Okies, I'm so sorry this has taken me so long to get round to, I've just had a really really rough last few months and had no time, nor desire to write, which I know isn't fair, but anyhow, on with the chapter. Oh, the first few lines are stolen from this movie I studied in school called "What dreams may come" by a New Zealand director Vincent Ward, it had Robin Williams in it, I recommend you go out and hire it right after you finish reading this Oh and one more thing, there's some slight language in this.
Dear Diary,
I'm writing in your bullshit pages, because Albus Dumbledor seems to think you're therapy. Like he could even know what I'm going through, like anyone could. After everything its only Hermione that I can trust, she never lied to me; she's kept me strong.
Father…ha! Severus Snape, how could I ever be related to him, scum of the earth, ditched the preggers girlfriend, live happily with his lovely rich family, swing between Dumbledor and Voldermort, keep himself safe, chuck a couple of dollars mums way, sign me over to an Aunt and Uncle who spend their lives lying to me.
No wonder I've been so confused latterly, thoughts running everywhere, cant remember things people swear are true, shifting from one so called 'home' to another yet not feeling like I belong.
The only place I feel safe is in Hermione's arms, when she hugs me, or places a hand on my shoulders, play fighting in the swimming pool, but of course I ran from her too.
Maybe I should just keep running away from Hogwarts, away from New Zealand, or England or the wizarding world, maybe I can find somewhere no one will know me….
Yet I don't know how, I cant run, I cant hide, because everyone follows me, Severus Snape, Hermione…
Hermione… I want her here with me, to hold me, maybe she knows what's going on with me, or maybe there's nothing left for me in this world
Percy.
Dear Son,
This is your mother speaking, now I know you are having trouble dealing with the idea or your father and myself adopting you out, and of his seeming 'abandonment' of you, but I really feel the 3 or us should sit down and talk about all this.
Your father and I are coming to Hogwarts via portkey later this week, along with Hermione, she says she will come to the meeting with you to help if you would like her too, in fact all this was her idea, she cares about you greatly my boy.
So do your father and I and don't you forget it.
Love Sarah Ann
Dear Hermione,
My 'mother' informs me you are coming to Hogwarts later in the week, it will be nice to see you again, and then I can strangle you for setting up this absurd meeting with my 'parents'
Dumbledor came to me earlier, after I had received my 'mothers' letter. He's set up the time and place, and his eyes twinkled away quite merrily as he forced me to endure a stupid bloody heart to heart talk over sherbet lemon drops.
Blah blah blah went the old man. Now I have a great respect for all Dumbledor is doing with the school and in regards to the dark lord, but I must say he likes to interfere far too much.
You're the only one I can trust Hermione.
Love Percy
Dear Percy
Look you are going to have to face this whole situation at some stage, weather you like it or not, and I know Dumbledor interferes a heck of a lot, but then he is very wise and should be listened too.
Don't stress about the meeting, and don't lie I know you are stressed and worried, and thus pretending to be angry to cover it up.
I'll be there to hold your hand and help you through it.
Love you Hermione
Dear Diary,
Well once again I resort to you as bullshit therapy. Now I know bullshit isn't a nice word, but then again, right now I don't feel like a nice or happy person. It's a funny word really…muggle expression. My 'mother' Sarah-Ann taught it to me.
How could they do this to me diary? How could they just let me go, everybody has, by parents, my adoptive parents.
Hermione said she loves me in her letter, I know she feels sorry for me only though. Why else would she say that, no one loves me, I'm not worthy of love…no matter what Dumblefool tells me.
Percy
Dear Ginny,
You, young lady have some explaining to do!! I mean here I get back, go to my rooms to dump my things, and there are you and Harry sitting on the couch making out. I gave you the password for my head girl's rooms in case of an emergency, not so you could use it to hook into my best friend!
Heheheh, even if you too are the cutest thing I've ever seen.
Love Herm.
P.S don't worry I wont tell Ron
Dear Herm,
What can I say? I'm ashamed of myself. Teehee.
Harry's just so sweet and we were actually looking for somewhere to be able to just talk, Ron's always following us around, and making ure we don't do anything, makes even just saying hello awkward. I promise, we weren't looking for a place to make out
Love Ginny.
Dear Hermione,
You know me too well, thank you for coming to the meeting with me.
It really helped, who knows maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to one day build up a relationship with Severus, Sarah Ann is already starting to feel like a mother.
Will you come with me to visit the Burrow next weekend, I have to face Molly and Arthur at some stage, and you make me feel so much safer and more confident.
Love Percy.
Perc,
Of course I'll come to the burrow with you
Kisses herm.
Dear Hermione,
Honey thank you for looking after my Percy at the meeting. I really appreciated it.
But why I'm writing, I have to ask, what did you say in your last letter to Percy?
He's being hyper happy since he got it, you should know, despite his condition and all, he's very much besotted with you. You're a very lucky girl, and he'll be a very lucky man if you return the feelings.
Love Sarah Ann
Honey,
Didn't want to wake you, you looked so sweet and peaceful sleeping. Have gone into London to pick a few ingredients up.
Ill be back at lunch
Love Sev.
P.S When I get back you better have a good explanation for what I saw earlier, and don't even try to tell me you know nothing about it, little ms.
Xoxo.
Okies, so not my best work, and what has Severus seen? Hehe
Luv Gs.