"Chapter 5 Confess to me Your Love Tonight
Rory arrived at the bridge 15 minutes earlier than she told him to meet her there. She thought she'd get there early and give herself some time to figure out what she'd day to him. She sat down and stared into the reflection of the full moon on the pond. It was so mesmerizing she stopped thinking of what to say and let herself get completely caught up in the moment. Like Emerson described in his essay "Nature." Just her and nature, nothing else. She jumped when a small pebble broke the calm surface of the water. She looked up and smiled at Jess as he approached her.
"Sorry," he started, "you were concentrating so hard I thought the only way to break the staring contest between you and the water was to make it blink first."
"I would've won anyway. Sit down."
He sat next to her and pulled out the paper. "So what's this about?"
"I thought it was self-explanatory, you're here aren't you?"
"Well yeah, but."
"I just wanted to see you. To talk." Rory said quietly.
"I won't argue with that. What's up?"
"I might as well just come out and say it."
"Oh boy, what is it?" Jess started to get a bit worried.
"Well, you know how Dean."
"How did I know this would be about him?"
"Jess? Can I finish?"
"Yeah, go ahead."
"Well, you know how he'd always get upset when we hung out?"
"Yeah."
"You know how he always talked about you liking me?"
"Yeah, so what? Dean's a loser."
"So it is true?" He was caught off guard; he looked at Rory trying to figure out where this came from and where it was going. "What do you think?" He asked.
"I don't know that's why I asked."
"Why do you want to know?"
"Jess, could you just answer, no questions asked?" Rory pleaded for him to be serious.
"Rory, I don't know what to say. I don't want to say the wrong thing and make you mad."
"You won't," she reassured him, "no matter what, just tell me."
Jess sat in silent thought for a few moments. Should he tell her? Could it end in him getting exactly what he's wanted for so long? Or should he lie and avoid being vulnerable? He liked the latter idea, but he loved the thought of being with her even more. He turned and looked into her crystal blue eyes.
"Yeah. Yeah I do have feelings for you."
Rory could feel her heart start to swell up.
"So I guess this is yea for us." Rory said.
"What?" Jess was confused.
"You said, 'if he likes her and she tells him she likes him, then yea for them'."
He sat there looking at her for a couple seconds letting what she just said sink in.
"But you never told me."
"Jess, I just did."
"But you said it was."
"Lane. Yeah, I know but I needed your input on what I should do."
"I see, so now what?" He asked.
"I haven't figured that part out yet."
"Well, I suggest we talk about THAT later and let's talk about something else."
"Like what?" Rory said relieved.
"Like, what'd you think of the book?"
"It was great! Surprising. Ironic."
"Yeah I know!" Jess started. "Imagine, being killed by your lover's husband's lover's husband because he thought you killed his wife when really it was your lover who killed her."
"It sounds like it belongs in one of those brain buster books."
"Or a Jerry Springer episode."
"Pretty mind blowing. I felt so bad for Daisy's cousin, what was his name?"
"Nick. Yeah, I know, he was the only one who really knew everything that was going on but he was still so insignificant."
"Sad."
After the initial conversation had switched, Rory's nervousness subsided and she relaxed. It felt so natural to talk to Jess, like they had been friends forever. She loved listening to him talk, how he pronounced some of his words. His crooked little grins, his cocky little smirks and especially the way he raised his left eyebrow. She loved his lips so much she was constantly resisting the temptation to pull him close and kiss him. And it was all she could do to stop herself form running her fingers through his perfectly disheveled hair. She couldn't deny her feelings for him any more than he could deny his feelings for her.
Theme song: Can't Fight This Feeling by REO Speedwagon I can't fight this feelin' any longer And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow. What started out as friendship has grown stronger I only wish I had the strength to let it show. I tell myself that I can't hold out forever I say there is no reason for my fear. 'Cause I feel so secure when we're together You give my life direction you make everything so clear. And even as I wander I'm keepin' you in sight You're a candle in the window on a cold dark winter's night And I'm gettin' closer than I ever thought I might. And I can't fight this feelin' anymore I've forgotten what I started fightin' for. It's time to bring this ship into the shore And throw away the oars forever. 'Cause I can't fight this feelin' anymore I've forgotten what I started fightin' for. And if I have to crawl upon the floor Or come crashin' through your door Baby I can't fight this feelin' anymore. My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you I've been runnin' around in circles in my mind. And it always seems that I'm followin' you girl 'Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find. And even as I wander I'm keepin' you in sight And I can't fight this feelin' anymore
Rory arrived at the bridge 15 minutes earlier than she told him to meet her there. She thought she'd get there early and give herself some time to figure out what she'd day to him. She sat down and stared into the reflection of the full moon on the pond. It was so mesmerizing she stopped thinking of what to say and let herself get completely caught up in the moment. Like Emerson described in his essay "Nature." Just her and nature, nothing else. She jumped when a small pebble broke the calm surface of the water. She looked up and smiled at Jess as he approached her.
"Sorry," he started, "you were concentrating so hard I thought the only way to break the staring contest between you and the water was to make it blink first."
"I would've won anyway. Sit down."
He sat next to her and pulled out the paper. "So what's this about?"
"I thought it was self-explanatory, you're here aren't you?"
"Well yeah, but."
"I just wanted to see you. To talk." Rory said quietly.
"I won't argue with that. What's up?"
"I might as well just come out and say it."
"Oh boy, what is it?" Jess started to get a bit worried.
"Well, you know how Dean."
"How did I know this would be about him?"
"Jess? Can I finish?"
"Yeah, go ahead."
"Well, you know how he'd always get upset when we hung out?"
"Yeah."
"You know how he always talked about you liking me?"
"Yeah, so what? Dean's a loser."
"So it is true?" He was caught off guard; he looked at Rory trying to figure out where this came from and where it was going. "What do you think?" He asked.
"I don't know that's why I asked."
"Why do you want to know?"
"Jess, could you just answer, no questions asked?" Rory pleaded for him to be serious.
"Rory, I don't know what to say. I don't want to say the wrong thing and make you mad."
"You won't," she reassured him, "no matter what, just tell me."
Jess sat in silent thought for a few moments. Should he tell her? Could it end in him getting exactly what he's wanted for so long? Or should he lie and avoid being vulnerable? He liked the latter idea, but he loved the thought of being with her even more. He turned and looked into her crystal blue eyes.
"Yeah. Yeah I do have feelings for you."
Rory could feel her heart start to swell up.
"So I guess this is yea for us." Rory said.
"What?" Jess was confused.
"You said, 'if he likes her and she tells him she likes him, then yea for them'."
He sat there looking at her for a couple seconds letting what she just said sink in.
"But you never told me."
"Jess, I just did."
"But you said it was."
"Lane. Yeah, I know but I needed your input on what I should do."
"I see, so now what?" He asked.
"I haven't figured that part out yet."
"Well, I suggest we talk about THAT later and let's talk about something else."
"Like what?" Rory said relieved.
"Like, what'd you think of the book?"
"It was great! Surprising. Ironic."
"Yeah I know!" Jess started. "Imagine, being killed by your lover's husband's lover's husband because he thought you killed his wife when really it was your lover who killed her."
"It sounds like it belongs in one of those brain buster books."
"Or a Jerry Springer episode."
"Pretty mind blowing. I felt so bad for Daisy's cousin, what was his name?"
"Nick. Yeah, I know, he was the only one who really knew everything that was going on but he was still so insignificant."
"Sad."
After the initial conversation had switched, Rory's nervousness subsided and she relaxed. It felt so natural to talk to Jess, like they had been friends forever. She loved listening to him talk, how he pronounced some of his words. His crooked little grins, his cocky little smirks and especially the way he raised his left eyebrow. She loved his lips so much she was constantly resisting the temptation to pull him close and kiss him. And it was all she could do to stop herself form running her fingers through his perfectly disheveled hair. She couldn't deny her feelings for him any more than he could deny his feelings for her.
Theme song: Can't Fight This Feeling by REO Speedwagon I can't fight this feelin' any longer And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow. What started out as friendship has grown stronger I only wish I had the strength to let it show. I tell myself that I can't hold out forever I say there is no reason for my fear. 'Cause I feel so secure when we're together You give my life direction you make everything so clear. And even as I wander I'm keepin' you in sight You're a candle in the window on a cold dark winter's night And I'm gettin' closer than I ever thought I might. And I can't fight this feelin' anymore I've forgotten what I started fightin' for. It's time to bring this ship into the shore And throw away the oars forever. 'Cause I can't fight this feelin' anymore I've forgotten what I started fightin' for. And if I have to crawl upon the floor Or come crashin' through your door Baby I can't fight this feelin' anymore. My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you I've been runnin' around in circles in my mind. And it always seems that I'm followin' you girl 'Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find. And even as I wander I'm keepin' you in sight And I can't fight this feelin' anymore