Objective perspective.
3. The perfect soldier?
T: Well I am back and dedicated to getting this story out of my head so that I can read my manga in peace! Warnings remain the same with the addition of a random mention of a 1xR relationship and a sneaking in of my perspective on that paring.
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Duo remained silent as he led me back up the corridor and though I was sorely tempted to ask him about what had just occurred, there was something in his eyes that told me silence was the best option.
He gave me a quick tour in a less than vibrant manner and then making his excuses left me in the company of Quatre and Trowa. The blond allowed me a moment to settle myself in and then said,
"I must apologise if the last few moments have seemed a little rude."
"I understand your caution, if I were in your place then I too would have asked questions."
"Good, I knew you were a rational kind of woman to be where you are in the reputation stakes, but I couldn't be sure.
"You shall have to forgive Duo and Heero as well, cramped together like this they tend to start slicing into one another."
"Its because they are so different isn't it? Yet then why does Duo push at him so?"
"Because that's Duo, Mrs Snow. When he feels uncomfortable or displaced in any way he retreats behind laughter and jokes, recently Heero's inability to conform to the standards Duo deems his normal and the fact that this inability removes him from the head of Duo's family has made him very insecure."
"What can Duo expect from that…boy?" I enquire, hesitating only a moment before using the objective.
"Heero displayed a few rudimentary emotions at the very start of our involvement with the war, emotions such as anger, joy, protectiveness and failure. These have since been buried as his training has taken over and as this war grows ever increasingly closer.
"Duo can not believe that Heero is simply nothing more than a programmed machine, that is not how his mind works, thus he becomes ever more infuriated when he is met with little more than such a front." Quatre concluded.
It made some sense as far as Duo's disbelief went and yet that Heero displayed any sort of emotion, that pressure had dissolved those emotions…the mystery deepened and yet Quatre seemed willing enough to tell me what he could and so perhaps I might soon be able to see some clarification.
"How about the one Duo thinks of as the mother of this group, how does she figure into this?"
"Relena Peacecraft, one time Queen of the world, earns the mother label because it is around her that Heero shows his human edge. Some might take that as a sign that he cares for her but… Heero's main concern has always been for peace, for an end to the war so that the colonies might be free at last. Relena is a representative of that peace, indeed she may one day assure that such a peace exists and thus my protecting her Heero protects peace itself.
"It's a round about logic, but Heero is not one to let complications mar a mission, most especially his most important mission."
"That's foolish though, complications and emotions sometimes assure that a mission, if you will, is successful, perhaps even beneficial also."
"Heero has been trained to believe otherwise." This last was Trowa, the way in which he uttered the words informing me that he had had experience of such training himself. "He thinks that emotions are a weakness, that to be the perfect soldier one has to shut himself away from all that might cause distraction.
"This is why he has become worse of late, the weakness that he is showing towards Relena (who knows his identity) is aggravating him because he can not see why he is doing it.
"Can not understand how sparing her life might later work out for the best. Nor can he understand why Duo gets to him so and thus he gets more infuriated with him and Duo reacts by retreating further into the jokers mask."
"But why? I understand Heero's mentality well enough having seen it many times before…but why does he get under Duo's skin with such ease?
"Surly Duo understands, even subconsciously, that the more he pushes Heero the more he pushes back?"
"Because Duo feels he needs Heero's respect and because…" This was Quatre again, though the other trailed and gripping his shirt he shook his head, "I wish I could tell you, Mrs. Snow, but Duo hides so much from us all and though I have a suspicion I have nothing solid to back it up."
I knew he was telling the truth for the distress on his face and yet I could not help but feel that he was with holding something.
No matter though, my course was becoming clearer to me now…Lyanna was my priority but it would not hurt to see if I could help the boy who had spared me and perhaps even help the boy who supposedly lived within the shell of Heero.
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T: Yes yet another short one, as they all will be from now on I fear but hey! It may mean more chapters in the long run. Thank you to my constant reviewer and I promise that I shall be back a littler sooner this time as I am on holiday soon. WEEEEEEE! Ahem…
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