A/N: Hey, all, sorry I haven't updated in a while! I've been busy with school (Spanish). I hope I get to update more frequently, that all depends on school, though.

Summary: Kevin and Lucy meet at a coffee shop and he realizes he is still in love with Lucy.

Chapter 4- What's in Kevin's head?

Ruthie's Diary

Dear Diary,

I told you I thought Christmas was crazy, I was wrong. You will never guess what's going on. Let me tell you about everyone..

Dad and mom- they've been quite sane (is that normal?.....nope)

Matt and Sarah- they never showed, they were snowed in

Mary and Carlos- snowed in too

Simon- he's getting ready to go back to college

Sam and David- same as always

Oh, but the real gossip is with Kevin and Lucy. I think everyone wants to know what's going on with them, but I don't think they'll find out. I know for sure that Lucy still lives Kevin, but I'm not sure about his feelings for her. I'll write more later, Lucy's coming! Love ya! Ruthie

The next morning. Lucy walked into the coffee shop on the corner of Main Street, to meet Kevin for coffee. Kevin was already seated at a corner table, when Lucy walked in. Lucy waved when she saw Kevin, he of course waved back.

Kevin's POV

I saw Lucy walk in and I felt something I didn't feel a couple of days ago. She waved at me when she walked in. I waved back. She is wearing that top, I gave her last year, with a pair of jeans. She looks nice. She smiled when I waved. "Hey Kevin," she said as she sat down.

"Hi," I replied. Did she really have to wear that top? "So, when are you going back to school?"

"January 3rd, but classes don't start till the 10th. The only reason I'm going back early is because I need to get my books." she told me, still smiling. Please don't smile Luce, I don't think my heart can take it. There was an awkward silence until it was broken by Kevin.

"So Luce, umm... do you like Yale?" I asked still hoping she would stop smiling.

"You've already asked me that, but I'll answer that again. I love Yale." she told me laughing.

"I'm glad you like it Luce, how much longer are you going to be at Yale for?" I asked her. I took a sip of my coffee as she answered.

"Hopefully, 2 more years, but I'm not for sure."

"Only two more years, that's really cool Lucy. I'm happy for you," I told her. Stop smiling. You are not going ti stop smiling are you. Lucy and I, talked for about another 20 minutes, until she said she had to go. "Bye," I told her as she got up and walked to the door. Ok, what am I thinking, I have a fiancee, I can't love Lucy, and yet every time I see her smile, my heart melts. I think, I'm falling back in love with her.........wait I can't be in love with her, I'm engaged. I don't wait to hurt Emily, but I don't think I'm really in love with her. Although I don't want a long distance relationship, I think I'm willing to try again. But the question is does Lucy love me?

A/N: I hope you liked the chapter. As I always say don't forget to review! Brittany