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haven't in forever, but I found this chapter somewhere in my computer so I
didn't have to write it all over again. Besides, the other chapter I wrote
sucked more than this one. Please review!
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"She said she has to think," James spouted to Sirius as he lay on his back in his dormitory.
"So you've said. At least twenty times in the last half-hour. But you haven't told me what she has to think about," Sirius replied. He was damned tired of this relationship. He wished Lily would admit that she loved James and make everyone involved happy.
"Us. She has to think about us and her feelings. She said she doesn't want to hurt me. Heh, hurt me?" he said sarcastically. "She's ripping my bloody heart out."
"She does love you. She just doesn't know how to deal with it."
"And since when have you been the expert on love? This is your longest lasting relationship, and it's only been - what? Two, three weeks?"
"I, my dear friend, am and expert observer of the human species. Besides," Sirius said with a shrug, "I know Lily."
"Get your ass out of my dormitory." James was bloody sick and tired of listening to Sirius. What did he know about anything?
"Fine, if you don't want my help-"
"I don't want your help."
"Whatever." Sirius shrugged and was just about to open the door when somebody knocked. "I wonder . . ."
"James, could I come in? It's Lily," she said through the door. Sirius wiggled his eyebrows and opened the door.
"James, I - oh, hello Sirius. Could I talk to James alone please?"
"Sure thing, Lils. I was just about to leave. Talk to you cats later," Sirius said as he shut the door behind him and left Lily and James alone.
"Hello, James," Lily said hesitantly. James was just laying on his back with his eyes closed, not saying a word. "Are you mad at me?"
James laughed half-heartedly.
"Goddamn it, James! Talk to me!" Lily said and stomped her foot.
James didn't say a word.
"What, now you're going to give me the silent treatment?"
Silence.
"Fine, be that way. I'm not going to go crawling to you." Lily spun around and -
"Oh, and it's fine for me to go crawling to you?"
"What?"
"Twice I came to you and begged for forgiveness. I won't do it again."
Lily turned back and saw that James's eyes were open and staring directly at her. Inwardly she shrank from that soul piercing gaze. "I - I don't expect you to."
"Good."
Since it didn't seem as if he was going to say anything else, she took a deep breath and moved slightly closer. "I'm sorry. I look back at what happened in Potions and I realized that I could've just talked to Snape. I didn't have to touch him like that and I can see where you were coming from.
"And I'm sorry about how I reacted earlier. Most of what I said was untrue. You don't order me around or tell me who I have to hang out with. And I didn't need to bring up Sol and Remus. It was entirely irrelevant to the situation."
"That's one hell of an apology."
"Yeah, I guess it is. Do - do you accept it?"
"That would depend. I just have one question: do you really think that you deserve better than me?" James asked, trying to sound casual and miserably failing.
"Oh, James, I didn't mean it! I really didn't," Lily said as she rushed to James's bedside. She went down on her knees so she could look him in the eyes. "I didn't mean it in the least."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. But I, uh, I wanted to know if - I was wondering if - do you -"
"What is it, Lily?"
"Do you still love me?" Lily blurted out and blushed.
"Nothing could stop me from loving you."
"Oh, that's a relief. I thought that you didn't love me anymore. I know that for a second or two I felt like I didn't love you anymore." Lily paled, realizing what she had just said. She couldn't believe she just admitted that she loved On the other had, James was ecstatic. Lily just said she loved him.
"You love me?" he asked hopefully.
"I - I - I" Lily stammered, trying to realign her thoughts.
"Lily, do you love me?"
"Yes, James. I do," she admitted with her head down, as if she was confessing a deadly sin.
"Don't look so forlorn, my lady love." James lifted her chin and kissed her softly on the lips. "There's nothing to be sad about."
"Oh, James, what are we going to do?"
"About what?"
"About us. Before it was just a thing. We were both having fun, but now it's complicated."
"Just because we love each other doesn't mean that we can't have fun."
"True, but it's different."
"It's a good different."
"But -"
"Enough buts. Everything will be fine."
"I do have to admire your endless faith, James." James slipped off the bed so he could sit next to Lily.
"I have such faith because I know we can make it through everything. Because I love you."
"I love you, too James." Lily sighed and laid her head on his shoulder. She was so happy and didn't want to move.
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"Wait, wait, wait. Hold the wand. Let me get this straight," Cassandra said to Lily, holding up a hand, "you talked to You-Know-Who, and didn't tell anyone? Why? What were you thinking?"
"I was thinking about you guys. I didn't want anyone to know because I figured you would want to go after Voldemort and then get yourselves killed. Let me finish. So then Dumbledore came and Voldemort left. For some reason, he seemed to be afraid. I told Dumbledore what had happened and he acted like it was perfectly normal to run into the Dark Lord that is terrorizing the entire world, including the Muggles. He told me to take a bath with lots of bubbles and practically patted me on the head. I seriously don't think that man's stable."
"Nobody thinks that man's stable. Speaking of stable, did you ever consider getting your head checked out? Are you crazy? Why didn't you tell me, woman?!" Cassandra exclaimed and tapped the back of Lily's head with her hand.
"Because I didn't want anyone to know," Lily repeated. She was glad Cassandra had agreed to come with her to the Head Lounge with her instead of breakfast. Despite what she had told herself, Lily had really needed to tell someone about her little run in with Voldemort. Telling Cassandra took a huge load off her shoulders. "Sorry, but you have the biggest mouth, Gossip Queen."
"All right, I have to agree with you there. And because you're right, I promise I won't tell anyone. Not even Sirius. Just one thing," she said as Lily sighed, "did you tell James?"
"Well, I -"
"You didn't tell him?"
"You see, I -"
"You didn't tell James."
"No, I didn't," Lily admitted and looked away guiltily. She flinched when Cassandra flicked her forehead. She expected no less from her friend.
"Why not, you stupid dolt?"
"I was going to. Last night. But then we got into this big fight and -"
"So that's who pissed you off yesterday! You looked supremely pissed off. The last time I saw you like that was in first year when Belinda Bucky spilled pumpkin juice all over your astronomy chart. What happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Come on."
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because. Just - because. We'd better go or we'll be late for Charms."
"Oh, and that's such a terrible hardship. Wait, I forgot that I was talking to perfect Head Girl, Lily Evens," Cassandra mocked. They picked at each other companionably all the way to class. And made it on time.
Unknown to the two girls, a person watched them greedily from the shadows. With a possessive smile, Voldemort watched the two witches make their way down the hall. And he was struck with a brilliant idea. Maybe his little servant could bring him the sassy one. Then his flower would come to him. Yes, his little flower was loyal. She would come for her friend. She would come willingly, and he would have her. Or she would die.
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I know, I know. It's a pretty short chapter. But it's important for the rest of it, so I couldn't just leave it out. Besides, I like having the little play going on between Lily and Cassandra. It's pretty fun. Tell me what you think. I love you guys! And your reviews!
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"She said she has to think," James spouted to Sirius as he lay on his back in his dormitory.
"So you've said. At least twenty times in the last half-hour. But you haven't told me what she has to think about," Sirius replied. He was damned tired of this relationship. He wished Lily would admit that she loved James and make everyone involved happy.
"Us. She has to think about us and her feelings. She said she doesn't want to hurt me. Heh, hurt me?" he said sarcastically. "She's ripping my bloody heart out."
"She does love you. She just doesn't know how to deal with it."
"And since when have you been the expert on love? This is your longest lasting relationship, and it's only been - what? Two, three weeks?"
"I, my dear friend, am and expert observer of the human species. Besides," Sirius said with a shrug, "I know Lily."
"Get your ass out of my dormitory." James was bloody sick and tired of listening to Sirius. What did he know about anything?
"Fine, if you don't want my help-"
"I don't want your help."
"Whatever." Sirius shrugged and was just about to open the door when somebody knocked. "I wonder . . ."
"James, could I come in? It's Lily," she said through the door. Sirius wiggled his eyebrows and opened the door.
"James, I - oh, hello Sirius. Could I talk to James alone please?"
"Sure thing, Lils. I was just about to leave. Talk to you cats later," Sirius said as he shut the door behind him and left Lily and James alone.
"Hello, James," Lily said hesitantly. James was just laying on his back with his eyes closed, not saying a word. "Are you mad at me?"
James laughed half-heartedly.
"Goddamn it, James! Talk to me!" Lily said and stomped her foot.
James didn't say a word.
"What, now you're going to give me the silent treatment?"
Silence.
"Fine, be that way. I'm not going to go crawling to you." Lily spun around and -
"Oh, and it's fine for me to go crawling to you?"
"What?"
"Twice I came to you and begged for forgiveness. I won't do it again."
Lily turned back and saw that James's eyes were open and staring directly at her. Inwardly she shrank from that soul piercing gaze. "I - I don't expect you to."
"Good."
Since it didn't seem as if he was going to say anything else, she took a deep breath and moved slightly closer. "I'm sorry. I look back at what happened in Potions and I realized that I could've just talked to Snape. I didn't have to touch him like that and I can see where you were coming from.
"And I'm sorry about how I reacted earlier. Most of what I said was untrue. You don't order me around or tell me who I have to hang out with. And I didn't need to bring up Sol and Remus. It was entirely irrelevant to the situation."
"That's one hell of an apology."
"Yeah, I guess it is. Do - do you accept it?"
"That would depend. I just have one question: do you really think that you deserve better than me?" James asked, trying to sound casual and miserably failing.
"Oh, James, I didn't mean it! I really didn't," Lily said as she rushed to James's bedside. She went down on her knees so she could look him in the eyes. "I didn't mean it in the least."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. But I, uh, I wanted to know if - I was wondering if - do you -"
"What is it, Lily?"
"Do you still love me?" Lily blurted out and blushed.
"Nothing could stop me from loving you."
"Oh, that's a relief. I thought that you didn't love me anymore. I know that for a second or two I felt like I didn't love you anymore." Lily paled, realizing what she had just said. She couldn't believe she just admitted that she loved On the other had, James was ecstatic. Lily just said she loved him.
"You love me?" he asked hopefully.
"I - I - I" Lily stammered, trying to realign her thoughts.
"Lily, do you love me?"
"Yes, James. I do," she admitted with her head down, as if she was confessing a deadly sin.
"Don't look so forlorn, my lady love." James lifted her chin and kissed her softly on the lips. "There's nothing to be sad about."
"Oh, James, what are we going to do?"
"About what?"
"About us. Before it was just a thing. We were both having fun, but now it's complicated."
"Just because we love each other doesn't mean that we can't have fun."
"True, but it's different."
"It's a good different."
"But -"
"Enough buts. Everything will be fine."
"I do have to admire your endless faith, James." James slipped off the bed so he could sit next to Lily.
"I have such faith because I know we can make it through everything. Because I love you."
"I love you, too James." Lily sighed and laid her head on his shoulder. She was so happy and didn't want to move.
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"Wait, wait, wait. Hold the wand. Let me get this straight," Cassandra said to Lily, holding up a hand, "you talked to You-Know-Who, and didn't tell anyone? Why? What were you thinking?"
"I was thinking about you guys. I didn't want anyone to know because I figured you would want to go after Voldemort and then get yourselves killed. Let me finish. So then Dumbledore came and Voldemort left. For some reason, he seemed to be afraid. I told Dumbledore what had happened and he acted like it was perfectly normal to run into the Dark Lord that is terrorizing the entire world, including the Muggles. He told me to take a bath with lots of bubbles and practically patted me on the head. I seriously don't think that man's stable."
"Nobody thinks that man's stable. Speaking of stable, did you ever consider getting your head checked out? Are you crazy? Why didn't you tell me, woman?!" Cassandra exclaimed and tapped the back of Lily's head with her hand.
"Because I didn't want anyone to know," Lily repeated. She was glad Cassandra had agreed to come with her to the Head Lounge with her instead of breakfast. Despite what she had told herself, Lily had really needed to tell someone about her little run in with Voldemort. Telling Cassandra took a huge load off her shoulders. "Sorry, but you have the biggest mouth, Gossip Queen."
"All right, I have to agree with you there. And because you're right, I promise I won't tell anyone. Not even Sirius. Just one thing," she said as Lily sighed, "did you tell James?"
"Well, I -"
"You didn't tell him?"
"You see, I -"
"You didn't tell James."
"No, I didn't," Lily admitted and looked away guiltily. She flinched when Cassandra flicked her forehead. She expected no less from her friend.
"Why not, you stupid dolt?"
"I was going to. Last night. But then we got into this big fight and -"
"So that's who pissed you off yesterday! You looked supremely pissed off. The last time I saw you like that was in first year when Belinda Bucky spilled pumpkin juice all over your astronomy chart. What happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Come on."
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because. Just - because. We'd better go or we'll be late for Charms."
"Oh, and that's such a terrible hardship. Wait, I forgot that I was talking to perfect Head Girl, Lily Evens," Cassandra mocked. They picked at each other companionably all the way to class. And made it on time.
Unknown to the two girls, a person watched them greedily from the shadows. With a possessive smile, Voldemort watched the two witches make their way down the hall. And he was struck with a brilliant idea. Maybe his little servant could bring him the sassy one. Then his flower would come to him. Yes, his little flower was loyal. She would come for her friend. She would come willingly, and he would have her. Or she would die.
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I know, I know. It's a pretty short chapter. But it's important for the rest of it, so I couldn't just leave it out. Besides, I like having the little play going on between Lily and Cassandra. It's pretty fun. Tell me what you think. I love you guys! And your reviews!