I Don't Need You: Listening.
It wasn't the fact that his sire had pinned Higgy to the wall that scared Spike. It wasn't the fact that Angel was growling. It certainly wasn't because Angel was acting a lot more like Angelus than normal that scared him. It was the fact that he was alone.
Sure Higgy and Angel were in the room but they weren't here. They were next to him. There was no one holding his hand. No one to tell him it would be okay. No one to hold him and comfort him and let him be William. No one was touching him. He shuddered and made to get out of the bed and grab onto either one of them. He didn't understand but he was so scared. He needed this. He needed something. He needed contact.
"William, sit back down now!" oh god. Angel was yelling at him. Angel didn't want him. Angel wanted him to stay away. Reluctantly he sat back down and curled up away from them. He wanted their contact but they didn't want him. God he was so alone.
Angel and Higgy were yelling at each other. Considering that Angel's hand was still pressing against her neck, Higgy was doing very well not to pass out. "Don't order him around like that!" she kicked out with one of her feet and managed to catch Angel's shin. He grunted and squeezed harder now growling louder than before.
"Don't you dare tell me what to do." He snarled. Angel's eyes were now flashing gold and he was pulling back his top lip to expose his extra long canines. "He's my childe, I am protecting him!"
"Just because he's your childe, doesn't mean you can order him around! He's not your frickin toy Angel!" Higgy was struggling harder and her face was turning slightly red from the grip around her throat.
"I'm not ordering him! It's what's best. He needs to stay away from you and your stupid friends. You've done nothing to help him. Nothing!" Angel growled low and long at the struggling girl. She had no right to be here. "And you will stay away."
Higgy didn't have to reply. The gun held to Angel's head said it all.
Spike rocked back and forth harder. Silent tears were falling down his face, but no one was looking at him. Why wouldn't anyone look at him? Was he not good enough? Did they not want him? He stifled a sob and curled up further. He was useless. Pathetic. Stupid. Worthless. A Baby. Just like Tyler had said, all those years ago.
He cracked open an eye and saw a new person. She was shorter than Higgy and had middle length brown hair. She also had a gun pressed to Angel's head. He listened as she spoke, calmly and evenly. "Take your hand off of her throat."
Spike watched and prayed that he would. Higgy was weakening and was barely kicking anymore. She wasn't looking at him either. No one was. Why didn't they just say that they didn't want him? It was so much easier that way. He cringed when the new girl spoke again.
"I know this wont kill you. But dear god dude, it'll hurt in the morning. So do us all a favour and put Higgy down. Preferable within the next two seconds or I pull the trigger." She was talking to him. Why him? Angel was being mean. Was that the way to make them see you?
No. He shook his head. We've been through this before. Last time no one looked, it didn't matter how much he hurt. They just didn't care. He shook slightly when Angel took his hand away, but was still being looked at. Why did he get everything? Stupid sire. He whimpered and tried to tear his eyes away from what was happening.
The new girl was still pointing the gun at Angel and pinning him to the wall while handcuffing him behind his back. "You are under arrest for breaking rule sixteen of the vampire lore. As stated in section two paragraph nine, and I quote, 'The Carer is never to be forced away from her charge'. You have broken this section of the vampire lore and are therefore under arrest. Please remain silent."
Higgy stirred and stood up, using the wall to help her remain upright. She shook her head to clear the fogginess and cleared her throat. "Er...Pepsi Max?"
"Quiet Higgy, I'm working here." She replied while checking Angel's bindings. The vampire was too shocked to fight back.
"That's Angelus. Spike's Sire."
"Oh." She lowered the gun and holstered it. "My mistake." She undid the cuffs and put them back on her belt and continued to shake Angel's hand. "Hi. I'm Pepsi Max; I'm Higgy's Seeker. I find the vampire's she cares for and make sure she finds them. It's a pleasure to meet you Angelus."
Higgy chuckled. Pepsi sounded for the entire world like a parent meeting the parents of their future son in law. She ran the through round her head. It seemed about right. Angel was Spike's father technically and Max had seemed more like a parental figure in her weird life. The entrance of her friends and Angel's co-workers interrupted Higgy's thoughts.
DL and Red nodded to Pepsi Max as if they knew she was here. Pepsi soon went over to catch up with them and Cordelia was filing her nails still. Wesley however was watching Spike. Higgy turned and saw why.
Spike had started stage three. A lot sooner than normal.
Another chappy. People were all asking who the hell was Pepsi Max, so I felt I had to explain. I know there wasn't that much Spike in this chapter, but there will be a lot lot lot more next time. I promise. Just be warned, he's going to be very different from regular Spike. You'll find out why next time. (God I'm evil. I always seem to end on cliffhangers) Please review if you like and if not, then review anyway and tell me why. I take all reviews as a gift and use their info to write better; so all types are gratefully accepted. Luv, a very tired Higgy, who has actually done some revision after failing her maths exam miserably.
It wasn't the fact that his sire had pinned Higgy to the wall that scared Spike. It wasn't the fact that Angel was growling. It certainly wasn't because Angel was acting a lot more like Angelus than normal that scared him. It was the fact that he was alone.
Sure Higgy and Angel were in the room but they weren't here. They were next to him. There was no one holding his hand. No one to tell him it would be okay. No one to hold him and comfort him and let him be William. No one was touching him. He shuddered and made to get out of the bed and grab onto either one of them. He didn't understand but he was so scared. He needed this. He needed something. He needed contact.
"William, sit back down now!" oh god. Angel was yelling at him. Angel didn't want him. Angel wanted him to stay away. Reluctantly he sat back down and curled up away from them. He wanted their contact but they didn't want him. God he was so alone.
Angel and Higgy were yelling at each other. Considering that Angel's hand was still pressing against her neck, Higgy was doing very well not to pass out. "Don't order him around like that!" she kicked out with one of her feet and managed to catch Angel's shin. He grunted and squeezed harder now growling louder than before.
"Don't you dare tell me what to do." He snarled. Angel's eyes were now flashing gold and he was pulling back his top lip to expose his extra long canines. "He's my childe, I am protecting him!"
"Just because he's your childe, doesn't mean you can order him around! He's not your frickin toy Angel!" Higgy was struggling harder and her face was turning slightly red from the grip around her throat.
"I'm not ordering him! It's what's best. He needs to stay away from you and your stupid friends. You've done nothing to help him. Nothing!" Angel growled low and long at the struggling girl. She had no right to be here. "And you will stay away."
Higgy didn't have to reply. The gun held to Angel's head said it all.
Spike rocked back and forth harder. Silent tears were falling down his face, but no one was looking at him. Why wouldn't anyone look at him? Was he not good enough? Did they not want him? He stifled a sob and curled up further. He was useless. Pathetic. Stupid. Worthless. A Baby. Just like Tyler had said, all those years ago.
He cracked open an eye and saw a new person. She was shorter than Higgy and had middle length brown hair. She also had a gun pressed to Angel's head. He listened as she spoke, calmly and evenly. "Take your hand off of her throat."
Spike watched and prayed that he would. Higgy was weakening and was barely kicking anymore. She wasn't looking at him either. No one was. Why didn't they just say that they didn't want him? It was so much easier that way. He cringed when the new girl spoke again.
"I know this wont kill you. But dear god dude, it'll hurt in the morning. So do us all a favour and put Higgy down. Preferable within the next two seconds or I pull the trigger." She was talking to him. Why him? Angel was being mean. Was that the way to make them see you?
No. He shook his head. We've been through this before. Last time no one looked, it didn't matter how much he hurt. They just didn't care. He shook slightly when Angel took his hand away, but was still being looked at. Why did he get everything? Stupid sire. He whimpered and tried to tear his eyes away from what was happening.
The new girl was still pointing the gun at Angel and pinning him to the wall while handcuffing him behind his back. "You are under arrest for breaking rule sixteen of the vampire lore. As stated in section two paragraph nine, and I quote, 'The Carer is never to be forced away from her charge'. You have broken this section of the vampire lore and are therefore under arrest. Please remain silent."
Higgy stirred and stood up, using the wall to help her remain upright. She shook her head to clear the fogginess and cleared her throat. "Er...Pepsi Max?"
"Quiet Higgy, I'm working here." She replied while checking Angel's bindings. The vampire was too shocked to fight back.
"That's Angelus. Spike's Sire."
"Oh." She lowered the gun and holstered it. "My mistake." She undid the cuffs and put them back on her belt and continued to shake Angel's hand. "Hi. I'm Pepsi Max; I'm Higgy's Seeker. I find the vampire's she cares for and make sure she finds them. It's a pleasure to meet you Angelus."
Higgy chuckled. Pepsi sounded for the entire world like a parent meeting the parents of their future son in law. She ran the through round her head. It seemed about right. Angel was Spike's father technically and Max had seemed more like a parental figure in her weird life. The entrance of her friends and Angel's co-workers interrupted Higgy's thoughts.
DL and Red nodded to Pepsi Max as if they knew she was here. Pepsi soon went over to catch up with them and Cordelia was filing her nails still. Wesley however was watching Spike. Higgy turned and saw why.
Spike had started stage three. A lot sooner than normal.
Another chappy. People were all asking who the hell was Pepsi Max, so I felt I had to explain. I know there wasn't that much Spike in this chapter, but there will be a lot lot lot more next time. I promise. Just be warned, he's going to be very different from regular Spike. You'll find out why next time. (God I'm evil. I always seem to end on cliffhangers) Please review if you like and if not, then review anyway and tell me why. I take all reviews as a gift and use their info to write better; so all types are gratefully accepted. Luv, a very tired Higgy, who has actually done some revision after failing her maths exam miserably.