; . ; This is going to be hard for me because I feel really bad for making one of my best friends sad. I'm crying while typing this. Okay here it is.
This is based on Hao's point of view.
It's Hard to Say I'm Sorry
Dedicated to Black-Cat125
Sometimes I feel that I have done something wrong. Something to hurt you.
I haven't.
Yet.
Yet, I feel that what I'm about to do will hurt you. More than it will physically. More than mentally. But, emotionality. Everything.
I sit here in front of the fire thinking only of you. You are the reason for my existence. You are the reason I live and breathe. You are the reason why I get up in the morning, planning for the day. Without you, I don't know where I'll be.
You're only goal is to be free and happy. And I have taken that away from you for my own selfish needs.
Yes, I know that what I have done in the past may have not been morally correct, but you still smiled and wanted to talk.
And that really gets on my nerves.
Look at me. Sitting here contemplating on why I should go over there. To where you are sitting… and just embrace you…
No… that's stupid, and so human like.
Why am I even thinking about this? I should start planning to catch your soul and claim it as mine once again.
But then…
I just end up sitting back down and think again.
Believe me this happened numerous times.
So what am I supposed to do? You won't get out of my head and it's literally driving me insane.
I guess I'll admit that I want to…
That I have to…
That I need to…
Gah! It's so hard to say I'm sorry when I should. But I can't bring myself to just walk over and say it.
Perhaps during our next encounter….
Yes… I think then… I tell you that and…
Something else that I have had on my mind…
Aha! There I did it! I hope she reads it. :/ I wanna talk to her.
Now maybe this will be a prologue to another story? Who knows?
I hope you like it! (black-cat125 too)
Please read and review!
Ja Mata!
Keiko