And What Happens Now...
So what do I do now?
I've lost so much.
I knew what it would do.
I could have stopped it.
I didn't.
So what do I do now?
I'm so lost in this maze.
I cried and no one came.
I yelled and no one turned an ear.
I fled.
So what do I do now?
I ran her away.
I murdered her.
I've ripped a hole through her heart.
I killed.
So what do I do now?
I have what I want.
I have what I love.
I've made the hardest decision.
And though I don't truly know.
I really do think one thing.
I'm right.
So what do I do now?
What I did was awful.
Despicable to the core.
But life isn't fun.
Not at all.
No.
So what do I do now?
Sitting here.
I feel the pain like never before.
And it won't go away.
It's a scar forever.
It's a hole in her heart.
And my tears only sting.
It hurts.
So what do I do now?
I shiver at my movements.
I need the love I've so abandoned.
And I have it.
But it's different.
Not the same.
It's better.
So what do I do now?
I can start anew.
There's a hole though.
It goes right through me.
And I think about it.
Every day it will hurt me.
Now; forever.
So what do I do now.
Now, I go.
I leave my misery.
I lift it up to Him.
He is there, and He is what spoke.
It was Him that was there.
And He was right.
Always is.
So what do I do now?
I hold on to what I've done.
I have faith in what has happened.
I never forget it, and live it out.
I never lie again.
Not ever.
So what do I do now?
I love.