Chapter 8 - Save me

Two days. Two days since we had that little encounter in his room. I was completely infatuated with him. I think I was in love. I felt like I was on top of the world.
Nothing could bring me down, a power surge was running though me veins and I was loving it.
I haven't seen Spike much, just a couple of glances in the hall or cafeteria. He wasn't going out of his way to see me and that was crushing me. The only thing I realized the could bring me down was... him. It scared me that he had that much control on me, emotionally and physically.
Today I was determined to find out why. Why he was ignoring me and why he hadn't spoken to me.

I walked down the end of the hall and knocked on his door.
No answer. I knocked again. Where the hell could he be?
I went to knock once more when the door flew open, a sleepy looking Spike answered the door.
"Buffy, what are you doing here?" He asked me as he slipped on his black shirt. I had forgotten it was five in the morning.
"Sorry I woke you." I mumbled out. He reached out and touched my shoulder. "Is something wrong?" He asked sympathetically.
"No nothings wrong. I just wanted to talk." I looked down at the ground kind of nervous.
"About what?" He asked as if he was clueless.
I looked at him like he had grown two heads. "What do you think?"
He tensed then invited me in. I walked in nervously and sat in a chair that was next to his bed.
"Buffy." He paused he looked like he was looking for words. This scared me. Was he trying to break up with me? Hold up. We weren't dating but was he trying to let me down easy?
"Buffy. We can't be together." Those words felt like a stab in the gut.
"Why?" I asked tears threatening to come out.
"Because its not right." He stated simply.
That pissed me off I stood up and yelled. "What about the kiss. Was that right? or the... thing we did on your bed. Was that right? Why does it matter now?"
"Buffy calm down." He said walking over to me.
"No! You gave me a taste and now you're just... Is this some game to you is this..." He interrupted my babbling.
"It isn't like that Buffy and you know that."
"Is it?" I asked. He was just fucking with my head. mind games. Goddamn fucking mind games. Well I guess they worked.
"I can't take this." I said tears flowing freely now. I wanted an answer and I sure as hell got one.
I stormed out of the room. Spike followed me, I have no idea why. He wanted nothing to do with me and I was giving him a free pass.
"Buffy wait. Don't" He touched my arm, I flinched away. I spun around.
"What?"
"I... love you."
What the hell!! He just told me he loved me. Oh shit. Hurry find something to say.
"If you love me then why don't you want me."
He walked up and kissed me.
"I do want you. Can't you see the effect you have on me? But this won't work Buffy."
I didn't understand.
"Why? We can be careful."
"Were we careful when Cordelia walked in on us kissing? In this place their is no safe rooms. Not even my room. You know that."
I felt like Spike was food and I had been starved for years. It was right in front of me yet someone was holding me away.
"Spike. How is this going to work? See but don't touch?"
Spike had realized we were in the hall were anyone could overhear our conversation.
"Buffy lets get inside to talk further."
"No. I'm done talking." And with that I walked off.

Life sucked.
An entire day passed since our conversation. I walked down the hall to maybe try to get a few things clear. Spike couldn't deny me that.
As I walked I was suddenly stopped by Angel. One of the other guards. I couldn't understand why his name was Angel he was anything but. He was very abusive to some of the other girls.
"Where are you going Miss. Summers?"
"Just walking." I lied.
"You know you could get in a lot of trouble for that."
"What are they going to do? Ground me?" I snapped back. He was inching closer and it scared me. I stepped back a few steps. My back met a wall.
He was in front of me so quickly. He ran his hand in front of my shirt rubbing my breasts over the material.
"Stop." I told him sternly.
He ignored me. "You know we could keep this night wandering to ourselves if you do me a little favor." He said suggestively. He took my hand and pulled it to his crouch. I pulled it back.
"Come on Buffy. Have some fun." He was starting to scare me.
"Stop." I said again. his time he reached up and unbuttoned my shirt.
I went to slap him but the grabbed my hand. "No none of that."
He grabbed both of my skinny wrists with one of his hands. He was hurting me so much. The pressure on my wrists were starting to become unbearable. He continued to molest me with his other hand.
"Stop." I half screamed one more time. He ignored. This wasn't working. I started to whimper and cry as he continued. He was so rough and uncaring. He had my top off and my pants unbuttoned. My whimpers were becoming more audible.
"Shut up." His voice was hoarse.
I closed my eyes.
"What the hell is going on here." A sigh of relief washed through my body.
Spike.
I kept my eyes closed. I don't know why but I guess if I closed my eyes I wouldn't have to admit this was real. But I heard.
"Hey, Spike. Nothing is going on here. "Angel tried to convince Spike but it obviously hadn't worked.
I heard a fist slam into flesh. Hopefully it was Angel's face.
I slowly opened my eyes to see Angel unconscious. I looked up to see Spike.
"Are you ok?" He asked. No speaking I just shook my head.
He walked over and picked me up. He carried me to his room and laid me on his bed.
"Did he hurt you?"
I shook my head again.
"Can I look?"
"Yes." It came out a whisper.
He looked me up and down examining me. I assume he found no harm.
"Lay down." He told me calm. I obeyed and did what he asked. He climbed on the bed and laid next me to me where I was spooned against him. I realized he just wanted to hold me, making sure I wasn't broken." What if someone comes in?" I asked
"I don't' care." I smiled at that and shifted to get comfortable.
"I love you." I told him.
Then we both drifted off to sleep.

That was the day, he had saved me and the first time "I love you" had escaped out mouths. I know we didn't know each other that well, but we both felt like we had found our missing half.

Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Chill out whatcha yelling for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no



Authors note - I really have no Idea how the laws works I just fit it to the story.
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