All Of This

Chapter Eight

Another Night With Her

When the grasp that Freddy had on Katie loosened and he finally let go after a million moments worth of time passed by, he didn't know what was happening. He did the only thing that he could even remotely think of doing at that time- run. He didn't know why he had hugged her, it was like he didn't even think about it... it had even surprised himself. His mind was even saying anything about it... he just did it- and he didn't know why.

Yet again, Katie was left to stand alone as the dark figure of Freddy racing down the sidewalk just seemed to disappear as he got further away. She was again left with nothing to say, but just to stand and watch until there was nothing to watch and he was gone.

She walked back up to her house, through the front door this time and passed her family as they watched her walk upstairs to her room, staring at her feet. They spoke to her as they watched, but as before, she didn't reply. She just walked until she made it into her room. She closed the door and locked it behind her as she walked over to her bed and just sat down, looking at nothing at all, just staring. To her, it felt like she had sat like that forever. She couldn't think, she couldn't speak, she couldn't do anything...

Freddy ran up his stairs to his house, ignoring his parents and their questions about how practice went. He just kept his speed and got to his room as fast as possible. He threw himself on to his bed and grabbed his pillow and just lay there on his stomach for what seemed to be the longest time. He didn't know what he was thinking, but the truth was that he wasn't thinking straight as since what had happened that night and what he had done, it made him run in the wrong direction- and this is where it took him...

A Year Later

The relationship between Freddy and Katie just seemed to dwindle more and more as every second of the days after went by. It was like they didn't even know each other anymore... and no one would dare to speak to either of them about it. They were just to go in their seperate ways and act like nothing had ever happened- as much as everyone knew things had- and just carry on with their lives.

It had been a while since that night when there had been something that they knew that they wanted to hold on to, but just seemed to let go of without even thinking it over. It was weird to everyone, since no one knew exactly what had gone on between the two. And of all sad things, Amber was the one who knew the most other than Katie and Freddy.

Amber seemed to be more separated from the rest of the people in the band now, knowing that if she did anything more or if she got more involved in things like that, that Freddy would hate her even more.

Everyone had grown since that time, seeing as they were all just entering their second year of high school now and all on different paths. As much as all the band members were exploring different things, just like everyone else does as they grow up, they all still had one main thing in common- the band.

Now at the age of 15, Freddy and Katie never seemed to do anything together anymore. It was like everything that used to be between them all of a sudden just disappeared and nothing was to be heard of it. They didn't talk anymore either, and they tried as hard as they could to have nothing to do with each other. No one had really liked that they were so separated now, knowing the past that they had together and how much they used to have so much fun together every moment they spent with one another. As much as they had moved on and weren't to be seen having a conversation or any contact with one another at any time, they never stopped remembering. The thing was, every single time they saw each other they had to look away to try and stop the pain from coming back to them again.

As they both knew, it wasn't a one sided kind of thing that went on between them but most surprisingly, the one out of the two of them who hid it the best but felt the most hurt and pain over the thought of it was... Freddy.

"Hey Freddy!" Mackenzie Mathews said perkily running up behind Freddy and kissing him on the cheek.

"Hey Mack," he said, not as happily as her, although, no one could really be as perky as she was.

Mackenzie Mathews. An easy person to fully understand everything about in very few words. Cheerleader. Blond hair. Perfect skin. Ditzy. Adored by every single person in the student population. Well, maybe not very few but you understand her now. You guessed it... Freddy's girlfriend. And even more information on that one- Freddy's girlfriend since the beginning of the ninth grade.

That was step one of Freddy's quest of trying to hide everything that was bubbling up inside of him. He just felt like he wanted to burst it all out and let the world know everything that he was feeling, but he knew... and everything inside of him knew that, he couldn't do that.

"So I was thinking, how about you come over to my house tonight?" she asked, twirling her bright blond hair around her finger.

"Sure..." Freddy said under his breath as he piled a bunch of his books into his locker and shut the locker door.

"Great! See you at 7?" she asked. Freddy nodded with not exactly what you would call a smile across his face.

"See ya," he said quietly as he walked slowly to his class just to run into someone on the way.

Katie, having her locker on the opposite side of the school that her classes were on, rushed to get there as soon as she could- and you could say that she wasn't exactly watching where she was going.

"Ahh!" she said as she bumped into someone that was just slightly taller than she as all her books fell to the ground and she went down to get them.

"Sorry," she said as she pushed her black hair, that was now much longer, behind her ear as she picked up her books.

"It's alright," he said as he bent down to help her, just as she noticed who it was, and he, the same.

She looked at him, picking up her books until he noticed that it was her, and looked at her the exact same way.

"Here," he said quietly, handing her the rest of her books as he rushed off without saying one more word, to leave Katie standing there in the middle of all the people rushing to their classes, just to see him disappear down the hallways and leave her sight... like he usually did.

She then continued on down the halls, just to make it to her class in time.

That night, Freddy walked slowly, later than seven o'clock though, to get to Mackenzie's around 7:30. He knocked on the door as he saw her come rushing from the basement up the stairs to come open the door.

"Hey!" she said, smiling as Freddy stepped inside.

"Hey.." he said, a slight smile on his face as he kissed her. "How are you?" he asked.

"I'm good. I got a movie to watch downstairs. C'mon," she said, grabbing his hand and leading him downstairs where they sat on the couch and she put on the movie. They just kind of sat there for a while, not really doing anything except watching the movie until, all of sudden, Mack just leaned over and started making out with Freddy. He didn't fight it, he just did it right back.

That was usually how their nights ending up happening. Come over. Make out for an hour or two. Stop to eat in between. Then leave. It was almost like it was some routine for Freddy to do, seeing that when he really should have... he didn't like it at all. To Freddy... it was just another night with her and the life that he had for himself now. He was one of the most miserable people on the Earth, but the thing was that, he had chosen all of this for himself.

At home, Katie lay alone in her room, remembering her encounter with Freddy that day. She couldn't help but let everything out and just cry. She usually did every night, not wanting to let go of what she believed was still between the two of them. She never wanted to let go of any of it.

"Hi, is Katie there?" Summer asked Katie's mom on the phone.

"Yeah, just a second. Katie!" her mom shouted her voice upstairs. "Phone!" she said, covering the voice piece on the phone while she shouted.

"Okay!" Katie replied, wiping away her tears quickly as the picked up the phone. "Hello?" she asked, a slight sniffle to be heard.

"Hey, it's Summer."

"Hey Summer," she said, sitting up on her bed. "What's up?" she asked.

Summer paused. "Katie... were you crying?" she asked her.

Katie froze. "Uhh.. no?"

"Katie! Look," she paused. "I know that it's hard for you to talk about it considering that you've held it in for so long... but why do you keep thinking about it if it makes you so upset? It's not worth it. Freddy's been with Mackenzie for almost a year now, for God knows what reason, and that's just something that you have to try to start accepting, as much as I know it hurts you to do. Things are going to be different and they always will continue to be different- he's going to go out with other girls. If I know one thing, though, it's that what you two had together will always mean the most to him..." she said, trying to comfort Katie as much as possible.

"I'll be fine Summer," she said, another sniffle sound heard on the phone.

"Okay... well, I just wanted to see how you were doing."

"I'm fine. I'll see you at school tomorrow, okay?" she asked.

"Okay, Bye," Summer said as Katie hung up the phone without a goodbye. Katie lay back down on her bed to the position that she was in before, and just let it all out all over again. She couldn't keep holding everything in, as much as it helped her feel a lot better sometimes.

At the later hours of the night, she then decided to do something that even surprised herself. She decided to phone Freddy.

Listening to the phone ring was the hardest thing that she had ever had to listen to. And the second that she heard his voice pick up, she hung up with the fastest speed she had ever imagined.

"Hello?" Freddy repeated himself. "Hello?" No one answered. He then hung up and looked back on to the caller ID to see the name 'Brown' on the phone. 'Why would Katie be calling me?' he thought to himself. He sat there in his room, laying on his bed just wondering. 'What if it was her parents calling mine?... But what if it was her calling me?' A thousand thoughts went through his mind that night... and continued to do so for a very long time.

(A/N: Well, I know that my last two chapters aren't that long, but I've got so many ideas in my head right now for what I want to do becuse the lines in the song that I'm making the chapter titles go perfectly with everything that I'm thinking. It's exactly why I picked this song. Anyways.. I hope you all liked it and I'm on a roll! I'm writing my third chapter in my little writing express moment. Anywho, REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW! And thank you all for the reviews that I've been getting! Toodles. -Brooke)