thank you guys for all the reviews. Sorry that it took me so long just that I wasn't sure where to go with this chapter. I'm still not happy with it, but it the best I can get out. It's a flast back chapter that I hope you guys enjoy.

Julie don't worry down the line we will get Ryan and Summer's thoughts on the whole thing.

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He sat in his bedroom unsure of everything that was going on around him. In the matter of a few hours his life had gotten so complex that he felt as though he had been thrown into a roaring storm. One that no matter how much you tried to grab on to something nothing would hold you down. He had ruined just about every relationship that he had ever worked for in the matter of a few words, "I think I might have fallen in love with Marissa."

He wasn't even sure when he started to feel his feelings for her, but that happened at some point. Now though, he was sure that he had lost his chance to be with her. There was no doubt in his mind that she still held some type of feelings for Ryan, and that Ryan loved her back. He didn't know how he could be so dumb as it even think he had a chance with a girl like Marissa Cooper. He should have known that when he didn't last with Summer that he set his hopes to high.

He threw the pillow against the wall in a fit of rage, he looked up has he heard a crash and noticed a box of his entire pictures landed up on the floor. He let them stay on the ground; he wasn't in the mood to be reminded of the moments Marissa and him spent together in the past few months.

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She couldn't believe that he had just told her in front of everyone that he thought he was in love with her. It had changed everything she had hoped to keep simple in her life. She only had a few more months before she could leave this town and start everything out. Part of the reason for going to NYU with Seth was to see what could happen 3,000 miles away from their normal lives. It wasn't like she could just start dating him now, even though she wanted it. There were so many factors to be played into how they felt about each other, that it felt to Marissa that feeling between to people didn't even matter anymore. She knew that what had happened with Ryan had a lot to do with how she acted with Seth. If things had ended differently with Ryan, if they had ended on a better terms she wouldn't think twice about it. Things didn't end right with Ryan though if anything in ended up in the wrong possible way.

That night she remembered it as though it had just happened. It was a moment that changed the relationships of everyone.

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The house was empty except for Seth and Marissa in the living room playing video games, a habit that the two of them had picked up on over the past few months. They wouldn't say much, but it was just the fact that they enjoyed the time they spent together without everyone around. It was a strong friendship bond that neither one of them ever had before with someone of the opposite sex.

"I won," Marissa yelled at she finally bet Seth at the game. She put her game control on the ground and said, "Ha Ha I win."

"Go ahead rub it in. It's never going to happen again," he said in a little bit of a pout.

"Sore loser," she said as she faced him. It was in that moment that their lives changed. She leaned in and kissed him, neither of them was expecting it, but it happened.

"What the hell," they both looked up and noticed Ryan and Summer in the door way with pizza.

"Um…um…" Seth said, not really sure what to say at this moment. "Ryan, Summer this wasn't something planned. I'm not even sure how it happened." He said as he tried to find the right words, but nothing was coming out.

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That night she ended up breaking up with Ryan. She still loved him deeply then, and it hurt her so much to end it. She knew Ryan could never trust her again, and would always be unsure of her friendship with Seth. Part of her still believed that five months after that night she had some kind of emotions for Ryan. Her emotions where all over the place, and every moment she spent with Seth the more she seemed lost. Newport wasn't the place to be with him, and it was part of the reason she had agreed to go to NYU with him.

She walked up the stairs to his bedroom where she didn't even knocked just walked right in. "You know you are not the only one who is so confused about their emotions on this whole subject, Seth. My emotions are all over the place right now also, and as much as you know I would like to give us a try I just really don't think Newport is the place for it." She said as she sat on the bottom on his bed.

"You don't think I know that. It's been so hard living with Ryan. I wish I could go back in time and fix everything that went wrong. If I could I would never have allowed you to kiss me that night, because for as much as I wanted it, I think it ruined a bond between four people that can never be fixed," he said as he sat up on the bed. "I love you Marissa, but from this moment on I'm putting the ball in your court," he said as he stood up from the bed. "I'm not going to force you into anything you don't want, and you can always count on me being here as a friend. Until you are ready to take a chance on us, I'm not going to say or do anything." He said before he walked out of his room.

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