Chapter 5

          Seven weeks. That number shall remain in my memory forever.

          It was a Monday.

          But let me cut to the chase. On that very cloudy Monday morning, I decided to stay in my bed. Not really in the mood to go to classes and with a light headache I spent my day pondering on the issues I had.

          So, what was love anyway? And at what point in a relationship can you truly say you're in love?

They say love's when you get butterflies in your stomach and it all explodes when you see the other person.

But, of course, after a while, that feeling tends to go away. What then?

I was scared by then. Seven weeks and my feeling didn't go away, it was there, as strong as ever.

But what was I feeling?

I was happy? Oh but happy is such a big word. For I knew happiness had never truly existed, only lesser shades of melancholy.

And I was scared, I had always feared heartache. That's why I always got out before it got too big. I had run away, every time, why was this time different?

Did I love James? My heart yelled yes. My mind yelled no.

By the time class had gotten out, I had fallen into an uneasy sleep, out of which Marlene had awoken me.

'Lily. Lily you've got an owl.'

I got up and rubbed my sleepy eyes. There it was, James's owl. I smiled and took the note it carried, but my face fell as its content started sinking in.

'Lily, I've been thinking a lot and I think it's best if we break up. Sorry. Maybe some other time. Goodbye!'

        Hestia, who had been reading from behind my shoulder, nudged Andromeda. They both looked at me.

           And I did something I had never done before. I burst into hysterical tears.  

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           That night my friends went to talk to him, while I was cowering under my covers.

           They came back 15 minutes later, with very angry faces.

           'He was with the Marauders, in the common room.' Andromeda started. 'So I go and ask him, What the fuck is up with you? And he, very calmly goes We just had, nothing in common.'

           My face had fallen at this.

           'What did you do?' I asked weakly.

           'I slapped him.' She replied, and I saw her palm was very red.

           Stifling a sob I buried my head in my pillows. It had taken too much out of me just living the past hours. I just wanted, for the first time ever, to be left to fall apart.

Author Notes:

So that was a slightly bigger chapter. As for what will come next, remember this is an AU fic.

Next chapter: Lily and James come face to face and the next twist of events.

Stay tuned!

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