Misery of the night
Part 3: Silence and Solitude (Clarisse)
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The next morning, Clarisse looked like hell from lack of sleep. She knew there was much to be done for the wedding today but at the moment, there wasn't anything she wanted to do but curl up in bed and never leave.
"There's a saying old
"Says that love is blind
"Ah Joseph", she thought bitterly. She knew their love was a risk. They were from two different worlds and completely different.
"Still we're often told
"'Seek and Ye Shall Find'
She stepped into the shower and let the hot water pour over her. She missed him already and was about to throw all queenly acts out the window and go fall at his feet.
"So I'm gonna seek a certain lad I've had in mind.
"Lookin' everywhere
"Haven't found him yet
But she couldn't do that. There was too much at stake these days. Her own personal life would have to wait till Mia was securely on the throne for fear someone would take over. Clarisse just hoped that Joseph would take as good of care of Mia as he had her, for she wouldn't be around to witness it. A year at the outside and she would leave her granddaughter to her destiny.
"He's the big affair I could not forget
"Only man I ever think of with regret
Nothing could erase his memory from her mind, no matter how hard she tried. Oh the love and happiness they could have shared!
"I'd like to add his initial to my monogram
"Tell me where is the shepherd for this lost lamb
She had dreamed of their life together. They would be so happy and free. Perhaps they could travel or even simply have a sweet little house together. For him, she would learn how to cook! That dream was washing away as fast as the water in the shower.
"There's a somebody I'm longin' to see
"I hope that he
"Turns out to be
"Someone to watch over me
She knew times would have been rough. Many would have not been open to their marriage, people despised even their friendship. They ignored them, they would have been lost without each others company. They had been the best of friends. None of the past mattered now, nor any of the dreams. 'That's why they call them dreams' Clarisse thought bitterly. 'Because they would never become a reality.'
"I'm a little lamb that's lost in the wood
"I know I could
"Always be good
"To one who'll watch over me.
Love is a very much like a flower, slow to grow and blossom, but easy to crush and destroy through any negligence. Perhaps that's what she did wrong, wasn't attentive enough, ignoring him in favor of all the wedding details. She didn't know. All she knew was her heart would now forever stay firmly locked.
"Although he may not be the man some
"Girls think of as hansom
"To my heart he carries the key
She couldn't afford to let her mind wander to him anymore. She had to face facts. What was done was done and nothing could be changed now. She shut the water off
"Won't you tell him please, to put on some speed
"Follow my lead? Oh how I need
"Someone to watch over me....
She had a wedding to get to. Too bad it wouldn't be her own
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A/N Hahahaha little does she know. I hope you have enjoyed this little entry. All we have left now is Joe's response and the wedding night as asked for. The song is "Someone to Watch Over Me" as done by Rosemary Clooney in the musical "Oh Kay!" and I totally forgot to mention the song last time. It was "In the Wee Small Hours of the Morning" as done by Frank Sinatra. Oh and good news. The next chapter of The Winter Visitor will be up as soon as tomorrow or as late as Thursday. Review and tell me what you think!