Chapter 4: Lonely Spirit.
A/N: Ahhh! So sorry! I haven't updated in FOREVER! Please forgive me! I just want to let you people know, that I won't write unless I get reviews, so PLEASE READ AND REVIEW MY STORY! IT ONLY GETS BETTER!! Well anyway, this chapter does not have a song title and isn't written around a song. I'm not sure if I will do anymore of that, but if I do it might be with Good Charlotte or some more Avril Lavigne! So! HAPPY READING AND PLZ READ N REVIEW!!!
Note: A teensy weensy bit of SessxKag fluff and a bit of a language warning!!
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After Sesshomaru left Kagome to her own agonizing pain and saddened thoughts, he retreated to his study. It was a circular room with rich, oak floors and plain walls that copied his usual, cold expression perfectly.
He paced back and fourth, remembering the events that had taken place not even an hour ago.
'That miko...She dare talk to me in such a manner? What could make her think she has authority over me? Me, Sesshomaru Lord of the Western Lands...HA! I laugh inwardly at that. I should have put her in the dungeon cells if I knew she would have talked to me like that. Yes! That is exactly what I will do ...'
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Finally free of her thoughts, Kagome fell asleep...Only to be haunted by her dreams...
-Dream-
Stumbling aimlessly, Kagome walked through the woods. All she saw was blackness and an occasional light through the trees. Extending her arms out in front of her, she tried to feel around, to feel anything. She felt as though she was walking on clouds all of a sudden.
That's when she realized she wasn't standing anymore. She was laying down on a futon. She was unable to move. Demons began licking their lips and the frightened and paralyzed Kagome lie trembling, trying to move and trying to get any of her muscles to work.
She was seeing an overhead view of herself, trembling and flinching around. The demons were getting steadily closer. She tried to scream out, but in the midst of paralysis, she became unable to use her voice to where the only sound that now came out of her was an odd mumbling groan.
It was then that a loud, piercing cold laugh echoed around the room, sending chills down her spine and giving her goose bumps. It was the worst thing that she had ever heard, and it scared her to death.
One of the demons was so close now that she could feel its hot, suffocating breath on her neck. She whimpered in fear. It was touching her now. It was shaking her...Wait a minute...
-End Dream-
"Kagome, damn Miko, wake UP!" Sesshomaru shouted shaking Kagome violently with his eyes narrowed in a deathly cold stare. She opened her eyes, screamed and sat up right in his chest. For a moment all she saw was silver hair and thought it was Inuyasha, so she wrapped her arms around his neck in a death grip that shouted, 'hold me forever'.
He stopped speaking and his eyes opened wide in surprise. He was frozen with fear. He had never embraced, let alone been embraced by a mortal other then Rin, but that was an exception.
That's when he finally inhaled her scent full out. His eyes fluttered for a moment as he breathed in. Her scent was that of apples and lilies that mingled with the scent of sweat and fear.
Not unable to control himself, he slowly wrapped his arms around her, taking in her warmth and contentment, oblivious to everything about the room.
All of a sudden she stiffened and she remembered nothing, she thought she was being attacked. She thought she was still in her dream. She began screaming.
Sesshomaru's eyes got wider as he looked alarmed at her behavior. She pushed him away quickly, taking him by surprise and knocking him down on his butt. She screamed again, shrank into a ball and began trembling. The cold, evil laugh was still ringing in her ears. She had never been so scared in her life.
Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes and walked up to her. Her eyes were wide with fear and shock. He scowled. "Filthy creature..." he then raised his arms to pick her up and take her to the dungeon, but she flinched and whimpered. He grunted and picked her up anyway.
He was surprised at how tense she was, and then realized she had very strong muscles for a human, but he waved it off and continued down to the dungeon.
He also ignored the fact that a human girl fell asleep in his arms...
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When Kagome woke, she started to get scared. Before she opened her eyes, a wet, dirty smell met her nose and she sat up to find herself in a darkened, cold dungeon cell. She shivered and saw a worn blanket in the corner. Not trusting it, she chose to be cold then to be covered with no telling how many germs and dirty clumps that she had no idea what they were.
Looking around she wrinkled her nose and shivered. It was about as big as two compact cars, side by side, and had hard, cold stone for walls and flooring.
There was what appeared to be a flat slate with a battered and old futon that lay upon it. She grimaced at the thought of sleeping on that and shivered once more.
Sitting in the middle of the cell, she looked around the small room. The cell door and bars were across one length of the wall appeared to be made out of wrought iron and had a large lock on the door. She shivered at the sight, and all of a sudden got very angry at Sesshomaru for putting her down here.
'Why would he do that? Did he do that when I hugged him after my dream?' she thought to herself, and then she gasped and blushed at what she had done. She felt something clench in her stomach, and wondered what he must think of her for doing that.
She, once again, remembered everything but held in the tears, and fought back unbearable emotions and squirmed uncomfortably at the thought of her dream. What had it meant? She'd always thought dreams meant something, whether they were completely stupid, or held the visions of someone dieing. It still meant something.
Closing her eyes, she could only imagine how weak Sesshomaru thought she was. It made her nauseas to think of what Sesshomaru will do to her when he realizes Inuyasha won't come for her and then have no use for a pathetic soul such as her...
But she soon realized she no longer cared. She no longer had the will to live, the will to fight for freedom. She could care less what Sesshomaru did to her. She almost wanted to sit here forever...
She almost wanted to sit here and rot. Rot and become nothing more or less in this world then a wandering and lonely spirit, wandering with no destination or sense of happiness...
Once she took in her surroundings and wallowed in her self thoughts, she scooted from the middle of the cell and over to the wall and brought her knees to her chest. Holding her knees close to her torso, she tried to get warm but failed miserably. Sighing, she tried to suppress another shiver, and tried to ignore her rumbling stomach.
After being in there over an hour, that's when she heard the sound of a heavy, un-oiled door being opened. It made a loud echoing squeak that made her cringe.
There was just light enough for her turn her head to the right and see a large disfigured shadow dance upon the wall around the corner that was fast approaching.
The soft, almost silent footsteps echoed on the stone floors, whoever it was, was almost gliding. She overcame her fear and sat Indian style against the wall instead, so whoever was coming wouldn't think she was scared or cold.
As the figure turned the corner she held in her breath and stared intently to a pair of golden eyes that met her own. After a few seconds of staring, his face twisted and smirked evilly then he narrowed his eyes into small slits.
"So, pathetic creature, you have decided to wake." Sesshomaru greeted. At first he was shocked to see Kagome in such a state. Her face was pale, and he could tell she was trying to cover the fact that she was cold and shivering. Her eyes were sunken and hollow into the sockets, almost deathly looking. She looked so frail in the darkness and he wished he could hold her...
'WHAT THE FUCK, NO! Where the hell did THAT come from? Damnit, Sesshomaru, you're getting weak. This bitch is evil...pathetic...grotesque...' he thought in his head, thanking Kami that she couldn't hear his thoughts.
She stared back into his cold expressionless eyes, with her wide, empty brown ones. His eyes narrowed further and he almost laughed.
"You're so pathetic. You can't even sit alone for a day with out getting sick." He sneered; fully aware she was to catch cold very shortly.
"I've been out that long, Sesshomaru?" She asked in a distant, scratchy and hollow voice. Sesshomaru was glad he was in the shadows, because he shivered slightly at her the tone of her voice.
"I brought you here late last night, and it is now well past supper time. Which, by the way, you will get none of...I personally don't think you deserve it." He sneered.
Kagome didn't bother to argue, nor did she bat an eye. She just responded with a mere, "Fine." and turned to stare blankly at the wall.
Sesshomaru walked closer to the cell door and hissed, "You should be thankful I'm even keeping you alive, yo – LOOK AT ME WHEN I AM SPEAKING TO YOU!" He thundered, but she barely even flinched. She just turned her head, and blushed in the darkness, sending a touch of color to her pale, cold cheeks that he could not see, as she remembered the previous night.
Sesshomaru scowled at her and turned on his heel, but she stopped him dead in his tracks. "I need to see my family. I need to at least say goodbye." She whispered her voice cracking. He turned back around and glared at her, but kept his voice calm as usual, "You will do no such thing. You are my prisoner. You shall remain imprisoned here until I am to rid the world of such a filthy creature, do I make myself clear?"
His words hurt her. They hurt her badly. She would never be able to see her family again. She wouldn't get to muff up Souta's hair and pull him in a hug. She would never kiss her mother and mutter the words she has only heard in her nightmares. Her grandfather, she would never get a chance to tell him again how useless his Sutra's and spells are. Never again would she be free...She will forever be a lonely spirit, wandering this world...forever...
Not caring whether he thought of her as being weak, she finally found a will to live and brought her knees to her chest, sobbing. Her whole body shook as the tears continued to flow. She would never tell her family, Inuyasha, Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kilala, Kaede she loved them...
'Mom'...
Sesshomaru gave her what sounded like a snort and then turned back around and left. Left the broken Miko that was to be destined to be killed...And one thing she always wanted that she will never have...is to love someone...and for them to love her in return...
"Inuyasha." She muttered, before sickness overcame her body. The last thing she saw was the stone wall across from her, and all she heard was the cruel, cold laugh that continued to ring in her ears.
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Well. Another chapter...I am personally very proud of this chapter. It is my favorite as of yet. So I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I did writing it!!! PLEASE READ N REVIEW!!