Rated M15 - Sexual References

They stood hugging for a long time, their grips were very tight. Eventually Tony pulled his head back but still stayed in close to her body. "It's been a very weird day today hasn't it? I feel like I have experienced just about every emotion possible today."

"Couldn't agree with you more Mr. Almeida! It has completely worn me out!"

"Well sweetheart, let me take you to bed so you can get some sleep." Tony picked Michelle up and carried her in his arms into the bedroom. He gently lowered her onto the bed and then crawled up next to her. They both got under the blankets and snuggled in close to each other. Michelle lay on her back and Tony was on his side facing Michelle. He gently ran his hands back and forth across her stomach.

"Michelle....I feel like I took so much away from you today – things I'll remember forever and things that have really showed me exactly who you are."

"Really? Like what."

"Well I can tell you that I never thought it would be possible to spend an entire day wrapped up in someone's arms, sitting on a bed talking. But with you today – it was perfect. It went too fast!! I would have been happy to spend hours more like that with you. I just love being so close to you, listening to you talk and learning more about you. I'll never forget how excited and proud I was to tell the guys all about you. I'll definitely never forget just how much I missed you when I got home. I have never felt so lonely ever. That feeling of just wanting you to be here with me was so powerful....that's why I just had to call you. Most people would have treated me like I was just too drunk and an idiot – but not you. By opening up yourself, you gave me more confidence. It made me feel so special that you came back here to be with me tonight Chelle - thank you. The shower....what can I say? It blew me away – you are the most amazing lover a guy could only dream of. But honey, it was after we got out and I thought I had been to full-on for you that I just felt so horrible. Just thinking that I might have hurt you made me feel so sick. I have never felt like that before – it was scary. It's so important to me that you trust me and feel safe in my arms....nothing would make me feel worse than if I ruined that for you. When you turned your back to me Chelle in the living room when we were yelling – I looked at you standing there so tensed up with only boxers and a t-shirt on. You had goose bumps all over you. I knew you were crying, and you had just told me that you thought I was disappointed with you. I realised then just how deeply I am in love with you. I had to hold you, I just couldn't bare seeing you like that – you seemed so lonely and hurt. All that mattered to me was making you feel better about yourself. It shatters me Chelle when I see how much confidence you lack in yourself...."

"It's not so much about confidence Tony. I was so distraught because I didn't want to lose you. All I care about is making you happy. I just want to be what you want Tony. I want you to know how much I love you and how you are the most special person in my life. When you were yelling, it was tearing me apart to see how angry I had made you...."

Tony put his hand on her cheek and cut her off, "That's exactly what I am talking about Chelle. I don't want you to worry about me. You are exactly what I want Michelle.....you always have been. I wish your confidence would let you see what I see – make you see just how perfect you are. You are never going to lose me Chelle...I'm not going anywhere – unless of course you wanted things to end between us, but I can guarantee that that would only happen from you, not me. I was yelling sweetie because I was so stressed that you were thinking all that. You didn't make me angry. Don't you understand how much I love you Michelle? It's like you don't believe me."

Tears began welling up in Michelle's eyes again. Tony had really hit the nail on the head with what he said. Michelle had never thought she was good enough for anyone. Her confidence was so low, it always had been. It was almost like she was waiting for Tony to meet someone else he liked more – she couldn't understand why he wanted her. She opened her mouth to answer Tony and tears began to roll down her cheeks. "I guess so Tony. I understand that you are the nicest guy around. Don't you understand that there are so many beautiful girls out there that would love to be with you Tony, and they could offer you so much more than I can? I would totally understand if you wanted out."

Tony wiped away the tears on her cheeks, he could feel them welling in his eyes. It was so sad to hear Michelle say that – there had to be a reason why she felt that way about herself. He looked Michelle directly in the eyes. "Please be honest with me Chelle, has anyone ever told you that you weren't good enough? Has someone put you down?"

Michelle looked away from his gaze, "Yeah, my Dad. He told me how pathetic I was. That I didn't deserve to be happy. That I'd never find someone that would love me. My parents divorced when I was 10 and I haven't seen him since, but I can remember it all so clearly. He hated me so much, and he told me all the time why....so I understood. Why should anyone else feel any different?"

Michelle freaked out that she had just opened up and told Tony how she felt about herself. She didn't know what to say or do, so she sat up in the bed and tried to get out. "No Michelle, its ok doesn't leave.....its ok." Tony grabbed her around the waist and pulled her body into his – they were both now sitting up. Tony kept a firm hold on Michelle he even wrapped one of his legs over hers so that she had no chance of leaving. He tried to talk through the tears that were flowing down his cheeks, "Don't run away from this Chelle, it will always catch up with you....."

"I don't care if it catches up with me Tony – I just can't believe I told you all that."

"I'm glad you told me, now I understand better why you feel this way. I asked you Chelle because I had already guessed that something along those lines had happened to you. I promise you Michelle, I am going to show you just how incredibly wrong your Dad was. I am going to help you see what I see when I look at you."

"Why would you bother? I don't understand. It's seriously not a big deal Tony – I have learnt how to not let my confidence affect my work or anything. I mean you are the first one that's ever even really noticed this about me."

"It is a big deal Chelle. You are right, it doesn't affect your work, in the slightest – you kick ass there, you are so assertive and confident which is fantastic. But is affecting you in other ways. What about us? Maybe I am the first to notice Michelle because you haven't let anyone get this close to you......maybe you do really want to believe and accept how I feel about you, but you are scared. Does that make sense? Chelle, do you feel safe with me? Do you completely trust me?"

Tony wanted to be able to see Michelle's face so he leant their bodies back a little and then keeping her in his grip he put her on the bed lying on her back. He then lay next to her and put one arm across her body and also put his thigh on her legs.

"I do feel safe with you. I've never felt this safe with anyone. I trust you. You are right Tony, this is the closest I have ever let anyone get to me, but I just don't know how to accept how you feel about me. I mean most people could only dream of having what we do with each other. I am scared....scared that I'll let you down or something."

"Ohh Michelle, I feel all of those things too. Sweetie I have never been even close to letting someone in as much as I have with you. When I look at you Michelle, I wonder how someone so beautiful and amazing could want to be with me. I consider myself to be the luckiest guy on the planet. I want this to work so much. I too get scared I'll let you down, like right now....it scares me that I might not say the right thing and you won't believe me. But the difference between us Michelle is that I want this to work so much that I am willing to accept the way you feel about me, and you don't know how good that makes me feel. I have completely bared everything to you Michelle, because as I do and I see you stand by my side I realise that you love me for me and you love all parts of me, I don't need to be scared to show you anything. That baby – is the best feeling in the world....nothing beats that."

"Tony....I want this to work between us more than I have ever wanted anything before. I'll do anything to prove that to you. I am willing to try or do anything to completely trust and accept the way you feel about me. I do feel a lot of it though Tony – I mean it's not just the things you say, it's how you treat me – you make me feel so special and loved. I guess I am just not use to it because I've never had it before. When you put your arms around me and pull me in close to you – that is the best feeling I've ever had."

"Ok, I think we will get you there Michelle. It might not happen immediately but the longer we have with each other and the closer we get will show you just how wrong your Dad was to make you feel that way. You deserve to feel good about yourself. You said you would do anything to prove to me how much you want this relationship to work.....well all I want from you honey is to keep giving this all a go. When you feel down about yourself or sad I want you to promise you will come and talk to me. Keep letting me in Michelle so we can just keep getting closer and closer. Let me love you how I want to. Will you do all that for me? For us?"

"Yes, I'll do anything to make this keep working. You do make me feel better about myself. I am just so lucky to have you Tony."

"Well you do have me. I am all yours. Are you mine Chelle?" "Yes, I sure am. I want to be yours Tony."

Michelle gave Tony a little smile. She felt better. For the first time, Michelle really felt like she was worth something...that she was very important – and it felt great, so great.

Tony was starting to feel a little better about the situation. He knew that together he and Michelle would lick this thing. If possible he felt he loved her even more now that she had opened up to him. When he was a mess at CTU Chelle had gotten him through it. At the start he didn't even want her to see him crying because he didn't know what she would think of him. For that time in there Tony felt like the lowest person in the world. He truly thought he hated himself. But then Michelle comes in and sees him like that. But she didn't laugh at him or walk away, instead she tried to come and wrap me up in her arms. Tony had pulled away and turned his back to her so ashamed. Michelle wasn't going to let him feel like that though. She stood on some books to be tall enough put her arms around his neck and spoke lovingly into his ear. She told him how special he was to her and even just hearing that made him feel better as a person. Surely if someone like Michelle could think those things about him then he couldn't be that bad. She stayed holding him for as long as it took her to reason with him about all of his negative feelings from the day – she wasn't going anywhere until she knew he truly believed he was a good person who should be proud of his actions. None of his ex girlfriends would have had a bar of him as soon as they saw him cry and there is no way any of them would have spent that long listening to him and reassuring him he was a good person. If Michelle hadn't been around he was sure he would have slumped into a depression after all that. She had been perfect for him, exactly what he needed. Now seeing her as vulnerable as he had been, all he could think was that at any cost he was going to be the one that got her through this.

The sound of Michelle's voice snapped Tony out of day dreaming. "Tony.......what do you, like what.......wh..." She couldn't even finish the sentence. Tony had to giggle a little. "Chelle, just relax. Sounds like a pretty scary thing you are trying to tell me....should I be worried?" He traced around her face with one of his fingers. She took a deep breath and started again.

"Tony, what do you think it is about us that makes us fit together as a couple so well? I mean it's only been the shortest amount of time we have been seeing each other yet we are closer then most people would ever be to their partners. We don't even like leaving each others side."

Tony leant down and rubbed noses with her and they both gave each other a sweet smile. "I think it's because we are meant to be together Chelle. We have the same morals and values. Ultimately we want the same thing in life and have the same plan to get there. I just know Michelle that I have fallen for you in a way I never thought possible. I never imagined that I could feel this good. You make me a better person just by being with you. Over the last year at work we have been through some pretty huge things together and often we were paired up to get things done. In extreme circumstances then a strong bond can form, which it did with us. I know I trust you with my life. Then the day with the bomb and James.....I mean where do you even start with that? I do know though that especially after our first kiss, we were in the middle of a National crisis and I was totally day dreaming about you! In the last few days we have been through so much, and I think maybe we realise we couldn't have gotten through it without the other one...."

"That's so true Tony. That first night when I was so scared to fall asleep, lying with you made it so much easier. Then in the middle of the night when I cried in the kitchen – you just held me in your arms and assured me that you were there with me. That meant so much. For the first time in a very long time I didn't feel like I was alone. Usually I'd be so embarrassed that I had bawled like that on our first night together but you made me feel so much like it was ok that I wasn't embarrassed at all – which I am so thankful for. You settled me and I fell asleep in your chest feeling comforted. I know I could have never got through any of that with out you."

"Same with me sweetie at CTU. I mean you saw how freaked out I was to even just have you see me cry – I was yelling at you, but you just stayed. I still can't believe how miserable I felt before you came in to the change I felt once you had comforted me. You helped me put the whole day into perspective. You made me feel like I was so loved – you even made me feel a little bit proud of myself. That's you Chelle, that's your kind words and your touch! I was so nervous about you seeing me so weak and vulnerable because I wanted to be the strong one for you, but now I am glad it happened because I feel better for it."

"There certainly have been lots of tears between the two of us this week hasn't there?!?!" Michelle commented while having a bit of a giggle.

Tony began tracing her face again with his fingers, he had a big smile on his face, "there sure has – it's like we are trying to set a record or something!"

Tony ran his finger over her lips and Michelle totally surprised him by opening her mouth and closing it over his finger. She sucked on his finger and played with it with her tongue. She looked at Tony very seductively. Tony couldn't take his eyes of Michelle's mouth, he was so turned on. He put another finger on her lip to show her he wanted her to put that in her mouth too. Michelle had the two fingers in her mouth and she sucked them as hard as she could, as she did this she felt Tony become hard against her side. He let out a sigh. Michelle watched his face and all she could think was just how adorable he was. His eyes were very wide open, almost glowing and they were completely concentrating on her mouth. His lips were wet because he had licked them and they looked shiny, and his mouth was hanging wide open.

"Tony, can you sit up for a moment so I can take your shirt off?" As he sat up Michelle did too. He held his hands straight up in the air and Michelle pulled the t-shirt up over his head. Before he had a chance to do anything, she put both of her hands on his bare chest and pushed him down so he was lying on his back. Now he was watching her, taking in every move she made. She wasted no time and slid down the bed to pull his shorts and boxers off. She could hear his breathing getting heavier. She ran her hands up and down the inside and top of his thighs, making his whole body twitch a little. Then she kissed and licked all over his stomach and hips. This was just driving him crazy, "Oohh Chelle....now...now Chelle." She lifted her head and looked at him with a cheeky grin, "are you sure.....you want it now?"

He watched her slide down the bed, and then she put all of him in her mouth. He groaned as soon as he felt the warmth or her mouth around him. Michelle started off slow and gentle but gradually picked up the pace. Tony grabbed the blanket in his hands and squeezed. God she made him feel good. It wasn't long before Tony climaxed, he threw his head back on the pillow and tried to catch his breath. Michelle used her hand to continue massaging him, he was still very much turned on!! Tony opened his eyes and stuck out his arm and said, "Chelle, you make me feel so good, come here to me."

But Michelle shook her hand, "No Tony, I'm not done with you yet." With that she removed her own pants and sat on top of Tony, he remained lying down. She could see in his chest he was taking huge breaths. They began to make love. After a bit, Tony sat up a little and reached around Michelle and took her top and bra off. His hands explored her body.

Once both climaxed, Michelle laid on the bed next to Tony. He rolled onto his side and stroked Michelle's hair. He leaned in and kissed her on the forehead, "Your amazing Chelle, you feel amazing." She smiled at him and raised her head and kissed him on the lips. "Mr Almeida you feel so good. You are so my handsome man!"

They both laughed together. Tony looked at his watch, it was now 7am. They had been up the entire night, "Chelle it's 7am!! Should we get a couple hours of sleep?"

"Yup, only if you snuggle in close to me."

Tony pulled Michelle into his body and then wrapped her up in his arms. He kissed her neck. Within minutes they had both fallen fast asleep.