disclaimer: As much as i wish i did....i do not own X or any of their characters....damn

I woke up slowly, opening my eyes just to see my bland white celing of my apartment. Slowly i sat up looking around my bedroom remembering what had happened last night. Slowly i looked down at my hands...they were covered in dried blood. I sighed as i slide off my bed and headed to the bathroom. I looked into the mirror shocked to see not myself but seishirou...the mark he left on my right eye was glassy and a goldish-white. As i turned the foset to the sink i remembered the smiled he gave me... the words he whistpered into my ear right before he died. Washing the blood off my hands i hated my self more and more...I hated to look in the mirror to see that eye. I kicked the bathroom door violently, hearing the creaking of the wooden door made me settle down a little as i ran my fingers through my hair.

"I watched you change...

I never knew,

That you would be,

Like all the rest..."

That smile i would never see again, only in the picture of my memory i could see him. "Subi-Chan!" I heard a happy voice say, i looked up quickly "Hokuto?" I said questionally. I laughed at myself Hokuto...shes not here...what am i thinking? I thought as i walked out the bathroom and our of my apartment. hearing my boots thump on the side walk, i walked along my hands in my trenchcoats pockets. No on was watching my every more, no was folowing me...I looked up ahead to see a road sign 'Rainbow Bridge'.

As i stood infront of the steel bridge, i saw ontop a pole high apon the bridge a figure looking down at me. The wind blew his bangs into his cold eyes as he frowened at me...just starring. Fuma... i thought looking away from the tall broad young man. I kept walking avoiding the cold stare of the other Kamui. the icey whip in the wond made my hair on the back of my neck stand on edge, and made me bow my head down against the sharp wind.

'You were so true,

To good to be true...

I trusted you,

and fell apart again...'

Everyone looked at me as i walked into the large room where Hinoto stayed. No one said anything to me, they just starred with sympathetic eyes. I know they saw what happened last night, and they know that i loved him. Dispice the fact that i would act like i hated hin...i loved him and hated him all at once. He killed Hokuto....Seishirou killed my sister. I saw the look on hinotos face, sad, sympathetic, and upset. But as i looked in her eyes i didn't quite see sadness...i saw a smirk, a evil glare seemed to fill them and make them darker. " I greieve on the fact that someone so dear to our fellow seal has passed awasy, but...sadly he was a Harbriger, and it was destiny for him to die in your arms." the dreamseer of the seals said to the group. No i thought. I was supposed to die, not him, thats not the way destiny was supposed to go...no

'I cannot change the fact,

That you're no comming back...

So depressed, I'm your Slave...'

Karen walked up to me and wrapped her arms around my shoulders, giving me a quick squeeze she let go and backed away blowing my a kiss. I closed my eyes and rubbed my temples as i tried to get the pounding out of my head. Slowy i opened my eyes and put my arms down at my side...Seishirou...everywhere i looked there he was standing there goiving me that damn smile. I started to feel dizzy, no i couldn't take it, Seishiros dead. Yuzurihas voice called out to me "Subaru?? Are you okie?" I turned on my heel and quickly sprinted away, bumping into people on the way. I heard Soratas voice yelluing my name as i ran away. No...No... i chanted in my mind.

I locked my apartment door, and sighed taking in deep breathes. Stumbling into the bathroom i closed the door and opened the medicine cabnet looking for Advil. as i opened the packet and saw all the tiny little pills, i popped each one out one by one, and took them all one at a time.

'Betray me, you're not the one...

to be trusted with my love,

Betray me, you're not the one...

who should be trusted with my love.'

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Yo yo yo!!! There is my second chappie!! i hoped you liked it....and i'm starting on my 3rd chappie now.....sigh.......me oh my oh chicken pie.well okie dokie then...R R please!!! thanks much!!!Oh ya and thank you forthe reviews!!!I love you people!!!!