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HIYA!!!! Sorry for the delay in the update. Come on I was only three days late!!!! Anyways, I love all the reviews and keep 'em coming coz I love getting them.
Dark: I love that idea, but I will have to seriously twist this fic to incorporate that idea into the storyline since I already have the end figured out but I'm thinking of using that idea for another fic. Can I???? Thanks so much!!!!!
Eh Heh...I made a silly mistake earlier. Thanks to Soot now it's clarified. Its true...Inuyasha still doesn't have his necklace back so he can't be 'sat'. I fixed it in this chapter. I'll have to fix the following chapters to make sure he gets the necklace back though. Eh Heh sorry again.
Chapter 15: Reason to Live
"Were you out of your mind? Going to hunt demons by yourself." Inuyasha was standing in her room facing the window. That was the first thing he had said to her since they got home.
"Look, I didn't think there would be demons in my time and secondly you weren't around to ask for help." Kagome answered back, peeved. Inuyasha hadn't come to get her for a week and now he was acting as if nothing was wrong. True, she felt very happy that he had come and rescued her but still.
Her words seemed to affect him. Suddenly, he looked so alone, standing there by the window; Kagome wanted nothing more than to go to him and give him a big hug.
"Yes, I guess I wasn't." He said quietly. He turned around to face her; his big golden eyes were filled with pain and sadness. "I'm sorry."
"What?" Kagome was surprised. Why was he saying sorry? She was the one who had kissed his archrival and then run home instead of apologizing.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have acted that way. I have no right to tell you who to choose as your mate. If it is Kouga, then so be it. But I will continue to keep my promise, I will still protect you." His voice kept dropping with every word and Kagome noticed how he said 'Kouga' without any venom or hatred. Its almost as if he had memorized his lines. Saying them without feeling, in a dead monotone voice.
"We need you to come back. I'll wait for you. We'll leave when you're ready." With that, he jumped out of her window and landed on the ground gracefully. She watched him walk to the Sacred Tree and jump into its branches, disappearing from sight.
I have no right to tell you who to choose as your mate.
Suddenly, she didn't feel so sleepy anymore. Did that mean he didn't care for her? But if he didn't then why would he be so hurt when he had seen her with him? Does that mean he does care for her? She wondered as she put on a pair of black jeans and a white shirt and started going downstairs when...
"Kagome Higurashi!" Uh oh. When her mother used her full name, it usually meant big trouble.
"Yes Mama?" She answered sweetly. If there was one way to control her mother's temper, it was to act sweet and innocent and she ended up giving lots of hugs and kisses.
"I told you not to go to that mansion, didn't I?"
"Yes Mama."
"But you did, I am very disappointed in you." Okay, time to act ashamed. Drop your head and look down at your feet. Lower your voice. Good.
"Yes Mama."
"I get worried about you. I am just a mother. You don't know how it feels to see you go to an era of demons and monsters everyday." Her mother started crying. First one tear fell, then another. Kagome didn't know how to handle this situation. She tried to comfort her but her mother kept crying harder and then pulled her into a huge bear hug.
"I have sworn to protect her, Mrs. Higurashi. Nothing can happen to her as long as I'm alive." Kagome and her mother both turned around to see Inuyasha standing in the doorway. His baseball cap was off and his hair was shimmering in the early morning sunlight. The way he said it, Kagome was sure that Mama would practically throw Kagome into his care. He had sounded so mature and responsible; it was amazing.
"Let's go Kagome." He held out his hand and Kagome kissed her mother goodbye before grabbing it and heading out of the house. She felt a smile tugging at her lips when his hand came in contact with hers. His warm strong hand held her small hand tightly.
"Thanks for saving my life last night, Inuyasha." She said to him while squeezing his hand a little to show that she meant it. He smiled a warm smile and then nudged her to jump into the well first and he would follow.
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"I see you didn't tell her about me." Rei gave him a big pout.
"Rei?" Inuyasha started sweetly. Rei brightened immediately and gave him a big smile.
"Huh?" Her grin grew wider.
"Stay out of my head." He snarled at her with as much venom as he could muster between his thoughts about Kagome and the conversation they had had in her room.
Rei's smile vanished as Inuyasha jumped off the branch he had been sitting on and vanished into the forest.
Inuyasha and Kagome had returned early that morning and had been unusually quiet. Kagome had gone off to meet up with Miroku and Sango, both of whom had finally accepted Rei after days of convincing that she wasn't a spy. Miroku still looked at her with contempt at being controlled and then made to attack his best friend. Sango looked more than pissed at the fact that Rei had controlled Miroku and had made him attack his best friend, who had just returned from the dead.
She hadn't seen Kagome when she had arrived and she wasn't sure she wanted the monk and exterminator to fill up the miko's head with hatred for her before she got there.
"What are you people doing all cooped up inside when it's a bright day outside?" Rei sang as she entered Kaede's hut. Miroku plainly ignored her while Sango pretended to be preoccupied with Kirara and Kagome. Kagome stopped in between her sentence to see who had barged into the hut. Her eyes flew open and she grabbed her bow and pulled an arrow back, ready to shoot.
"Wait! I'm not the enemy." Rei tried to clear up the little misunderstanding.
Kagome didn't lower her weapons and kept glaring at the enemy.
"Hey monk! Tell her I'm not the enemy." Rei pleaded. Miroku looked up from his place against the wall.
"She controlled me and tried to make me kill Inuyasha." Miroku added with such pure hatred that it made Kagome wince. Miroku was the calm one and he had barely ever showed so much hatred for one person, except for Naraku.
Kagome pulled her arm back even more, adding more power to the arrow.
"Not only that, she's one of Naraku's detachments." Sango added. Kagome looked at both of them. She was pretty confused. Here they were telling her all the reasons why she should kill the girl standing in front of her while they were just sitting there doing nothing.
"What's going on?" Kagome asked quietly. She was pretty sure there was something they were hiding from her and she didn't like it.
"Why don't you ask Inuyasha?" Miroku said, but this time his voice held a little softness.
"And I know where he is." Rei said with so much cheer that Kagome wanted to grab the girl and throttle her. Suddenly Rei's bright cheery demeanour dropped and she said softly, "Go talk to Inuyasha, he needs you right now."
"And how do you suppose I'll get in there without falling down into the rocks and breaking my neck?" Kagome asked hotly. Rei had been leading her deeper and deeper into the forest. The only reason she had even agreed to let the ice demon lead her was because neither of her friends had objected. They wouldn't have allowed her to go if they thought she was dangerous. Hell, they would have killed her the moment she had appeared at the hut.
"Don't worry about it." Rei was unusually quiet. She waved her right hand absently and one side of the waterfall froze. The other half continued to flow freely and hence didn't cause any obstruction to the flow of the river above. One more flick of her hand and the ice fell away to form a sort of an opening in the frozen water. It wasn't too large but enough to get Kagome inside without getting drenched.
"So you're telling me Inuyasha is inside that thing?" Kagome asked again. Rei sighed and then explained the whole thing again.
"Inuyasha goes there to think. Right now he's depressed and confused and needs you there with him." Kagome raised an eyebrow and Rei continued to explain, "Yes, I can read his mind."
Kagome shrugged and started to climb up the rocks on the side of the waterfall and squeaked when she jumped into the little hole and slipped, landing on the hard rock floor with a thud. Just as she got inside, the ice melted and the water started running again, closing the little cave of from the outside world again.
She let her eyes adjust to the dark surroundings for a bit before looking for the half-demon. She was partially worried that the ice demon had bluffed her into coming there and had stranded her. She shook those thoughts away and returned to looking for the familiar figure.
As her eyes continued to adjust she saw a figure curled up on the floor in the corner of the cave, shrouded in darkness. She came closer and saw that it was Inuyasha all right, his silver hair and blood red clothes were a proof of that but he looked so small. His legs were pulled up to his chest and his head was buried in his knees, his arms covering his face. He was lying on his side, facing the cave wall.
Kagome went up to him silently and started stroking his silky hair. She combed them with her fingers and then reached deeper to lightly massage his scalp. Inuyasha still didn't turn around or acknowledge her presence in any way.
Is he all right? "Inuyasha?" She said softly. Inuyasha grunted softly when he heard his name.
She moved her fingers up to his ears and started to rub them gently. He moved slightly and leaned into her touch, sighing softly. Kagome resumed stroking his hair alternating with rubbing his ears now and then.
"Why are you here?" She asked.
"Because." He mumbled into his hands. Kagome sighed softly when she heard that familiar reply. Inuyasha may die and then be reincarnated, but he will never give a straight answer.
"Because what?" She urged on. Talk damn it.
"Just because," he answered. Still not clarifying anything.
Kagome moved her hands from his hair only to have him groan in protest before she pulled him by his shoulders onto his back. Once he rolled over, he straightened his legs and rested his hands on his stomach. He still didn't look at Kagome and continued to stare at the dark ceiling of the cave.
"Tell me what's wrong Inuyasha." She asked. While she waited for an answer, she caressed the side of his cheek. Inuyasha leaned into her touch, rubbing his face against her hand and then turned on his side such that he was now facing her.
"I just like coming here." He said almost inaudibly. Kagome laid down next to him, her face inches away from his. She could hear his deep regular breathing. It calmed her down and made her happy since it made the fact that he's alive all the more real to Kagome. Inspired by the moment, Kagome grabbed Inuyasha's shoulders and pushed herself into his chest. She grabbed the left side of his shirt and pushed it to the side so that his chest was exposed and then glued her ear to it. Inuyasha froze, not knowing what to do as he saw the girl in front of him move suddenly and glue her ear onto his now bare chest.
Kagome smiled when she heard his steady heartbeats speed up rapidly at such close contact with her. She giggled when she realized that Inuyasha must be very confused.
"What's so funny?" Inuyasha asked, feeling better when he heard her laughter. She pulled away from him to look at him in the eye. Her grin was still plastered onto her face.
"Nothing, just that I could hear your heartbeats." She said between giggles. Inuyasha looked more and more confused by the second. He continued to stare at her, urging her to explain herself.
"It's just that...it just makes the fact that you're alive...real." She said as she emphasized her point with a wild gesture of her hands.
Kagome watched Inuyasha's eyes go from a bright honey golden to dull amber. She wondered what she had said when he abruptly got up and went to the other side of the cave, facing away from her.
Kagome wondered what to say to break the uncomfortable silence that had settled. She didn't even know what she had said to upset him so.
"I don't deserve to be alive. I was dead because I was incapable of living on. I was incapable of surviving. I died. I am supposed to be dead." He said as his voice increased with each word until he almost screamed the last few words.
Kagome got up from her spot and moved to comfort him, "That's not true Inuyasha. There are people who need you here. We all need you here because we all love you..."
"No one loves me. No one. They all want me for my strength. I was brought back because of what I am capable of. I'm a killing machine. That's all I am. I kill demons for you. I'll kill humans for Naraku. What's the difference? I am no one. Just another puppet with feelings."
"That's not true. Inuyasha, what made you think such things?" She tried to touch his shoulder but he flinched away from her touch and moved deeper into the cave, away from her.
Inuyasha went on as if he hadn't heard her.
"I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve to be around people I love. I will lose them. I know I will. I always do. I don't remember my father. My mother died when I was young. My brother hates me. I lost the woman I fell in love with..." Inuyasha turned around and slid down the wall he had been facing a second ago. He pulled his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around them, burying his head in them.
Kagome sat down next to him and wrapped her arms around his shoulders making him lean his head into her neck, his hot breath tickling the sensitive skin.
He kept quiet for sometime before speaking softly against her skin, his lips brushing against her neck because of the movement, "I don't want to lose you too."
Was it just her imagination or had Inuyasha indirectly told Kagome he loved her? Kagome tried to look at him but was unable to since his face was buried in her neck. It seemed he had just realized what he had said and was trying to hide his face.
"You won't lose me Inuyasha. I'll always be with you." She told him, hoping it would bring him out of his depression. Instead he moved a little saying nothing.
She gasped as she suddenly felt his lips land on her sensitive skin and his arms snake around to wrap themselves around her waist. He kissed her neck softly before running his hot wet tongue on her collarbone. He placed another soft kiss on her warm neck before using his hands to pull her down while he pulled his face out of her neck and shoulder and straightened his back, such that Kagome's face was inches away from his own.
Kagome's arms slipped from around his shoulders as he stared into her deep brown eyes and came to rest on his chest where her fingers came in contact with the skin Kagome had exposed earlier in the pretext of hearing his heartbeat.
Inuyasha shivered when her fingers came in contact with his exposed skin and he bent his head down and brushed his lips against hers. He nipped at her lower lip gingerly, giving her enough time to pull away if she wanted to. When Kagome didn't move, Inuyasha claimed her lips in a soft kiss, coaxing her to open her mouth by running his tongue on her lower lip. Kagome parted her lips, allowing his tongue to explore her mouth.
The kiss started out as soft and innocent and shy, but it grew hungrier by the second as their desire for each other grew. They had both longed for this touch and now that they were finally getting it, nothing mattered in the world. They had each other and everything else seemed right.
Kagome had always wondered what Inuyasha's lips would feel like, she had stared at them for hours when he had slept trying to figure out how they would feel just by studying their shape and the soft wrinkles on the skin. She had waited for so long.
They finally pulled apart, both gasping for air as their lungs screamed in protest. Kagome's hands made their way to the back of Inuyasha's neck, pulling him down for another kiss, but he pulled back.
Kagome pulled her hands back like she's been burned. They had been in such an intimate position just a minute ago, and suddenly he was pulling away. What was wrong with him?
He got up, pulling his haori back into place (A/N: just found out that the shirt he wears is actually called haori so sorry for using the wrong term for so long.) He stood up and leaned against a wall, looking down at his toes. Kagome stared at him questioningly and he remained quiet for what seemed like hours.
"You promised Kouga..." He didn't finish his sentence, knowing that Kagome would know what he was talking about. Kagome sighed and went to him standing in front of him, face to face.
"I didn't want him to suffer the same thing I did." She answered plainly leaving no room for arguments. Inuyasha looked up at her wondering what the hell she was talking about and decided to ask her about it.
"What do you mean?" His golden eyes held her brown ones and for a moment Kagome was mesmerized by the sheer beauty of his shimmering eyes.
"I didn't want him to lose someone he loved too." His eyes softened but at the same time the questioning gaze grew stronger. She had just confessed that she loved him. But maybe it was his wishful thinking. It just wasn't possible. Why would a girl like Kagome want a worthless half-breed like him? No way, it was just wishful thinking. She was not talking about him, she couldn't be.
Kagome giggled when she saw him staring at her confused, he looked just like a lost puppy.
"I know I promised Kouga," she sighed, she didn't know what to do anymore, "but my heart calls another's name."
Inuyasha tilted his head to one side asking a silent question. Kagome couldn't help it; he looked too adorable that way. His honey golden eyes were wide with confusion and the lost look on his face made Kagome want to just grab him and....
No, bad Kagome. BAD!!! She shook her head to push those thoughts out of her head.
She leaned her head in and planted a soft kiss on his slightly parted lips, answering his question and his face brightened visibly. He pulled her into a crushing hug, wrapping his warm arms around her back and stroked her hair before kissing her cheek lightly and then pulling away.
"We should be getting back." He said, he looked so happy that Kagome's heart swelled. She nodded and he slid an arm under her legs picking her up and jumping out of the dark cave.
Kagome squealed when the cold water from the waterfall sprayed on her as Inuyasha jumped right through it and landed gracefully on the ground underneath.
She shook her head like a dog to get rid of the excess moisture, just like Inuyasha did when she had washed his hair the morning after he had been revived. Inuyasha was sprayed by the stray droplets of water and then smirked at her, letting her know that there was something evil brewing in his mind. He then shook his head with such ferocity that all forms of moisture dislodged themselves from his hair effectively soaking Kagome.
Kagome, not to be outdone, jumped into the stream and cupped her hands, filling them with water and throwing it at Inuyasha who dodged the spray of water and sent his own attack at her with one swing of his hand on the surface of the water. She squealed a second time and tried to jump away from the water but slipped and fell into the stream instead.
She sat up sputtering and throwing out mouthfuls of water that she had swallowed. Inuyasha ran to help her get up but abruptly stopped halfway. His face turned beet red and he turned around. Kagome looked confused for a second before her eyes travelled down to her chest. The white shirt was, obviously, soaked and her bra was more than visible. She wrapped her arms around her chest, suddenly feeling very naked.
"Here," he took of his haori and threw it over his shoulder, "put this on."
Kagome grabbed the red jacket and draped it over her shoulders and tied it at her waist. It was about time they headed for the camp.
This chapter was pretty mushy though. I dunno... I like it. All the people who are confused about Rei....don't worry, I'm not throwing her in there for no reason at all, I have a very big role for her and there is a strong reason for her behaviour. I'm not gonna tell you what it is but its big....yup it is.
So....Adieu!! Until next time.
HIYA!!!! Sorry for the delay in the update. Come on I was only three days late!!!! Anyways, I love all the reviews and keep 'em coming coz I love getting them.
Dark: I love that idea, but I will have to seriously twist this fic to incorporate that idea into the storyline since I already have the end figured out but I'm thinking of using that idea for another fic. Can I???? Thanks so much!!!!!
Eh Heh...I made a silly mistake earlier. Thanks to Soot now it's clarified. Its true...Inuyasha still doesn't have his necklace back so he can't be 'sat'. I fixed it in this chapter. I'll have to fix the following chapters to make sure he gets the necklace back though. Eh Heh sorry again.
Chapter 15: Reason to Live
"Were you out of your mind? Going to hunt demons by yourself." Inuyasha was standing in her room facing the window. That was the first thing he had said to her since they got home.
"Look, I didn't think there would be demons in my time and secondly you weren't around to ask for help." Kagome answered back, peeved. Inuyasha hadn't come to get her for a week and now he was acting as if nothing was wrong. True, she felt very happy that he had come and rescued her but still.
Her words seemed to affect him. Suddenly, he looked so alone, standing there by the window; Kagome wanted nothing more than to go to him and give him a big hug.
"Yes, I guess I wasn't." He said quietly. He turned around to face her; his big golden eyes were filled with pain and sadness. "I'm sorry."
"What?" Kagome was surprised. Why was he saying sorry? She was the one who had kissed his archrival and then run home instead of apologizing.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have acted that way. I have no right to tell you who to choose as your mate. If it is Kouga, then so be it. But I will continue to keep my promise, I will still protect you." His voice kept dropping with every word and Kagome noticed how he said 'Kouga' without any venom or hatred. Its almost as if he had memorized his lines. Saying them without feeling, in a dead monotone voice.
"We need you to come back. I'll wait for you. We'll leave when you're ready." With that, he jumped out of her window and landed on the ground gracefully. She watched him walk to the Sacred Tree and jump into its branches, disappearing from sight.
I have no right to tell you who to choose as your mate.
Suddenly, she didn't feel so sleepy anymore. Did that mean he didn't care for her? But if he didn't then why would he be so hurt when he had seen her with him? Does that mean he does care for her? She wondered as she put on a pair of black jeans and a white shirt and started going downstairs when...
"Kagome Higurashi!" Uh oh. When her mother used her full name, it usually meant big trouble.
"Yes Mama?" She answered sweetly. If there was one way to control her mother's temper, it was to act sweet and innocent and she ended up giving lots of hugs and kisses.
"I told you not to go to that mansion, didn't I?"
"Yes Mama."
"But you did, I am very disappointed in you." Okay, time to act ashamed. Drop your head and look down at your feet. Lower your voice. Good.
"Yes Mama."
"I get worried about you. I am just a mother. You don't know how it feels to see you go to an era of demons and monsters everyday." Her mother started crying. First one tear fell, then another. Kagome didn't know how to handle this situation. She tried to comfort her but her mother kept crying harder and then pulled her into a huge bear hug.
"I have sworn to protect her, Mrs. Higurashi. Nothing can happen to her as long as I'm alive." Kagome and her mother both turned around to see Inuyasha standing in the doorway. His baseball cap was off and his hair was shimmering in the early morning sunlight. The way he said it, Kagome was sure that Mama would practically throw Kagome into his care. He had sounded so mature and responsible; it was amazing.
"Let's go Kagome." He held out his hand and Kagome kissed her mother goodbye before grabbing it and heading out of the house. She felt a smile tugging at her lips when his hand came in contact with hers. His warm strong hand held her small hand tightly.
"Thanks for saving my life last night, Inuyasha." She said to him while squeezing his hand a little to show that she meant it. He smiled a warm smile and then nudged her to jump into the well first and he would follow.
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"I see you didn't tell her about me." Rei gave him a big pout.
"Rei?" Inuyasha started sweetly. Rei brightened immediately and gave him a big smile.
"Huh?" Her grin grew wider.
"Stay out of my head." He snarled at her with as much venom as he could muster between his thoughts about Kagome and the conversation they had had in her room.
Rei's smile vanished as Inuyasha jumped off the branch he had been sitting on and vanished into the forest.
Inuyasha and Kagome had returned early that morning and had been unusually quiet. Kagome had gone off to meet up with Miroku and Sango, both of whom had finally accepted Rei after days of convincing that she wasn't a spy. Miroku still looked at her with contempt at being controlled and then made to attack his best friend. Sango looked more than pissed at the fact that Rei had controlled Miroku and had made him attack his best friend, who had just returned from the dead.
She hadn't seen Kagome when she had arrived and she wasn't sure she wanted the monk and exterminator to fill up the miko's head with hatred for her before she got there.
"What are you people doing all cooped up inside when it's a bright day outside?" Rei sang as she entered Kaede's hut. Miroku plainly ignored her while Sango pretended to be preoccupied with Kirara and Kagome. Kagome stopped in between her sentence to see who had barged into the hut. Her eyes flew open and she grabbed her bow and pulled an arrow back, ready to shoot.
"Wait! I'm not the enemy." Rei tried to clear up the little misunderstanding.
Kagome didn't lower her weapons and kept glaring at the enemy.
"Hey monk! Tell her I'm not the enemy." Rei pleaded. Miroku looked up from his place against the wall.
"She controlled me and tried to make me kill Inuyasha." Miroku added with such pure hatred that it made Kagome wince. Miroku was the calm one and he had barely ever showed so much hatred for one person, except for Naraku.
Kagome pulled her arm back even more, adding more power to the arrow.
"Not only that, she's one of Naraku's detachments." Sango added. Kagome looked at both of them. She was pretty confused. Here they were telling her all the reasons why she should kill the girl standing in front of her while they were just sitting there doing nothing.
"What's going on?" Kagome asked quietly. She was pretty sure there was something they were hiding from her and she didn't like it.
"Why don't you ask Inuyasha?" Miroku said, but this time his voice held a little softness.
"And I know where he is." Rei said with so much cheer that Kagome wanted to grab the girl and throttle her. Suddenly Rei's bright cheery demeanour dropped and she said softly, "Go talk to Inuyasha, he needs you right now."
"And how do you suppose I'll get in there without falling down into the rocks and breaking my neck?" Kagome asked hotly. Rei had been leading her deeper and deeper into the forest. The only reason she had even agreed to let the ice demon lead her was because neither of her friends had objected. They wouldn't have allowed her to go if they thought she was dangerous. Hell, they would have killed her the moment she had appeared at the hut.
"Don't worry about it." Rei was unusually quiet. She waved her right hand absently and one side of the waterfall froze. The other half continued to flow freely and hence didn't cause any obstruction to the flow of the river above. One more flick of her hand and the ice fell away to form a sort of an opening in the frozen water. It wasn't too large but enough to get Kagome inside without getting drenched.
"So you're telling me Inuyasha is inside that thing?" Kagome asked again. Rei sighed and then explained the whole thing again.
"Inuyasha goes there to think. Right now he's depressed and confused and needs you there with him." Kagome raised an eyebrow and Rei continued to explain, "Yes, I can read his mind."
Kagome shrugged and started to climb up the rocks on the side of the waterfall and squeaked when she jumped into the little hole and slipped, landing on the hard rock floor with a thud. Just as she got inside, the ice melted and the water started running again, closing the little cave of from the outside world again.
She let her eyes adjust to the dark surroundings for a bit before looking for the half-demon. She was partially worried that the ice demon had bluffed her into coming there and had stranded her. She shook those thoughts away and returned to looking for the familiar figure.
As her eyes continued to adjust she saw a figure curled up on the floor in the corner of the cave, shrouded in darkness. She came closer and saw that it was Inuyasha all right, his silver hair and blood red clothes were a proof of that but he looked so small. His legs were pulled up to his chest and his head was buried in his knees, his arms covering his face. He was lying on his side, facing the cave wall.
Kagome went up to him silently and started stroking his silky hair. She combed them with her fingers and then reached deeper to lightly massage his scalp. Inuyasha still didn't turn around or acknowledge her presence in any way.
Is he all right? "Inuyasha?" She said softly. Inuyasha grunted softly when he heard his name.
She moved her fingers up to his ears and started to rub them gently. He moved slightly and leaned into her touch, sighing softly. Kagome resumed stroking his hair alternating with rubbing his ears now and then.
"Why are you here?" She asked.
"Because." He mumbled into his hands. Kagome sighed softly when she heard that familiar reply. Inuyasha may die and then be reincarnated, but he will never give a straight answer.
"Because what?" She urged on. Talk damn it.
"Just because," he answered. Still not clarifying anything.
Kagome moved her hands from his hair only to have him groan in protest before she pulled him by his shoulders onto his back. Once he rolled over, he straightened his legs and rested his hands on his stomach. He still didn't look at Kagome and continued to stare at the dark ceiling of the cave.
"Tell me what's wrong Inuyasha." She asked. While she waited for an answer, she caressed the side of his cheek. Inuyasha leaned into her touch, rubbing his face against her hand and then turned on his side such that he was now facing her.
"I just like coming here." He said almost inaudibly. Kagome laid down next to him, her face inches away from his. She could hear his deep regular breathing. It calmed her down and made her happy since it made the fact that he's alive all the more real to Kagome. Inspired by the moment, Kagome grabbed Inuyasha's shoulders and pushed herself into his chest. She grabbed the left side of his shirt and pushed it to the side so that his chest was exposed and then glued her ear to it. Inuyasha froze, not knowing what to do as he saw the girl in front of him move suddenly and glue her ear onto his now bare chest.
Kagome smiled when she heard his steady heartbeats speed up rapidly at such close contact with her. She giggled when she realized that Inuyasha must be very confused.
"What's so funny?" Inuyasha asked, feeling better when he heard her laughter. She pulled away from him to look at him in the eye. Her grin was still plastered onto her face.
"Nothing, just that I could hear your heartbeats." She said between giggles. Inuyasha looked more and more confused by the second. He continued to stare at her, urging her to explain herself.
"It's just that...it just makes the fact that you're alive...real." She said as she emphasized her point with a wild gesture of her hands.
Kagome watched Inuyasha's eyes go from a bright honey golden to dull amber. She wondered what she had said when he abruptly got up and went to the other side of the cave, facing away from her.
Kagome wondered what to say to break the uncomfortable silence that had settled. She didn't even know what she had said to upset him so.
"I don't deserve to be alive. I was dead because I was incapable of living on. I was incapable of surviving. I died. I am supposed to be dead." He said as his voice increased with each word until he almost screamed the last few words.
Kagome got up from her spot and moved to comfort him, "That's not true Inuyasha. There are people who need you here. We all need you here because we all love you..."
"No one loves me. No one. They all want me for my strength. I was brought back because of what I am capable of. I'm a killing machine. That's all I am. I kill demons for you. I'll kill humans for Naraku. What's the difference? I am no one. Just another puppet with feelings."
"That's not true. Inuyasha, what made you think such things?" She tried to touch his shoulder but he flinched away from her touch and moved deeper into the cave, away from her.
Inuyasha went on as if he hadn't heard her.
"I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve to be around people I love. I will lose them. I know I will. I always do. I don't remember my father. My mother died when I was young. My brother hates me. I lost the woman I fell in love with..." Inuyasha turned around and slid down the wall he had been facing a second ago. He pulled his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around them, burying his head in them.
Kagome sat down next to him and wrapped her arms around his shoulders making him lean his head into her neck, his hot breath tickling the sensitive skin.
He kept quiet for sometime before speaking softly against her skin, his lips brushing against her neck because of the movement, "I don't want to lose you too."
Was it just her imagination or had Inuyasha indirectly told Kagome he loved her? Kagome tried to look at him but was unable to since his face was buried in her neck. It seemed he had just realized what he had said and was trying to hide his face.
"You won't lose me Inuyasha. I'll always be with you." She told him, hoping it would bring him out of his depression. Instead he moved a little saying nothing.
She gasped as she suddenly felt his lips land on her sensitive skin and his arms snake around to wrap themselves around her waist. He kissed her neck softly before running his hot wet tongue on her collarbone. He placed another soft kiss on her warm neck before using his hands to pull her down while he pulled his face out of her neck and shoulder and straightened his back, such that Kagome's face was inches away from his own.
Kagome's arms slipped from around his shoulders as he stared into her deep brown eyes and came to rest on his chest where her fingers came in contact with the skin Kagome had exposed earlier in the pretext of hearing his heartbeat.
Inuyasha shivered when her fingers came in contact with his exposed skin and he bent his head down and brushed his lips against hers. He nipped at her lower lip gingerly, giving her enough time to pull away if she wanted to. When Kagome didn't move, Inuyasha claimed her lips in a soft kiss, coaxing her to open her mouth by running his tongue on her lower lip. Kagome parted her lips, allowing his tongue to explore her mouth.
The kiss started out as soft and innocent and shy, but it grew hungrier by the second as their desire for each other grew. They had both longed for this touch and now that they were finally getting it, nothing mattered in the world. They had each other and everything else seemed right.
Kagome had always wondered what Inuyasha's lips would feel like, she had stared at them for hours when he had slept trying to figure out how they would feel just by studying their shape and the soft wrinkles on the skin. She had waited for so long.
They finally pulled apart, both gasping for air as their lungs screamed in protest. Kagome's hands made their way to the back of Inuyasha's neck, pulling him down for another kiss, but he pulled back.
Kagome pulled her hands back like she's been burned. They had been in such an intimate position just a minute ago, and suddenly he was pulling away. What was wrong with him?
He got up, pulling his haori back into place (A/N: just found out that the shirt he wears is actually called haori so sorry for using the wrong term for so long.) He stood up and leaned against a wall, looking down at his toes. Kagome stared at him questioningly and he remained quiet for what seemed like hours.
"You promised Kouga..." He didn't finish his sentence, knowing that Kagome would know what he was talking about. Kagome sighed and went to him standing in front of him, face to face.
"I didn't want him to suffer the same thing I did." She answered plainly leaving no room for arguments. Inuyasha looked up at her wondering what the hell she was talking about and decided to ask her about it.
"What do you mean?" His golden eyes held her brown ones and for a moment Kagome was mesmerized by the sheer beauty of his shimmering eyes.
"I didn't want him to lose someone he loved too." His eyes softened but at the same time the questioning gaze grew stronger. She had just confessed that she loved him. But maybe it was his wishful thinking. It just wasn't possible. Why would a girl like Kagome want a worthless half-breed like him? No way, it was just wishful thinking. She was not talking about him, she couldn't be.
Kagome giggled when she saw him staring at her confused, he looked just like a lost puppy.
"I know I promised Kouga," she sighed, she didn't know what to do anymore, "but my heart calls another's name."
Inuyasha tilted his head to one side asking a silent question. Kagome couldn't help it; he looked too adorable that way. His honey golden eyes were wide with confusion and the lost look on his face made Kagome want to just grab him and....
No, bad Kagome. BAD!!! She shook her head to push those thoughts out of her head.
She leaned her head in and planted a soft kiss on his slightly parted lips, answering his question and his face brightened visibly. He pulled her into a crushing hug, wrapping his warm arms around her back and stroked her hair before kissing her cheek lightly and then pulling away.
"We should be getting back." He said, he looked so happy that Kagome's heart swelled. She nodded and he slid an arm under her legs picking her up and jumping out of the dark cave.
Kagome squealed when the cold water from the waterfall sprayed on her as Inuyasha jumped right through it and landed gracefully on the ground underneath.
She shook her head like a dog to get rid of the excess moisture, just like Inuyasha did when she had washed his hair the morning after he had been revived. Inuyasha was sprayed by the stray droplets of water and then smirked at her, letting her know that there was something evil brewing in his mind. He then shook his head with such ferocity that all forms of moisture dislodged themselves from his hair effectively soaking Kagome.
Kagome, not to be outdone, jumped into the stream and cupped her hands, filling them with water and throwing it at Inuyasha who dodged the spray of water and sent his own attack at her with one swing of his hand on the surface of the water. She squealed a second time and tried to jump away from the water but slipped and fell into the stream instead.
She sat up sputtering and throwing out mouthfuls of water that she had swallowed. Inuyasha ran to help her get up but abruptly stopped halfway. His face turned beet red and he turned around. Kagome looked confused for a second before her eyes travelled down to her chest. The white shirt was, obviously, soaked and her bra was more than visible. She wrapped her arms around her chest, suddenly feeling very naked.
"Here," he took of his haori and threw it over his shoulder, "put this on."
Kagome grabbed the red jacket and draped it over her shoulders and tied it at her waist. It was about time they headed for the camp.
This chapter was pretty mushy though. I dunno... I like it. All the people who are confused about Rei....don't worry, I'm not throwing her in there for no reason at all, I have a very big role for her and there is a strong reason for her behaviour. I'm not gonna tell you what it is but its big....yup it is.
So....Adieu!! Until next time.