look at him, smiling. He smiled back at her. She wrapped her arms around his waist, keeping him closet ot her. She ran her hand down his chest, over the hills and valleys of his muscles.
"I love you, Martin." Sam said.
Martin grinned although she couldn't see him. "I love you too."
All that I wanted
All that I needed
Martin leaned down and kissed her. Sam reached up to pull him down atop of her. He managed to let out a chuckle before Sam silenced him with a kiss.
On the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you love me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you
Sam took Martin's hand as they walked through Central Park. He looked over at her and smiled. Sam looked at him, then asked, "What are you thinking about?"
"If you never found me in the bar that night, do you think we'd still be here?" Martin asked.
"I'd hope so." Sam answered.
"You know, I never thanked you for that day. God knows what would've happened."
She smiled that beautiful smile of hers. "You're welcome."
Martin wrapped an arm around her, hugging her to him. "I love you, Sam."
Down, down, down
But I held on to you
Down, down, down
BUt I held on to you