Title: She Will Be Loved
Author: Lori
A/N: Hey everyone. I know it's been a while since I posted this new chapter. A lot of things has been happening and I haven't had time. One, I had writers block. Two, my phone got cut off, so I couldn't get to the internet. Three, I'm was at my friend's house to I was all having fun. But I finally got it done. ENJOY!!!
Chapter 14: Tell Me
Spike groaned quietly as he opened his eyes steadily. A small smirk appeared on his lips as he turned slowly to his side. Slowly, that slight smirk went away, with no Buffy in site. All his eyes appear to see is a small written letter on the wrinkled pillow. He leaned onto his right arm and picked up the note. His eyes followed the first words:
This is me...
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Buffy sat quietly onto her desk as she head tightly onto her paper.
"If you hold it any tighter,"
Buffy turned her head to the side.
"I think the professor won't except it all mushed up and that equals to a big zero,"
Buffy smiled slightly. "Hey Willow," She sighed slightly as Willow sat down onto her seat next to Buffy.
"So," Willow turned to Buffy. "What's wrong?"
Buffy eyes slowly turned to Willow. "Nothing really, just nervous," She placed a strand of hair behind her ear and leaned her head onto her hand.
"About what?" Willow eyebrows narrowed.
Buffy smiled slightly. "Standing there," She turned to the front of the crowd. "Telling people how I really feel," She withdrew her eyes from the crowd and looked down onto her paper.
Willow gave a sympathetic smile. "Don't worry Buff, he might not even pick you,"
Buffy gave a deep breath. "I hope so,"
Buffy's eyes gazed at the teacher coming into the classroom with a big smile on his face.
"Okay everyone," He said clasping his hands together. "Time to pick my victims," He began to look through his name of people when the door suddenly bursted open.
Buffy's eyes met a cool blue ones and all she can do is look away.
Spike looked toward the teacher who had a wide grin on his face.
"I don't think so mate," He handed the teacher his paper. "This one is more of a private issue,"
The teacher laughed slightly. "Very well Mr. Giles," He turned back to his list of students.
Spike walked up towards the desk and sat far up behind Buffy, only giving her a sweet smile.
Buffy laid her head onto her desk. Only to know the three words she dreaded to hear.
"Buffy Anne Summers,"
Buffy shot her head up and let out a groan.
The teacher slightly gave a wicked smile. "You're up,"
Buffy got up and fixed her clothes. She made her way through the desk and made her way in front of the class. Her gaze of the people all staring at her made her more nervous then ever. Even the one person who was staring at her the most.
"Uh, Hi?" Buffy said nervously.
The whole class gave a laugh which made her feel a little bit better.
She looked down onto the paper she was clutching and looked back up.
"This is just a little something I wrote," She looked down. "Here it goes,"
I hate the way you stare at me
I hate the way you make me see
The way I really feel inside
I should've just hide...
Spike quickly got up and fixated his eyes onto Buffy.
The way you are
Is nothing like who you really are
I just wish you can just stop being you
Cause' I feel like I'm going to fall in love with you...
Buffy looked up at Spike whose eyes were in shock. Then she took a deep breath a continued.
I am scared
You're not making this fair
To know how I feel
This...I can not deal...
Her eyes began to well up with tears as she began to read more.
I wish the feeling can just go away
But...it just can't fade
Wish you can hold me forever
And make me feel this feeling stop never....
She began to choke on her words as she looked at Spike who had a soft face. She closed her eyes and try to fight these tears from coming down.
So hold me tight
And I'll show you what's right
With you and me
Is that you actually...make me breathe...
When she was done, everyone began to look at her.
"I'm sorry," Buffy said between tears. She placed the paper down onto his desk and ran out the classroom.
Spike got up from his seat and quickly ran after her.
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"Buffy!" Spike said yelling after her.
Buffy began to run down the hallway.
"Buffy, please stop!" Spike yelled following her.
Buffy stopped slowly and turned to him. Eyes welled up with tears, which made Spike hurt even more.
"Love," He slowly took a step towards her. "Is that how you feel?"
"Spike, please stop," Buffy said as more tears came into her eyes.
"Buffy-"
"Spike," Buffy said interrupting him. "I can't do this, I'm sorry,"
"Buffy is that how you feel?" Spike said walking towards her more.
"No, please," She turned to walk away when a hand on her arm flung her around to face her.
"Buffy say it," Spike said sternly. "Say that you love me,"
Buffy shook her head. "No, Spike please you're hurting me," She said as she began to cry even more.
"Buffy you know how you feel," Spike eyes began to well up with tears. "Tell me you love me, tell me that you love me!"
Buffy's shook her head. "Spike, I can't, please," She said between tears.
"Bugger this," He grabbed her face and began to kiss her passionaltley.
Buffy try to push away, but all she could do was feel right back. She began to kiss him back as his arms grabbed her waist, and she quickly fell upon around his neck. Spike felt her tears upon her lips as he teeth slightly grabbed onto her bottom lip.
Buffy broke away taking a breath and looked at Spike.
Spike opened his eyes and looked at Buffy. He placed his hand onto her cheek and let his finger part her lips.
She closed her eyes and opened them again.
"Tell me you love me," Spike said softly as his eyes met hers. "Bloody hell, you know you feel it,"
Buffy bit her bottom lip. "Spike, I just can't," She quickly turned away and ran down the hallway as she dissapeared.
A stressed out Spike punched a wall and leaned his head onto the wall. He took a deep breath and looked down the hall.
"I will let her see she loves me," He dug his hands into his leather duster. "If it's the last thing I do,"
TBC...
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