Hello all! I tried to make it a lil' bigger this time, but I'm really saving up for the next chapter. Next chapter is going to have so many memories, I just have to think of a few. I think this story may be over by chapt. 10, so there isn't much left to go! I believe after I'm done this story, I may write a story about Shuyin and Lenne....Probably how they met, their last dying words, who knows. Tell me what you guys think, 'kay? Anyway, I have a day off school, so here we are, another update.

I wipe the tears from my eyes. I lay my note on the table quietly. I step over the sleeping bodies, trying not to make any noise. The stars watch me as I run away quietly from the hut. I make no noise, exactly like a warrior. I look at the stars, and they promise to keep watch over them, over me, and to keep my secrets. I stare blindly at the path to the temple. I would go and pray, but there's just no use anymore. I have to kill the one I love, the only one that has ever shown interest in my feelings, my thoughts, my wishes....The only one for me. The sky is black, the stars give off little light, and the moon looks so pale and sick. I look so pale and sick. These crimson eyes of mine have seen too much, and after I kill Baralai, I won't be able to see at all....I've made my decision. If Baralai must die, than so shall I. After I have killed the only thing I'm staying alive for now, I shall kill myself with my father's sword. The stars whisper their thoughts, telling me not to go through with it, yet I don't listen, not now....The stars never cared how I felt before, why should they care now?

A thin sliver of light is coming over the horizon. Dawn is setting in. The sand is hard to walk in, yet I'm here, I'm at the dock. The ship will be here, and I'll pay my way to Bevelle. "Miss, that'll be 100 gil" I sigh. That's all I have....It'll get me to Bevelle though, and all I need are some fiends, everything will be okay. Life will be okay....I'll be with Baralai for the last moments in my life, what I wanted, so how can this be such a bad thing? How can this be so hard? It isn't....

I look off the deck of the ship, the waves rattling on. The blue-green salty waves that never stop flowing. I never noticed how much it was like love. So beautiful, so unconditional, always there, always flowing....Yet how it can drown you, swallow you whole and never let you go, never let you say goodbye. Well it won't do it to me, I'm saying goodbye, I will. I will be able to let go. 'If you can let go, then why are planning on suicide after your homicide of Baralai?' I jump. What the fuck.... 'You can't let go. Stay away from Baralai, he didn't do anything.' I look around, yet the ship's deck is deserted. What the fuck is this. Don't tell me I'm going crazy. 'You aren't. Just listen. Baralai is not the one you want to kill. He is not the one you have to kill to avenge your parents. Remember, Paine. Stop blocking out your memories. You know who it is, you know it! Stop fooling yourself. Admit it!' There's nothing to admit. I don't know who kill my damn parents. Give it up already. 'Oh, but you do. Remember Paine, remember! Don't be such a foolish little girl. For once, let go of the image, let go of the tortured soul you have, and just remember. Look deep into the past, look! It'll hurt, but you must remember. Remember!'

I look back out at the sky, then walk into the ship. I'm not going to take this. "Sir, do you have anything to help me sleep? I'm having trouble."

"Yes miss, here you go." He places two turquoise pills in my hand. I swallow them down with water, and walk to my cabin. The walls are moving, the room is moving all around me. Everything is moving. I'm just so dizzy. I can't think anymore....What did that guy give me. I look at the floor, trying to keep myself steady. I stumble towards the bed and reach for it....

"Lady, lady, wake up, c'mon miss, it's docking time." I open my eyes, and see the captain.

"Wha...what?"

"The boat has docked, c'mon miss, it's time to get off."

"Where are we?"

"Bevelle." I sit up. I look around. We are in Bevelle. I stand up awkwardly, and get my sword.

"Thank you, captain."

"It's not problem, miss." I walk through the maze of corridors and finally get to the docks. I walk into the crowd of people, and have to push my way through. I hear curses and wails, and tears of loved ones leaving. So sad....I ask someone for the time, it's around noon. I look ahead, and see where Baralai is working. It will take all day to walk there....I shake my head and start on my journey. People stare at my unfamiliar clothing, as I scowl at their practically nothing outfits. The sun feels as if it's going to dry out my skin. The tears I cried earlier are being taken from me, just as everything else is.

The sky is again dark. The pitch black sky. No stars, no moon, nothing. I see his office light on. I walk towards the building. It's been raining continuously. I'm drenched. I keep walking. The guards let me pass, they know who I am, I'm sure Baralai had informed them to always let me come and go. I begin to cry. I walk up the many steps to his office, the light pours through the the space around the door. I hear the clicking of his pen, his breathing. I walk towards the door, and hold onto the warm doorknob. I don't like this. I open the door, he looks up at me. "Paine! What's wrong?" I look at the floor. 'Paine, don't do this. Remember! Just remember! Please, do not do this, you will only be hurt more. Don't kill him Paine, you know what you need to, you just won't unlock it. Stop it, Paine....Stop it! Just walk away. Tell him everything. Remember Paine, remember your past! Remember damnit! Remember!'

I like crying in the rain, for no one knows I'm hurting...." I look at him. I feel an inner peace coming on. I feel myself beginning to fall. I can hear him calling, yet I can't speak....I'm in a world of nothing.

Now for a big thanks!!!!

sdreamz-Thank you so much for your encouragement throughout these chapters, it's nice to see your replies and it keeps me writing.

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