AN: This is the chapter where you guys finally know what's wrong with Ash…or is it? Okay, no really you guys will know what's wrong with Ash by the end of this chapter. Aren't you tired of me stringing you on with each chapter?

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"Ashley…you have breast cancer." Did he just say that? Did I just hear that?

"W-what?" I chocked out.

"You have breast cancer." He repeated. I was in a lost for words.

Cancer that word hit me like a thousand knives in my chest…and worst of all it was breast cancer. How could this happen to me? I'm a good person…cancer doesn't come to good people. I started to tear up.

"We can help you, Ashley." He patted my back, but I didn't want to hear it. I was going to die; I just knew it. My life is over.

"No one can help me! NO ONE!" I tore away from him, as my tears started to flow steadily.

"Why me? Why not someone else? I don't deserve this!" I shouted. I didn't deserve this…this wasn't happening to me. This wasn't real.

"Ashley, I can't answer that question. No one asks to get Cancer. It just happens."

"We'll just run a few tests and we'll see if the cancer has spread or not. For all we know it might not be that bad…" He rambled on. I didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to be here. Nothing could make me feel better, nothing.

"Will you just shut up?! I'm going to die! I know I am…so just stop fabricating it!" I yelled and it was true. I was going to die, and my parents would just watch me die…but I wasn't gonna let this happen. They couldn't know. No one could know.

"Ashley please calm down. You're not going to die."

"Please tell me you're lying, Dr. Meadows. This is all a joke right? Some cruel joke, right? Paige…Spinner and Craig. I know you're out there! This is very funny." I laughed out of spite. I was in denial. This had to be a joke it had to be.

"Ashley no one is joking. This is a very serious matter. We have to discuss this."

"Discuss what? That I'm going to die? That I'm going to loose my hair? That I'm going to wither away each day. And my family would have to watch me die and my friends would have to watch me suffer, right? That I'll have to take chemo and puke my brains out, right? Well guess what. I'm not going to go out like that! I'm going to live everyday of this like my last until I die!" I shouted, and that's what I intended to do.

"Chemo is just a possibility. It depends on how far the cancer had spread. And if you let us do some tests-"

"I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOU!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

"I don't want to hear this! This is not happening!" I started to cry hysterically as I slid down the wall and onto the floor.

"You'd never think something like this would happen to me." I cried.

"Why me? Why me?" I asked frantically.

"The first step is to realize that you have Breast Cancer and that you will live." He tried to comfort me, but I wasn't buying it.

"My life is over." I whispered hoarsely.

"You have to tell your parents." My parents? Like I'm really going to tell them. I had to keep this a secret from everyone. No one could know. I'd just have to act normal again. Like nothing was wrong with me.

"If you promise me, that you'll see me once a week on this, I'll trust you enough to tell your parents on your own." He reasoned with me. I contemplated on what he offered. Maybe I could survive this…maybe there was hope. Oh, what am I saying? I'm going to die…a little white lie won't hurt anyone would it?

"Fine." I lied as I left his office; I wanted to get out of here. To forget this ever happened. Before I left the office I went to use the bathroom.

I started at myself in the mirror my mascara was all runny. I whipped my mascara of my face and stared at myself in the mirror. My eyes were blood red and my skin was pale. I could just see myself months from now…If I was going to last that long. Bald and pale…I didn't want that to happen to me. I know I sound vain right about now, but I can't help it. And that's why no one can know what's happening to me. This will be my secret and no one else's. I stared at my reflection a little while longer as a new fresh batch of tears started to fall. I wanted to break the mirror. Why did this have to happen to me? Me of all people…

I walked out of the bathroom and into the lobby. All eyes were on me, like I had a disease (which I did) or something. I couldn't take the intense stares…it was too much for me, so I ran out.

"Ash wait!" I heard Paige shout but I wasn't waiting for anyone. I had to get out of here, so I did what I had to do. I ran…I ran from everything. I had to get away from the cancer, my life, my problems, and my fears…so I ran.

Unfortunately Paige caught up with me on the Fourth block.

"Ashley wait!" She shouted as we finally reached my house. I didn't say a word.

"Ashley talk to me." She pleaded as she closed the door behind her.

"Ash…please." She pleaded as we sat on the couch. I wasn't about to spill to Miss Gossip Queen herself.

"We all heard you yelling out there. So just tell me…please. We're friends." Maybe I could tell her…maybe she had changed. Before I knew it I started to cry.

"It wasn't supposed to be like this." I whispered.

"What? What wasn't supposed to be like this?"

"This wasn't supposed to happen." I sobbed, trying to get it all out.

"Ashley, you have to stop talking in circles."

"Paige…when he told me the news, I didn't believe it and I still don't. This can't be happening to me." I cried.

"Ash! Will you just tell me already! Whatever it is it can't be that bad." She reassured me but she had no idea what I was going through.

"Paige…the doctor told me-he told me…he told me that…" I tried to struggle to get it out, but saying it meant, I had it.

"I have breast cancer." I whispered hoarsely as I started to cry hysterically.

"Oh my goodness...Ash. I'm so sorry, if there's anything I could do." Paige said as she hugged me.

"Oh hun, don't cry. Please don't cry. It'll be okay. You'll survive this." Paige whispered as she consoled me. I could tell she was just as shocked as I was when I first heard. But she was wrong about one thing. I wasn't going to survive this. I was convinced that I was going to die.

"Paige…I'm going to die." I told her.

"Ash, don't say that. I know plenty of people who have survived breast cancer." Really? Well I wasn't going to be one of them.

"You should join a support group of some sort." She suggested.

"I'm sick of people telling me what I should do! All I want to do is go back to the way things were! This isn't supposed to happen to someone like me! This just isn't. It's unfair!" I cried I knew what I was saying was wrong, but I had to get this out.

"Ash, you have to realize this. You have cancer and you have to get yourself help. It might not be that bad at all, Ashley. I'll be with you every step of the way." She smiled, but I didn't have the heart to smile back. I was miserable.

"If there's anything I can do to help, I-"

"Help me keep this from everyone including my parents." I cut her off; she looked at me with the most shocked expression.

"Ashley, you have to tell your parents. It's not good to keep this sort of stuff away from them. This is serious!"

"Page remember when you got raped? You kept it away from everyone so why can't I?" I retorted.

"That was different." She tried to justify her actions.

"How so?" I challenged.

"Ash. You have cancer this is something your parents need to know, and your friends too."

"You want to be so much of a friend to me, then help me keep this from my parents. Please Paige, it would be best if they don't know or find out. I have to figure out a way to die…so I can free everyone from the pain I'm causing. I don't want anyone to watch me die, they can't handle it."

"Ashley do you hear yourself? Why are you making decisions for everyone?" She asked me.

"Paige, please. Just help me, do this little thing for me please." I pleaded. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but this is the way it had to be.

"Fine." Paige muttered unhappily. She had to find away to help Ashley, just not like this.

"You promise?" I questioned her.

"I promise." She whispered doubtingly.

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Meeh, that was a great guess…and as it turns out you were right.  So Ashley has cancer-interesting twist huh? And trust me Ash is def. not out of the woods yet. I'm gonna try to make this story as realistic as I can. Breast Cancer is a serious matter.  Is what Ashley's doing wrong? Will Paige keep her promise? Or will her mother find out?