Yuna-Finally! I'm in the story! I have dialogue!
Me-Oh, God damnit, do you ever shut up? The world doesn't revolve around you!
Yuna-Well I saved Spira!
Me-What do you want, a medal?
Yuna-I have one already!
Me-shakes her head and walks away
I felt hot tears starting to sting my eyes. The deception, the betrayel....How could she? Who the fuck did she think she was? Like she could do that to my parents....Our parents....My own fucking sister. What a bitch. I look at my father's sword. How could I slay my own sister with my father's sword. How....There was no way I could. How was I going to tell Yuna, Rikku, all of them....I would have to start at the beginning, and I don't think I could peel that much away. I had hardened myself. I'd be killing myself with each secret told. I couldn't....They already knew about the Crimson Squad, they didn't have to know this.
I replayed the sphere. I was aware of the hot, salty tears sliding down my pale cheeks. I was aware my crimson eyes were crying....If I could cry blood, I would. I would cry blood for my parents, my friends, even my beloved sister that had my parents killed. Maybe by then I would have lost enough blood, enough not to be saved so I could die with everyone at peace. No need to worry about good ol' Paine. No need to worry that she was dying inside because she was stupid enough to chase her past. I couldn't believe it. 16 years gone to Hell....
I hear some stirring. I turn around, and I see Yuna standing there, her mouth hanging open. I narrow my eyes, and she shuts her mouth quickly. "How much did you see Yuna?"
"None....None of it Paine." I wiped my tears away.
"Don't lie to me, Yuna. I can see right through you."
"I....I followed you after you left the bar to see how you were. You didn't look too good."
"When do I ever? Look, you weren't supposed to see any of that."
"Paine....Why didn't you just tell us?"
"Because....Now again, how much did you see?" She stared at me as if she didn't know me. "How much did you fucking see?"
"I saw the first sphere, but I didn't want to see anymore after that, so I turned away, eyes closed and ears covered. I didn't want to know anymore."
"So you don't know who killed my parents?"
"Not the foggiest."
"Good." I took the smaller sphere out of the computer and started to walk towards the elevator.
"Paine! Come back!" I kept walking. She knew too much. The fucking spy. She didn't have to follow me. How the fuck was I supposed to forgive her now? How the fuck could I live with her now. How? I tap into the computer I want to go to the cabin. Shortly after walking through the doors, I walk to the bar.
"Barkeep, load me up, multiple." He looks at me tiredly, and gives me five shots of hard liquor. I take one after the other. I stagger away from the bar, and go back to the elevator. I finally get to the deck after having to tap it in repeatedly because of spelling mistakes. God, what the fuck did I just do. I staggere across the deck, the wind is soft and gentle, like a mother's hands. I trip and fall. I land on my ass, and look around. The soothing wind holds me as I burst out crying. I start to hit my fist against the deck, screaming out obsenities.
"Why the fuck did you do this? My fucking beloved sister....You abandoned our family and then plotted to kill our own parents! They weren't fucking spies, they were our parents! Regardless if that's what their job was! You fucking bitch! You traitor! I swear I'll kill you for this! I fucking swear by it! Hear you me, Lulu, I will fucking kill you!" Lulu hadn't told anyone we were sisters. We didn't look alike, except for our eyes. I don't care if she was pregnant. Wakka was losing a wife, and her baby won't have a mother. Just as I had to grow up.
I finally felt the wind become a bit cold, and I felt like I was going to die. I breathe in heavily, trying to catch my breath. It feels as if everything is caving in. I lay on the Celsius' deck, and look up. Everything starts to get out of focus, and the world turns black.
Disclaimer: For the millionth time, I am NOT the owner of any of this, only the story line, yeah yeah yeah.