'Thoughts' - as in Sakura's thoughts.
Chapter 10: Sakura's Dairy
Sakura's singing
Missing You
Sang by: 1st Ladie
Hmmmmm hmmmmm
Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you
Mmm eyyy hmmm
Baby I'm missing you
What did I do to deserve this?
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby, God took your love from me
You needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I, can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why did he take you away, from me?
Sakura staring at Syaoran, Tomoyo, and Eriol while singing her song that she wrote. (I know....she didn't really rite it.....)
It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave 'you are dead to me'
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me?
Why couldn't you just stay?
Because my world is nothing, without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
Now with tears in her eyes...
I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell back over and over again
Just to prove to you how, much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry
Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave 'dead to me Syaoran'
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me?
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothing, without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
I just don't know what to do with myself
I can't stop looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I want to know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad?
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you?
Baby I'm missing you
Baby I'm missing you
I love you oohh God dammit I love you
Why did he did he take you away from me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby
Ohhh
Then Sakura walked off the stage with tears in her eyes and one down her cheek.
The town was celebrating the Birthday of the town and Sakura was performing one last song while she was still in Tomodea (I think I spelled it wrong....if so....can some one tell me.) It was her last night here before she moves away... away from every one who abandoned her. From her very close friends, other friends and Syaoran. She wanted to get away from all of them as fast as possible.
Sakura's P.O.V.
I was up here in the cherry tree, trying to stop of these tears coming out of my eyes. Then I saw them. The people I hated the most, Tomoyo, Syaoran, and Cindy, (if your name is Cindy.....Sorry if I hurt you in a way) walking by.
So glad they left now Sakura thought getting off the tree and running home tears coming out of her eyes. When she got to her house she went in and was going to go to her room but was stopped by her Ojii-chan.
"Umm... Sakura, are you ready to leave tomorrow morning?" Ojii-chan asked.
"Ya..." was all that Sakura said and went to her room. Her grandfather didn't need to ask her what was wrong because he already knows.
End Of Sakura's P.O.V.
Sakura's Dairy
Dear Dairy,
Friday September 1, 2004
Sorry that I haven't won't anything lately. Tears on Paper
I've been so sad, everything just happened to fast. Also everyone is leaving me. Why did that Cindy girl have to come. My life is completely over and now I'm going to start a new life tomorrow. Are you wondering what had happened, will I tell you.
It all started when Melin left, to go back to Hong Kong, and when Tomoyo was mad at me because I wasn't spending a lot of time with her in the summer.'Tears' One day when she called......
Flash Back
Ring Ring Ring Ring
Sakura was in her room getting dressed. When she heard her phone ring she picked it up.
"Hello, Sakura speaking"
"Sakura, are you going to tell what is up... We haven't talked for so long?" Tomoyo said on the other line, angry.
"Oh Tomoyo, sorry about that, I've been busy with-" Sakura spoke was cut off.
"Syaoran again, I know that he's your boyfriends and everything, but can't you just come and hang out with me. It always you and SYAORAN!!" Tomoyo said angry.
"Tomoyo, no that not-"but got cut off again.
"Sakura, I am very mad at you, because you never have time for me anymore but you always have time for Syaoran."
"Tomoyo please"
"I going now, I have plans with my friend" and with that, Tomoyo hanged up.
End Of Flash Back.
When she said that she had plans with her friends, I thought it was Eriol... but I was wrong. After she called, I called Syaoran and asked if he wanted to go to the mall, but than he said that he had guest over and that he can't. After awhile, Eriol called...
Flash Back
"Hello, Sakura speaking"
"Sakura, you wanna go to the mall or something" Eriol asked.
"Oh hey Eriol, umm... I thought that you had plans with Tomoyo?"
"No, Tomoyo went some where with her new friend... I think her name was... Cindy."
"Oh, than sure, why not. I have nothing better to do."
"Come to my house than well go."
"Ok"
"Bye"
"Bye"
End Of Flash Back
When we went to the mall we became closer friends than before.
After a week or so, it was ok. Tomoyo wasn't mad at me any more.
One day when all of us went to go watch a movie, Syaoran and Tomoyo came with some girl, and that girl name was Cindy. Syaoran and Tomoyo didn't even talked to me but were talking to Cindy. When we watched the movie, I was just talking to Eriol, or just stand around doing nothing. Like if I was just following them. It hurt me so mush, especially when Syaoran did talk to me. 'Tears' The same day my father told me something that felt like my heart just got stab a thousand times.
Flash Back
"Sakura, can you come down to the living room?" Fujitaka asked.
Sakura walked in the living room.
"Yes, is there any thing you need dad." Sakura asked.
"Yes, there is something important I need to tell you."
"Ok, what is it?"
"I'm dieing and when I do you will live with Ojii-chan"
"What, you too. NO!! This can't be happening." Sakura said with tears in her eyes.
"It true. I'm sorry Sakura. I'm very sick, but before I go, can you sing a song for me at the festival this Friday. I love it when you sing."
"Of cause, any thing for you dad." Sakura still tears in her eyes and one down her cheek.
End Of Flash Back
I was so sad that I'm going to lose my dad too.'Tears' But there is more. The next day I went out for a walk. It was sunny and there was no clouds in sight. When I got home, I was in shock, with tears already running down my face. Then out of nowhere it started to rain.
Flash Back
Sakura got home but was shock at what she saw. She ran up to it.
"Daddy, wake up. You can't be dead. I know your not, I just know it" Sakura yelled and crying at the same time.
"Sakura, your home! I called the ambulance and there be here any minute. I'm sorry but your father had died already, but before he did he wanted me to tell you that he loves and that you should go on with you life." Sakura's Ojii-chan told her.
"NO!!" and with that Sakura ran out of the house.
End Of Flash Back
I was running. Running from all the pain, until I ended up at some ones house. The one house that I know will be there for me. Then it stopped raining. When I walked up to the door...
Flash back
Knock Knock
Than some one opened the door. It was Syaoran mother.
"Oh, Hello Sakura."
"Hello Ms. Li. Is Syaoran home?"
"Sorry. He went out."
"Oh, then bye."
"Bye"
After Sakura was walking to the park then another shock came to her mind. Sakura had tears running down her face already.
Syaoran saw Sakura crying and ran up to her with Cindy following him.
"I can't believe this. It over with us! I can't believe you cheated on me with that slut! I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU!!!" and with that she ran off again. She ran home and ran in her room. Sakura started to write a song that she will sing on Friday.
End Of Flash Back
That same night I told my grandfather what had happened. After a day or two... We went to my dad's funeral, Syaoran and Tomoyo never talked to me, and today I sang my song called 'Missing You'. Tomorrow I'm moving to Tokyo with my Ojii-chan, even though school start this Monday.
I will write one more entry tomorrow for someone...
Sakura Kinomoto
The Next Day
Sakura and her grandfather already left to go to Tokyo. They didn't sell the house... Sakura's Ojii-chan kept it, so when they will return to Tomodea.
Monday, The First Day Of School
"Hey Tomoyo, Syaoran. Did you see Sakura?" Eriol asked.
They were all in there homerooms.
"No I haven't. Have you Syaoran, since you two are still together right?" Tomoyo said.
"No I haven't seen her and no, we are not together anymore... I'm with Cindy now." Syaoran told them.
"I thought so. On Saturday, I got this book that Sakura gave me. It was her Dairy and it had a note on it, it said...
Dear Eriol,
This is my Dairy I had with all my secrets, thoughts, and questions. I want you, Tomoyo, and even Syaoran to read it.
Sakura
... So I read it. It was really sad and on the last page was for us to read..."
Eriol gave Tomoyo and Syaoran the Dairy they both read it....
The Last Page...
To: Eriol, Tomoyo, and Syaoran...
Eriol, thanks for always be always being there for me. For helping me when I couldn't go on. I'll miss you and I'll love as if you were my brother.
Tomoyo thanks for all those times you there for me... but I will not miss you, I'm sorry for the time you got mad at me and I'm sorry that I didn't have anytime for you but the truth is that I had family matter. I wasn't always with Syaoran, and I was trying to make room for you. But now, we are not best friends anymore, not cousins, not anything. You left me and I'll Hate you for that.
Syaoran, all I want to tell that I HATE YOU!! You're out of my heart forever. I will not cry for you anymore. But I still can't believe you cheated on me... I thought you were different... I was wrong... to think I can trust you with all my heart. I will not miss you and I will hate you forever...
Sakura Kinomoto
Hoped you liked this chapter..... The story is not over yet..... PLzzeee review.... Also...just to tell you.... I had tears in my eyes, even though I wrote it..... Enjoy.