Pregnant. I'm pregnant. I keep telling myself, but my mind just doesn't want to register it. How could I, the Scarlet Witch, be pregnant? After all, I've never even been in a relationship. I know exactly how it happened, though.
It was back at that stupid party the Brotherhood threw a couple months ago for the 4th of July. Everyone had gotten pretty drunk, myself included. Anyway, to make a long story very short, I woke up in Todd's bed with him next to me and only a blanket covering either of us.
So allow me to rephrase my earlier statement: I'm pregnant with Toad's baby.
How could I let this happen?
And the worst part is, I can't even be angry with Todd because I know that neither of us were in the right state of mind when it happened.
Well, at least I know I won't be going through this alone. Todd's probably the only guy who'd stick by me after finding out I was pregnant.
I still can't believe this is happening to me, though. I just heard that one of the X-Geeks was pregnant not too long ago, but it just seemed like the kind of thing that happens to other people. Which one was it...? I think it was Jean, but I'm not sure. I'll ask Lance. He's the one who told me in the first place.
I don't know how I'm going to tell Todd... Or Pietro... Or Dad for that matter... Everything's just so confusing now...
In all reality, I could get an abortion and be done with it in a few day, but I could never bring myself to do that. I wouldn't be able to live with myself knowing that I'd killed my child before it ever had a chance.
I wonder if it's going to be a boy or a girl...
There I go again! I'll be sitting here, thinking all of these horrible thoughts about being pregnant and then I'll think of something like that. These stupid hormones are driving me insane!
Dad's gonna flip, though. We may not have a very strong father-daughter relationship, but he is my dad. I hope he doesn't hurt Todd. I don't know what I'd do if I had to raise a kid by myself.
Before this I've always thought that if worse came to worse, if life had gotten too tough, I'd just... end it. Just slit my wrists and be done with it... But now I have to live for someone else. I don't have my easy out anymore because I would never leave my child motherless. My mom killed herself and I would never make my child suffer through something like that. I've always hated her for that, for taking the easy way out and leaving Pietro and I to the pain of dealing with Dad.
I really do need to work up the nerve to tell Todd he's going to be a father. I don't even know what I'm so scared of. I know that in the long run, he'll be there. I'm not afraid of him leaving. I guess I'm just afraid of his initial reaction.
I have no idea how he'll take it at first. How would you react in his position, after all? Eighteen years old is not exactly the recommended age for having a kid. At least neither of us are in high school anymore, I guess...
I suppose I'll try to find him now... No time like the present, right?
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In case you're wondering, I already know the gender and name for the baby(s).