Summary -- Kagome tries to tell Inuyasha that people care for him. What happens when she goes too far and gets sealed on her side on the well with no way of returning...and no way of letting Inuyasha know how she feels and how sorry she is...R&R IK/MS --tissues handy(so ppl say to me)
You Mean Everything To Me
Hiya ppls! Sorry I had to take this off. I finally got back on track now so enjoy!
I'm not gonna remember this for every chapter so I'll say this now... I DON'T OWN INUYASHA...but I do own the little dinky poem at the beginning so DON'T SUE! ...even tho it stinks... Well I hope you like! oh and i havnt seen a whole lotta Inu lately and i have no idea if im gonna get this stuff right... so ya....
"Speech" 'Thoughts'
You Mean Everything To Me
Chapter: 1
You mean everything to me
I'll give you the land, sky, and sea
I'll do anything for you
I only wish you loved me too
But through thick and thin, beside you I'll be
You mean everything to me
A tear trickled down her cheek as she put her pencil beside the little piece of paper she had scribbled those words upon.
"No one will ever know how true these words really are, since I can never see him again...I would do anything for that hanyou, Inuyasha...anything."
'It's been three days since I saw him...' She glanced over at her window. "Will I ever see him crouching on that window sill again? Will he ever forgive me for what I said?" She sighed, and more tears fell. "I hope I get a chance to say I'm sorry...I didn't mean what I said, I was just so mad and hurt...but that's no excuse, there will never be any excuse that can be accepted for what I said to Inuyasha..."
FLASHBACK
The raven-haired girl shut her eyes. 'I can't take anymore!' She thought, 'It's all too much! He had kissed her...again. He, once again, ran to her at her "call" without even having a second thought! Inuyasha drives me crazy!!! When he sees her, he seems like a mindless zombie. I wish he cared for someone else beside Kikyo...someone like me...I wish he loved me...'
The girl ran blindly out of her hiding place behind the tree, not knowing where her feet were taking her. They carried her for a few minutes until she fell to her knees, sobbing into her hands. Suddenly she heard her name being called. She looked up and only one thing caught her eye... the well. Again someone called her name and this time she recognized the voice as Inuyasha's. 'I can't face him now, not like this...' She ran towards the well and jumped over the side, but she never hit the bottom, instead someone held onto her wrist, keeping her from going through. She looked straight at the bottom of the well and hoped with all her heart it wasn't Inuyasha, but she could feel his claws slightly scratching her skin. She glanced up at his face. His eyes held confusion, anxiousness, and fear. Fear...she had never seen him afraid before... at least not when he wasn't in battle...
"K-Kagome, why are you leaving without telling anyone? Are-Are you alright?" He said, his voice shaking.
Kagome stared at him. 'He always runs off with Kikyo not caring about me at all and NOW he's asking if I'm alright!?' Rage mounted within her as she glared at him, all confusion in his eyes evaporated, and was replaced with complete and total fear.
"Why am I leaving? AM I ALRIGHT?" She started shouting. "Whenever we get any sign Kikyo's around, you run to her side like a dog to its master. Then you come back and act like nothing's happened, and everything is nice and dandy."
He stared at her wide-eyed, and she continued, still shouting.
"You don't care about anyone, but yourself and your precious Kikyo. You assume no one cares about you the way Kikyo does, and you're wrong! Other people care about you more than you know. You can't even see what's right in front of you. You're so blind. So many people care about you and if you use the Shikon jewel to become a full demon, you're going to hurt someone! Or worse, kill someone! Do you really want that to happen!?...Are you still going to use the Shikon jewel to turn into a full fledged demon? You're so selfish! You can't control that side of you and you know it! You'll become a mindless killing machine! But all you want is what you think is the best for you and Kikyo. Even though she's trying to take you to Hell, but you don't even care that she's trying to kill you or maybe you want her to kill you so you could be together with her forever, forever in Hell. How should I know! You never open up to me. You probably just want me here to be jewel shard detector. That's all I am to you, isn't it? A shard detector! You're a heartless monster! I hate you!"
She gasped and clasped her hand over her mouth; she hadn't meant to say some of those things. She loved him with all of her heart. She could never ever hate him. She just wanted him to realize Kikyo wasn't the only one who cared about him, and that it bothered her how he kept on running after Kikyo, even if he was in love with her, but it was too late, the damage was done. Inuyasha's body started to shake rapidly, and Kagome could no longer see his golden amber eyes.
"If that's how you feel, then it might be better..." He paused struggling for words.
"Inuyasha, I don't-"
"Then it might be better if you leave and never come back!" He choked up the words.
Kagome's mind raced and tears clouded her vision. Inuyasha wanted her to leave and never come back. He probably hated her for what she had said, but she couldn't leave without telling him the truth and her feelings, and she couldn't bare it if she never saw him again...if she never saw him again, it would destroy part of her...most of her...maybe even all of her.
"Inuyasha, please listen to me! I-" she started urgently, but he interrupted her again.
"I'll tell the others good-bye for you, but none of them will understand, especially Shippo...Good-bye Kagome. I'll miss you..." he gulped, "...I'll miss you..." He said and a tear fell onto Kagome's hand.
Kagome stared at the tear for a moment in disbelief...Inuyasha never cried, never. Without any time for Kagome to protest, Inuyasha slipped the Shikon no tama off her neck, and paused momentarily, then reluctantly, let go of her hand. In those last seconds that she saw Inuyasha, tears welled in her eyes and she yelled, "Inuyasha, I didn't mean what I said! I don't hate you! How could I hate you?! I-", she fell through the well before she could finish her sentence. "LOVE YOU!"
Kagome stared wide-eyed at the bottom of the well of her time, knowing she hadn't said it in time.
"He didn't hear me. He didn't hear me...He hates me..." She started to breath rapidly. "...and he'll never know that I love him. I'll never get to tell him. I'll never know if he gets hurt. I won't be there to help him when he transforms. I...I'll never see him again...and I'll never ever be truly happy...not without him..."
Kagome wrapped her arms around her knees. Tears poured out of her eyes like rain, and now more than ever, she wished Inuyasha could be holding her...loving her...
END FLASHBACK
Kagome sighed and wiped a tear off her cheek, only to have more come. She sat there in silence for what felt like hours, but was really only a few minutes. She recalled all the times when she felt Inuyasha loved her back...the times she was almost certain he had feelings for her too. All the times he had comforted her and all the times she comforted him. Then something he had once said to her stuck out in her mind. She knew exactly what he had said, but she couldn't quite put her finger on it...Someone knocked on her door, interrupting her thoughts.
"Kagome?" Came her little brother's voice from behind the door.
'Great,' she thought, 'it's the one time he actually knocks before he comes in and he still interrupts what I'm doing.' she sighed.
"Yes, Sota?"
Sota partially opened the door and stuck his head through the opening.
"Mom says it's time for you to come down and eat lunch with us and she said she won't take 'I'm not hungry' for an answer because she knows you haven't eaten since you came back."
Kagome sighed.
"Can I eat here in my room?"
Sota thought for a minute, and then ran downstairs to check. A few minutes later he came back upstairs.
"Mom said that would be fine." Sota said. Kagome nodded. "Well...um-I guess I'll see you later, Kagome. Hope you feel better later..."
Kagome managed a weak, reassuring smile to Sota as he closed the door behind him as he left. A little bit later Kagome's mother came up with her lunch, kissed her forehead, and went back downstairs. Kagome got up and walked over to her bed, exhausted. She would eat her lunch after a small nap, she thought to herself, before she drifted off into a restless sleep...
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Finally!::does the hokey-pokey::
I got the first chap done. Now I'll try to update as soon as I can, so please don't be mean. This is my first fanfic, and I don't really know where its going. But tell me...how do you like?
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