Chapter 6
Three days later I was nowhere closer to being better though I did try my best to act happy. Life seemed to be going at its usual ways and November was approaching.
I hated myself sometimes, because I sometimes could be found staring at him or thinking how could it be that just a week ago he loved me.
The answer must've been that he indeed had no romantic feelings towards me. That he had toyed with me.
On Wednesday evening I took my favorite book "Camille" By Alexandre Dumas and took a seat on the couch by the common room fire.
"… we must've done terrible things in a past life or await wonderful things in the next to be allowed to live such pain in this one…"
As I read the only too familiar pages, I felt somebody place a hand on my shoulder. Turning my head slightly, I saw it was James.
"What do you want?" I said, a little too sharply.
He seemed truly confused by my attitude as he took a seat next to me.
"Why are you talking to me like that?"
"Like what?"
"With that … tone."
"And with what tone do you wish I address you Mr. Potter?" I saw him opening his mouth in protest, but didn't let him say anything. "I'm afraid that after the cowardly way in which you informed our relationship was over, things between us would be very clear."
I felt my heart breaking as I spoke, more so as I saw his expression turning into one of surprise and sadness. But I knew better than to fall for that.
"I ... I thought you understood it was temporary."
"Temporary? After the way we ended and all that was said. You … I... I believed you when you said you loved me."
"I still love you Lily, but... I... I need time. Time to get to know you better. I love you."
Oh how I wanted to tell him what I felt. Everything that was going on inside me.
But I didn't.
"You're going to have to prove yourself on this one James."
And just like that, I let him walk out of my life.
Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul
Let me let go
Author notes
Short, so sue me. I'm sick. I have a cold.
Meh… I have no clue why I'm rushing this so much.
Eh …
Disclaimer: I own nothing. JK owns the chars, Faith Hill the song.