Title: She Will Be Loved
Author: Lori
A/N: Thank you everyone who reviewed. And yes Spacey Stacey I will play you for Spike. I am sooo going to win! ::Waves Spuffy Forever flag also:: Hope you all enjoy this chapter.
Chapter 13: Broken Inside
"Isn't that right?" Spike said with a sly smirk on his face.
'Was it?', Buffy thought. Buffy looked up at him and didn't know what to say. She looked up at the sky as the rain stopped.
Buffy was about to speak when she was interrupted by someone calling her name. She turned around.
"Willow," Buffy said with a smile as she ran up to her. She gave a big hug and let go. "What are you doing here?" She asked.
Willow slightly smiled. "Just Oz and I," She looked over at Oz as he gave a light wave. She turned back to Buffy. "Came by to see how you were doing because we knew Spike was here,"
Buffy turned around and gave a glance at Spike who seemed to look like he was lost as he dug his hands into his black leather duster.
Buffy turned back at Willow and gave a faint smile. "Well, I'm not dead as you can see,"
Both girls let out a giggle.
Willow then took a deep breath and gave a serious look. "Buff, are you going to come home now?" She asked.
Buffy let her shoulders slouch. "Will..."
"Buffy, it's not good to let yourself run away, it just shows you aren't strong enough," Willow said softly.
Buffy took a deep sigh. "Fine, I'll come home,"
Willow let out a screech. "Yeah," She threw into a hug with Buffy.
When they broke away, Buffy placed her hands on her hips. "But where am I going to stay?"
Willow glanced over at Spike as a smiled creep upon her lips.
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Buffy looked around at the apartment. It seemed cleaner than she had seen before. She walked slowly into the living room as she placed her bag onto the couch. She looked over at the table next to it. She saw scattered papers written on. Some crumpled. She picked up the paper and noticed it seem like it was a song. She read the first line.
"Beauty queen of only eighteen-"
"Well, pet, guess-" Spike's voice made her head shot up. Spike notice she was looking at some of his papers. He quickly ran up to her and grabbed them out of her hand. "What the bloody hell are you doing?"
"I was just-"
"Just nothing," He said sternly. "Next time, ask pet," He began to walk towards the bathroom.
"Spike," She said softly.
Spike turned around. "Yeah, love," He said through a deep breath.
Buffy bit her bottom lip softly. "What was that?"
Spike looked down at his paper. "Oh, just some homework for English class,"
Buffy gave a light nod.
"Right then," Spike said as he turned around towards the bathroom. He closed the door behind him.
Buffy let her eyes flicker as she dug her hands in her jean pockets.
I couldn't tell you,
Why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday...
She heard the shower go on. She took a deep breath as she walked down the hall to her room. She stopped at her door. She looked across the hallway and saw Spike's door open. She looked around and walked quietly into his room.
I couldn't help her,
I just watch her make,
The same mistakes again...
She looked around the room and went towards his mirror. She looked at herself and frowned.
What's wrong, what's wrong now,
Too many, too many problems,
Don't know where she belongs,
Where she belongs...
She turned over at his bed and saw scattered clothes. She noticed it was his. Then she looked over at folded clothes. They were hers. She walked towards his bed and noticed her stuff pig on it. She sat on his bed and grabbed her stuff pig.
She wants to go home but nobody's home,
That's where she lies broken inside,
No place to go, no place to go,
To dry her eyes broken inside...
She gave a light kiss on the top of the pig's head.
"No one really understand do they?" She rubs on the stuff pig and smiled lightly. "Ever since Mom died, seems like I can't go on,"
Open your eyes,
And look outside,
Find the reason why...
She took a deep breath as she looked over his bureau and saw a photo of him. She grabbed it and looked at it. It was him. He seemed like he was trying to look tough in the picture. He was leaned up on the gate pursing his lips as he tilt his head back. She laughed at the picture. She was about to put it back when she dropped it.
"Oh shit," She bent down and went to pick up the pieces of the photo frame. She held the picture of him that came out of the case when another picture dropped out. She picked it up and looked at it.
You've been rejected,
And now you can't find,
What you left behind...
Be strong, be strong now,
Too many, too many problems,
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs...
She stared at the picture. It was her. She narrowed her eyebrows. She was sleeping in the picture. She turned the picture over and read what was on the back. 'The only time I really saw her smile.' Buffy eyes began to form with tears. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
She heard the shower turn off.
She wants to go home but nobody's home,
That's where she lies broken inside...
No place to go, no place to go,
To dry her eyes broken inside...
She quickly placed his picture on the bed and wrote something in front of the picture. She placed both of the photos into the photo frame and placed the photo frame on his desk. She quickly grabbed her stuff pig and clothes as she walked out the room and closed the door of her room behind her.
Her feeling she hides...
Her dream she can't find...
She's losing her mind...
She's fallen behind...
Spike walked out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist. He went into his room and closed the door behind him. He ran his fingers through his hair and rubbed his face.
She can't find her place...
She's losing her faith...
She's fallen from grace...
She's all over the place, yeah...
He narrowed his eyebrows noticing the stuff pig and clothes were missing.
"Buffy must have taken them," He said to himself.
He looked over at his desk and saw something written on his photo. He walked towards it and picked it up.
She wants to go home but nobody's home,
That's where she lies broken inside...
No place to go, no place to go,
To dry her eyes broken inside...
His eyes followed the words as he read them.
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And this is the only time... I've really seen you try to be bad and... seen you happy...
--Buffy
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Spike let out a sweet smile as he placed the picture back on the desk. He got dressed and walked out his room. He walked towards Buffy's room and gave a light knock on the door.
No answer.
He opened the door quietly as he saw her sound asleep on the bed. He closed the door behind him and walked towards the bed. He bent down as he saw a smile on her face. Knowing she might kick his ass later, he went into the bed with her under the covers as he wrapped an arm around her waist. He placed his head on top of hers. He placed a light kiss on her head as he closed his eyes.
"Spike," Buffy mumbled.
Spike opened his eyes and looked down at her. "Sorry love, I just-"
She turned around to face him and then wrapped an arm around his waist as she tucked her head down as she closed her eyes. "It's okay, I feel scared alone," She then fell into a deep sleep.
Spike smiled as he gave a light kiss on her forehead. "It's okay, pet. I'm here," He said softly in her ear. He closed his eyes as he fell asleep in her arms.
She's lost inside, lost inside...
She's lost inside, lost inside...
A/N2: Reviews Please!! I know this chapter sucked, but watch, it's going to get better!! And that song was by Avril Lavigne called "Nobody's Home", Great song. You gotta hear it.