I don't own Gilmore Girls.

DEAN!!!!!!

Before I start on my second chapter... I would like to say it is very hard writing about this stuff so be easy on me in the reviews, It's reallllly hard.

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Doesn't matter you got all you need

Doesn't matter you took everything you see

Don't matter you got everything you please

But you don't have me

Why do you close your eyes tight?

When your kissing in the night

And make believe a face?

yeah, dumb band I know...

Although I do base a lot of my thoughts on that song. Cranking it in my room just isn't enough. That would be my favorite band, and just listening to the singer's voice makes me a little happier then I was before. Taking each part of all their songs is a hobby of mine.

Most ask me why I love them so much, the answer... well that's easy, Dean. Most HANSONs songs consist of love and they tell you to keep going. Not only Dean but also another old love, or soul mate.

Life, looking back on my old life I always look at those two people. One person who has been in my life for a short time who feels like a lifetime and the other who was in my life for a lifetime feels as if they just wont go AWAY!

When I first told all my friends I loved Dean they looked at me like I was insane, and I just grinned and walked away I told them they could believe it if they wanted to listen. I always figured that sense that moment things would come together sense I had admitted it.

It all started with me and my own problems. I was afraid to like him even the slightest bit. The way he acted, the way he looked, and just the fact that when I met him I hated him. I don't use the word hate very often. Now it's all come to... he's such a rare guy, I love the way he acts and he's all of a sudden my type.

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I was just getting used to MSN Messenger and gathering more contacts from school. School was sucking so I barely went. Teachers gave me shit, sense well the teacher I had last year is the teacher I have this year, and we all know she hates me. My mom had to court due to my absences, but she didn't go. So I was in trouble and so was my mom.

Trying to get myself into home schooling was taking way to long. But doing anything to do it, I worked on getting meetings and went to the office to confirm all the time.

I'm not one of those nerds who like going home and sitting there all day alone and study. I just had a very hard time and people chose to give me a hard time. People threatened me and people made fun of me, even my own friends ditched me. It most defiantly time for a change, and quick.

So on top of all my problems I knew they could only get worse to get better.

I would come home everyday and talk to Dean on the Internet. Lane said to me he was barley on but he seemed to be on all the time, everyday. I always wondered if it was I or just another thing to do on a to do list. He always confused me I never knew if he liked me or if he was just flirting. He did flirt with every girl.

That was Dean. That was just Dean. You never know with him, usually I can tell but with him I couldn't. I would always think 'Do I like him?' only because him flirting with me made me think. But I didn't want to be was the problem. I couldn't like another guy.