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Chapter Five-- Ponderings
Yusuke's POV
What the hell?!! Did Hiei just say what I think he said? I mean... what the hell?! Hiei would never say anything like that! But... he just did. So where does that leave me?
Several Days Later- Genkai's Forest
Hiei's POV
I've been thinking about Yusuke for the last several days. I have no idea why I said what I said, but ever since I found out that he felt as though no one cared, I've been feeling very strange. I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling. In my entire life, I have never felt this way before. The only thing that I can say about it, is that it's a terrible pain mixed with a sense of anguish and guilt. I want to know what this strange feeling is, but at the same time I only wish that it would go away and leave me in peace. After all, I've spent my entire life trying to erase my emotions because of the pain they have inevitably brought me. It may sound cowardly, but there's so much less pain involved when a person cares for nothing and no one. No one can hurt you if you just don't care. And right now, I really wish I didn't care.
Genkai's
I haven't seen Hiei in a couple days. I haven't even sensed his ki signature. But that's all right, I'll just corner him at Koenma's meeting tonight and make him tell me what he meant the other day. Speaking of what Hiei said, I'm really surprised that he knows so much about other people's lives. I can hardly believe that Hiei could be so passionate about anything. Especially other people. Who knew?
Later that night- Genkai's
Hiei's POV
Koenma has called yet another meeting. I find it quite odd that he is already sending us on assignments when Yusuke nearly killed himself only a few days ago. However, I suppose that it's not really his fault that another pathetic demon is attempting to take over one of the three worlds. This meeting does present quite a problem for me though. I mean, Yusuke is going to be here, and undoubtedly he is going to question me about my little outburst the other day. Questions that I myself do not have the answers to. I suppose that if I truly tried, I could find what is hidden in my heart. But then, I've always been better at running away from my emotions than at analyzing them.
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Hi again guys! I'm so, so, so sorry that I didn't update sooner! It's been what? Five months? Eeep! I'm so sorry!! Please don't kill me! I've had a really hard time trying to get the creative juices flowing again, but they're back on, sorta, so I'll be better at updating! I promise! However, it'll probably take, like, another week to update because I always get a bunch of homework in my classes. Then, after school, I've got wrestling practice, which is really hard, so I don't get home 'til at least 5:30. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this chapter!! I know there are quite a few things in the story that don't quite add up yet, but I will explain all in the next chapter or two. Ooh, just so ya know, I went back and fixed some of the previous chapters. So, I hope you'll REVIEW and tell me what you liked/disliked, because the more reviews I get, the faster I update! In theory at least.
By the way, I've had a bunch of people complain about how short the chapters are. I'm sorry about that, it's just that I can only write about a page of good material at a time, and a page in Microsoft word is like, miniscule on the web because of the margins and everything. So, I'm sorry about the shortness, but really, would you rather have short good chapters or long chapters that suck ass so much that there's no point in reading them?