Yuna-What? Romance is the best.
Me-Like hell it is!
Yuna-And when am I going to get a bigger part. Will I find Tidus in this?
Me-That involves liking you, so no. Ahahaha, I'm so evil.
Rikku-You made me cry, you meanie!
Me-I know, I know.....Hehehe.
I open my eyes. Ow. Fuck, I hate the sun. I roll over to my stomach, and push myself up. I fall back down, and I begin to crawl towards the decks elevator. Finally, I'm sure I have enough strength. I get to my feet, tapping in that I want to go the cabin, and I clutch the side of the elevator. I think I'm going to throw up. My head is pounding....What the fuck did I do last night....Why the fuck did I get so pissed? What was wrong with me. I swore vengeance to....Who was it damnit....I put my hand into my pocket, but only come out with the purple sphere. What the fuck? Where'd the other go? I need that! I have no idea who killed my parents....God I'm a fucking idiot!
"Barkeep!"
"Yesh Paine?"
"Coffee, black, with tylenol." He hurries off. He knows I'm in fucking pain. I turn to see Rikku staring at me.
"God Paine, what'd you do to yourself?"
"Rikku....Watch it...."
"Sorry! Sorry, but really....How pissed did you get?"
"Five shot ofsh licore, Reeku" Barkeep said, bringing me what I had demanded.
"Barkeep, shut your damn mouth." I growled. He stares at me defiantly, and goes back to wiping clean the glasses. Rikku walks over and sits on the stool beside me.
"Paine.... What's wrong with you. Who pissed you off this time?"
"Rikku.... Whatever. I don't have to explain myself to you."
"I'm only..."
"Rikku! Back the fuck off and leave me alone!" I see tears start to well up. She shuts her eyes and tries to stop them.
"Paine, you think it's easy being me?"
"No.... The stupidity and idiocy must be hard work."
"You know nothing of my past, nothing at all!"
"Did I ever ask to?"
"Paine, just fuck off. You don't know what my father did to me!"
"Rikku, I'm sorry, now go annoy someone else, okay? Or maybe strut around in your barely there outfits, you'll get something. Buy some candy, do something, just leave me the hell alone." Rikku stares at me with tears running down her face. I know exactly what her father used to do to her. He beat her, he loved her, maybe too much of both. I can see where Brother got his incest. Sad....Pathetic....I've always wanted to kick his ass for doing that to Rikku, yet I just did the same thing. She gets up from the stool and runs. Probably to find Yuna. In a few minutes, I'll have her breathing down my neck. God damnit. I couldn't leave well enough alone, but I told her to fucking back off!
Barkeep looks at me. "What are you looking at?"
"Shomeone who I shink will feel remorshe for what she jusht shaid to Reeku"
"And what do you know?"
"More than yoo think I doo." I look away from him. He knew what he was talking about. He might be Hypello, but he wasn't stupid. Oh well....Now about that sphere. Who the fuck was it? I still can't remember. God damnit....Yuna walks in and sits beside me.
"Oh God...."
"Paine, I think you should be more nice to Rikku."
"Why?"
"She's had a hard life."
"Right, and you say that to me after spying on me and seeing my past? You know how it was Yuna."
"I know Paine, I know...."
"No....You don't."
"Look, can't you just back off on Rikku? Leave her outfits alone."
"Well God. It's like I'm the only female practically fully clothed in Spira! I mean, I don't prance around like that. I'm just waiting for the day someone rapes one of you two."
"Paine!"
"What? Anyway, I don't have to explain myself to you."
"Just let up, Paine." "Right...." I turn and ask Barkeep for another cup of black coffee. My head is pounding. Who was it? Who was it that killed my parents? I down the cup of coffee, and leave Yuna sitting at the bar. I play around with the computer, and find myself on the deck. I go and stand at edge. One big breeze and I was gone....Maybe it'd be better that way. The Gullwings would be better off without me anyway, and I could see my parents once again. I find myself touching my hair. How I wish it was long again. I never thought about how I used to have my hair long until now. My silvery black hair, so long, so soft....Now it was short as ever. I have made so many damn mistakes. I have taken lives, saved lives, but that doesn't stop the guilt that grows within me. I'm just another trouble soul, nothing new, yet nothing old. I look off into the distance. Nothing but sky and clouds. It's such a beautiful view.
I hear something behind me, and I see a dark shadow. Who the fuck is this. Someone always has to ruin the good moments. "Who's there?" They move towards me a bit more. This is pissing me off. I put my hand on my sword, and walk towards them. Getting closer, I find it's a man. A man with silver hair. Could it be? "Baralai?"
"Yeah."
"How did you..."
"Don't worry about that. Remember when we were in the Crimson Squad?"
"No, I don't. I don't remember the massacre and Nooj shooting at us for a goodbye present."
"Good, you remember." I see him smile a bit. "But anyway, when we were all together, I found something....I played it, and I got scared, I didn't want you to know I had found it and not given it to you."
"What?"
"A
sphere." He holds out his hand, a red glowing sphere. "It has you in
it...." I take the sphere and start walking back to the elevator. I
hear him run to catch up and follows me to the bridge.
"Shinra,
play this." I look around. No one in here but Shinra, and Shinra won't
say anything. I know he won't, or the little jerk will get his piece of
information, maybe on what medicines he'll have to take. He puts it in
and, I wait.
Sphere plays
"Paine! Lulu! Wake up!" An excited Paine runs down the stairs. She runs to the tree and waits impatiently for Lulu.
"Lulu! C'mon! I wanna open our presents!" Finally, Lulu appears, groggy, tired, and yawning.
"Okay girls, open them up!" Paper was flying everywhere, joyful screams, thank you hugs, every little bit a family would wish to be was found in this sphere.
Sphere ends here
"Paine...."
"This was the day before their murder...."
"Murder?" Shinra and Baralai asked at once.
"Nevermind." I take the sphere out of the computer and stare at the wall fixedly. No, I won't cry this time. I won't cry. I won't fucking cry. "I hate memories. All they are is reminders of the happiness that was stolen from you." I take the red sphere and let it drop from my hands. I see it shatter into maybe even a million pieces. This was the way my past was. Shattered, littered through Spira. I look up at Baralai. He looks upset. He looks at me, as he sees a tear slide down my cheek, and I turn away quickly. Shinra is still sitting there, trying to take in and process all this information of me. I start to walk towards the stairs. I want to go back to the deck. I've made up my mind. Mom, dad, be ready, you're little girl is coming to stay with you.
Disclaimer:No, I do not own any of this, except the story. Geez.
(P.S.) I don't mind Yuna, I really don't, so please no hate reviews about me hating Yuna. Thanks .