Disclaimer: I do not own Newsies. Or half the information of this story, half is owned by Rubix The Cube because this is what we RPed about. And she came up with half and I came up with the other half. I share all claims to this story with her.
Sorry this one took so long to put out. :blushes: A lot of things have happened from the time that I put the last chapter out and now. I was bombarded with school work, a really messy breakup, work, etc. :shrugs: That's life. I hope you all enjoy this chapter! I have a few more planned for this story!
Sleep? Out of everything that has happened, I need sleep? I want to talk. Dude, no I don't. I'm tired. No I'm not. I want more. Haha, yeah more. I'm addicted! What am I talking about? I don't know. I'm talking. No I'm not. Yes I am! Sleep! Come to me sleep!
And I slept. I don't know what the hell he did, but I slept like a little baby. Dude I wasn't hardly doing anything, and I was tired as hell. Oh well, I guess he slept too. I mean, it would have been pretty damn boring just sitting there doing nothing. So yeah, he slept too, I believe.
I don't know how long I slept for, a few hours maybe. I don't know what time I fell asleep. I don't even know what time we got to my house. I quickly awoke from my sleep, confused, but then realizing where I was. I looked over at him, sleeping like a baby. Thumb in mouth, and the whole works. I heard about that. I heard that he still sucks his thumb when he sleeps, oh well, now I know it's true. He was so cute lying there. He looked so sweet, so innocent. I couldn't believe that I was here with him. I mean, just this moment, seeing him beside me, looking as peaceful as he did, it was everything I ever wanted. It was everything I ever dreamed, and it was happening.
...don't wake him. He's too sweet looking. I leaned in and kissed his head, and woke him up. Damn it, I didn't want to. I mean, he needed sleep, right? Oh well, he's awake now. I grinned at him, not knowing what to say.
He knew what I wanted to say. I swear he was like psychic or something. It like freaked me out or something. Oh well, he was cute and that's all that matters. He leaned over and he kissed me, just like I wanted him to. He told me things that words could not say, he gave me feelings that only I would understand, and he showed me things that only we could see. What am I talking about? God I'm talking about all this mumbo-jumbo shit. You know what I'm saying. Or do you? I don't know.
Sometimes I wonder what was going through his mind. What was going through his mind at that moment, you know the one I'm talking about. What's going through his mind right now? It's like he can read mine, but why can't I read his? It's not fair to have it one way, but not the other.
Well guess what! Since I'm the narrator of this story, I can say what he's thinking. Because I'm cool like that, right? Right? No I'm just kidding, I can't say what he's thinking because I don't know. Sometimes I throw a little curve ball in there. I just wanted to see how you'd react.
...anyway, I'm getting off task here. What happened next? I couldn't possibly explain. Okay yeah I could. God stop it with the curve balls, I bet they're getting annoying by now. I should just stay on topic here that would help a lot wouldn't it?
"Snitchy, I-I love you." I told him, hoping he felt the same. I had to love him to give all that up to him.
His expression was a little hard to read. His face was impassive for a while as he swallowed and looked at me. Then he smiled, comprehending what I was telling him. He didn't say a word. He didn't have to say a word. Everything was in his eyes. I know it. I know he thought and felt the same way about me, he had to! I mean, he couldn't have done...he had to!
What is going to happen to us after this? What am I going to be like? I can't be the same. We can't be the same. Too much has happened and we just can't. I can't feel this way and know that...and still be the same. I have to change. I don't want it to be like it used to be. I hated that. I don't want him to second guess my motives, they're true! All of them! I need to leave behind everything I was. I have to...
Shit! Dude, what his he doing? He bent down and started kissing me again. Uh-oh, not again! He slowly rolled on top of me.
...fuck! You're a needy child, aren't you Snitch?
Well okay then. I won't stop you. Do what you want hun.
...and what can I possibly say? We did it again. Haha, that's really great. That's how I describe such a 'connection'. I say we 'did it'. Oh God, I say it as if it doesn't mean anything to me. Christ, it meant something. You all know that. I can't believe it was again though. I thought he was beat. I guess he can endure...a lot!
No mercy this time. Haha, God I sound like a perv. I'm not really. I'm just trying to tell you guys this...ah forget it!
Well the moment didn't last long. It was ruined by the worst thing that could possibly happen. My dad flung the door open, turned on the lights and all hell broke lose! "You stupid slut! What the hell is this?" He screamed at me.
Everyone was screaming. I was screaming, Snitch was screaming, it was a riot! Snitch like rolled off of me as quickly as he could, I covered myself, as did he.
"It's just a regular fuckfest in here now isn't it? You whore, what the hell did I tell you about bringing boys over to my house!" He yelled as he ran straight towards me. Oh God! This is it. The thing I've been hiding my whole life was going down right in front of the boy I love's eyes. "You fucking bitch, you should be in school!" He screamed as he started hitting me and punching me. I pushed Snitch away from his fists, and he fell off the bed.
Snitch scrambled to get his underwear on and then he went to help me. "Get off! Leave her alone!" He yelled as he jumped on my father and tried to pry him away. Now grant you, Snitch was tall, but he wasn't on the muscular side. I mean, he was, but he couldn't take my dad. My dad was tall and he works out a lot! As soon as Snitch jumped on him, my dad flung him to the floor. But that didn't stop Snitch; he got up and ran over to him again.
He had an easier time controlling him now. My father was dead drunk, as he usually was, so all he had to do was get in the right position and over power him. "Go!" He yelled to me, knowing he had full control.
I jumped out of the bed, scrambling to cover myself also. I was bawling, full of shame, and hurt. I got my clothes on and I slowly walked over to my dad. "Let him go." I told Snitch.
"What?" He said, struggling to keep him under his control.
"Let him go." I said again. Snitch looked heart broken. He didn't understand. He couldn't understand. I nodded at him. "Go Snitch." I told him.
"What? Trig, I?" He said.
That was it. This was my battle. It has been my battle for 16 years, and I haven't won yet. I'm not planning on winning. But I have to continue to fight. I walked over to Snitch, kissed him and pushed him away, letting my father free from his grip. Then all hell broke loose, like I thought and expected it to.
...bruised I stood still. Hurt I endured. Trembling I was silent. Blow after blow, I closed my eyes and cried. "Go Snitch. Get out of here!" I screamed, as my father kept punching me, hitting me and kicking me.
"No!" He yelled.
"Please, just go!" I yelled at him. "I'll be fine. Go! Get out of here!"
"Trig, I..." He coughed. Listen to me please, Snitch. This isn't your battle. This is mine and I have to fight it. Let me go. Let him finish me. I'll see you at school. I love you! I thought to myself, as he turned around and walked out, regretting every step that he took. I knew he regretted it, but there was nothing he could do. Either he get his ass beat in a fight that he wasn't a part of, or he could let nature take it's course. So he let nature take it's course.
Now, grant you, I was used to this. I mean, it happened at least once a week. Pops would come home drunk, and I would do something to make him mad at me and he'd beat me. That was it. That was my life. But its okay, I took it and I understood it.
"The only one who fucks in this house is me!" He screamed in my ear. I hated him. I hated all men. But I loved Snitch. Why? I couldn't understand it. With Snitch I felt safe. I loved nothing more than the feeling of his arms around me. I stood there and imagined it, and I felt it. Snitch was gone, but I still felt his touch. He helped me through. It was alright. I was okay.
The day will end, and I will be out of this. Once my father is done with me I'll be done with it. I'll cry and eventually the tears will be gone too. They'll dry up and I can be myself again. The bruises will heal and eventually the pain will fade, but the guilt will be with Snitch for a long time, I know it. He shouldn't feel guilty, it wasn't his fault. As I said, he didn't understand, he couldn't understand.
Maybe I could try to help him understand. I don't know. We'll just see what tomorrow brings. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm now a new person. I'm Snitch's, that's it. I mean, I don't mean like that, but you know what I mean. Anyway, we'll just see what tomorrow brings.
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A few more chapters to go. Maybe one or two and then I'll wrap this piece up! I'm so glad that I have a lot of fans for this one. To be honest, I wasn't sure how this one would do, but I'm glad a lot of you like it! It has a good story line behind it, you'll figure it out at the end. XD
Now for SO time:
Blue Boxer: Yay! I can't wait for this weekend! You're coming home! Yay! Hehe it's gonna be so exciting. We need to have a sleepover or something like that. We need to see a movie together. That would be awesome! Haha how did you like seeing your sister makin' it? :nudges: XD
Rubix the Cube: Haha yeah I did clean it up a bit. I didn't have the wang squeeze in there. XD I didn't want to write that...it wasn't relevant. Haha. It was but I didn't feel like squeezing his wang today. Hehe. You know I love you! Thanks so much for our RP and making this story a freaking hit! Love you babe!
Fantasy3: Thanks for reviewing hun! I'm so glad you like this story! Makes me uberly happy! Loves!
My Dog Ate My Penname: LOL thanks for reviewing hun! I hope you meant...like it was good with that review. Haha. Yeah, if I read that I would be like: 'uh? Yeah. Umm...' haha! Love ya babe!
Splashey: Aww babe! I know you're pure! I thought I was pure too...I guess not now. XD Hehe. It's fun when you rebel! Tis fun, tis very fun! Thanks so much for reviewing love! You're awesome!
C. M. Higgins: Thanks so much for reviewing babe! I love you baby girl! Mwah! You're awesome! I'm glad you like it hunny!
...thanks to everyone else who has read and reviewed. I love you muchly! XD Now go and review and I'll give you a free...umm ticket to see you favorite Newsie sing a song naked. Now go! Haha.