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Summary of Chapter: Koriand'r wakes up to find Robin sleeping next to her … but is it really him? Moreover, why does Raven want to talk to her after all this time?
: ch. 01 Illusion & Reality :
It had been so long since the Tamaranean was able to get a good night's rest-- but why now? Why, all of sudden, was she able to sleep like a normal teenager? Maybe it was the alcoholic beverages she had consumed last night or the fact that it felt like her sister wasn't here … but that would never happen because everyone adored Blackfire and so did he.
Koriand'r groaned at her thoughts and shifted her body to the other side. Feeling a slight weight on the opposite side of the bed, she opened her eyes only to be staring at a young man sleeping silently. Her breath caught in the middle of her throat and her heart began racing like those racehorses at the track. Even though her vision was blurry, she could still make out the features of the boy next to her.
Curved but still strong built face, the nice cream complexion, his puckered lips … oh his lips … how she wished that she were her sister at the moment. Maybe thiswhole this wasa dream! Haha, silly Koriand'r. There's no way he would fall into bed with such a creature like myself, she thought.
Her hand suddenly stretched out and began to caress his cheek. Seeing his sleeping face made her eyes water. When she felt his hand grasp hers, she gasped quietly and began to tremble. His eyes were opening and there was no explanation she could give to him if he asked her what he was doing in her bed.
"Mmm … Star? What time is it?" Her eyes widened at his calmness.
"Ah, Robin … I think … I think you have mistakened your bed for mine; my whole room for that matter," she replied trying not to freaking out.
She watched him sit up in bed and took notice of his nude upper body! Not even a tank top!! Her tan face began to glow a deep crimson color as she stared at his well-toned chest. Then, he leaned in closer towards the Tamaranean so that their faces were only a few inches away. She could feel his hot breath upon her lips, which made her shudder.
"Has anyone ever told you that you look real beautiful …" The leader of the titans murmured softly as he dipped his head down to brush his lips against hers.
Her breath stopped short in her throat as she tried to regain consciousness from his lips. If this were a dream, she wished for it to never end, but to continue forever and ever. His hands then grasped hers while he kissed her again, this time, she had begun to see fireworks light up in her room. She watched his blue eyes stare deep into her emerald ones, almost as if he knew her deepest secrets.
"Robin …" He placed a finger over her lips as she closed her eyes taking in all of his touches.
"You're so beautiful Star. How could I not recognize it?" Robin murmured to himself, but audible..
Yes, how could not recognize me anymore?
"Your silk like skin …" His hand caressed her cheek.
Why don't you smile at me like you used to?
"Those emerald jeweled eyes." Her eyes closed slowly as he kissed them both.
Why don't you say my name like you say it now?
"Soft, bountiful hair." She could feel his other hand gently slide into her locks even though they were a bit tangled.
Have you forgotten all about me already?
"Sweet, red lips …" Koriand'r could now feel his weight shifting to her side and his legs brush against hers.
Forgotten me so much that I have to dream dreams like this now? Just so, I could feel your touch, hear your voice, and have all of your utmost attention …
"I love you Starfire."
- - - - -
A loud buzzer sounded from the little clock next to the Tamaranean's bedside. She reached over and slammed the clock's alarm button off-- yet this caused the whole clock to shatter in the process. In addition, with a groan, the girl rolled over to her side and watched the sun try to pour in behind the dark shades that made it from entering.
From the looks of it, it was another wake-up-at-8:30-A.M routine. Luckily, it was a Saturday, that meant Beast Boy, Cyborg, Robin, and her dearest sister would go clubbing tonight. That was unless there was no emergency call. Sometimes she would go with them, but would usually end up with some strange person who was her "#1 fan" or would be the laughing stock of the whole club. Therefore, in cases like those, she decided to stay home most of the time with Raven, but that girl didn't get out of room that much.
Looking at her dark pink colored carpet, she remembered some of the moments that occurred in that awkward dream. For instance, seeing Robin in her bed for the first time, hearing him talk so intimately with her, and … of course, him saying that he loved her. There was no way in the coldest depths of Hell that that could ever happen. Nevertheless, it felt as if it were so true … So real. His touch, his voice, his everything.
Rising from her bed, she grabbed the lavender towel and bathrobe that slung over her desk chair and thought of starting the day off with a cold shower as she exited her room.
- - - - -
"Goodbye my friends and dear sister! Have a good night out!" Starfire waved from the door that led to the garage.
"Bye Star," Cyborg said as the engine of his so-called "baby" purred.
"Raven and you are in charge, Koriand'r! If any trouble comes up, just call us," Robin yelled from the back.
Her green orbs watched her friends depart from the garage and once they were speeding off, she turned off the lights and closed the door. With her back pressed against the door and her hands against the cool surface supporting her, she choked out a dry sob. How had the perky and inquisitive young girl used to be turn into a depressing teen like herself? Weren't these the girls where girls her age were going out and taking in all life were to give?
"Starfire, are you all right?"
As her eyes lifted from off the floor, she met the dark purple eyes of her teammate, Raven. Quickly, Starfire altered her expression and used that fake smile of hers to wipe away the sad look on her face. Another mask, different attitude … just to keep the people she cared for most happy. Yet she could see her friend was not impressed at her now "happy look."
"You could've gone out with them if you wanted to. You really didn't need to stay," Raven informed her friend coolly.
"Oh no, I couldn't. They are all too happy to add an extra bunch to their litter." She waved her hands in front of her face.
There was a long, intense pause as the two titans stared at each other. Starfire with her happy smile and Raven with a questioning look on her face. Could it be that Raven was already onto her? She had hid the "other" part of her so well …
"And you really don't have to hide the fact that you were about to cry earlier."
"Cry? What makes you think that?"
"Starfire, I know you. You have been my ally and friend for almost ten years. I know you more than you think." Raven's words and eyes punctured right through Starfire's heart.
Had she known that Raven knew why she acting this way … Things could've been way different, so different. The girl balled her hands into fists as her head lowered, avoiding the other titan's gaze. Low whimpers began and tears followed afterwards-- emotions were building up inside of her and they wouldn't stop.
"Do the others ... Do … Do they know about this?" Raven shook her head in response.
"Then why haven't you talked to me in the first place?! Why did you have to act like them?! Am I not good enough for the Titans … For my friends anymore? Do I know reach, what you call, your standards?!" Starfire cried out.
"Do you think I could do that before? You would've just denied it and acted like little Ms. I'm-Ever-So-Fecking-Happy, isn't that right Star?" Raven retorted while calmly watching her friend break down. "I'm sorry I had to talk to you now like this, but Star, we do care about you. And if you can't believe what I'm saying, you might as well leave the Titans."
It took a moment for Starfire to regain movement of her body since crying was taking up so much energy. She then lunged into Raven's arms and buried her face on her friend's shoulder.
"I'm sorry Raven …" Starfire mumbled as her sobs were nearly under control.
"That's ok Starfire, as long as you don't ruin my best suit." The auburn headed girl backed away wiping the tears on her arms. "Well … I guess since it is my fault for having a decent, girl-to-girl," you could tell Raven was having a hard time admitting this, "chat … I was thinking …"
"Hmn?"
There was sigh from Raven. "Let's go grab the beer and talk."
Starfire nodded happily as her friend floated away down the hall towards the kitchen. She followed and began to wonder if there was someone up those stairs actually trying to light a path for her.
: ch 01 Reality & Illusion :
Author's Note: I've had writers block about what to happen in the second chapter and I think the ending was crap. However, I had to finish it for you all, but don't worry! There will be a scene in chapter 3 of what will happen with Raven, Starfire, and the beer. ) and no, nothing slash-ish. You bad people think I would actually do that? Anyway, please review again because it makes me happy seeing your wonderful words. Flames are welcomed, but makes xandiira a sad lil' puppy. Remember, if you have any ideas, e-mail me at and I'll see what I can do with them. I cannot make promises on ideas, but I can make a promise on releasing long, good chapters. I'm glad you people like it, and thank you once again.
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